A/N Thanks everyone for the reviews! In this Angel's just lost baby Connor and he couldn't handle it. Totally AU from there!! Hope that meshes ok!

Disclaimer: Don't own the characters or anything bla bla

What?

Buffy's mouth was dry, her throat wouldn't work. Looking at the expressions of her friends she wanted more than anything to reassure them that the Buffy they knew would never do anything like that with Spike.

Unfortunately that was not an option. She steeled her self for the onslaught.

"I'm sorry guys, but yes it's true. I have been having an indiscretion with Spike"

She saw Xander look away in disgust. Willow just continued to stare at her, eyes like saucers while Tara watched her for her reaction. Giles was busily cleaning his glasses while Anya was smiling at her giving her a knowing look. Dawn just looked angry.

"Saying that. I don't want you guys to worry. It's nothing serious and –" Buffy at a loss for words to explain away the looks on her friends faces started to get angry.

"Actually you know what? It's none of your damn business what I do in my personal life. It's not like any of you have stella romance histories, which I won't go into. That's the end of this conversation and this topic is not to be broached again. Got it?"

"Of course" Dawn sneered stepping forward, "Queen Buffy can do what ever she want, no matter who it hurts" Buffy reached out for her but she spun on her heel and ran up the stairs. A second later they heard Dawn's bedroom door slam shut.

"Angel was not himself when he came here. Dawn assured him that there was nothing going on with you and Spike. I guess she feels responsible". Willow said, breaking the uncomfortable silence. "I'll do the de-invitation spell just until we sort all of this out".

"Don't worry about the niblet, she'll come round. What we need to do is stock up on weapons and get out there, hunt down the bloody bastard and stake him to dust". Spike stated satisfactorily.

Buffy turned to Spike, gritting her teeth. Puncing him in the face was satisfying. Spike went toppling off the bench, effectively wiping the grin off his face.

"Tara, help Willow with the spell. Giles, ring LA see if Westley or anyone there knows what's happened. Xander, Anya, check the weapons, get them ready just in case. I'm going to get cleaned up".

"Hey, what about me? What do I get to do Buffy? I'm the one that's he's after! Buffy!"

Buffy ignored Spike and headed upstairs to the shower, deliberately locking the door. She sat down on the cold tile floor and felt the tears start to flow. How had her life got so messed up?

Spike had been her escape, someone she could lose herself in that no one knew about. She could do things with him that she would never do normally because it wasn't really real.

Now it was real. Now everyone knew. Angel knew. Buffy wrapped her arms around herself. She recalled the look on his face. If he wasn't Angelus Buffy didn't know what to think. Could Angel really hurt her? Even with his soul?

Slowly getting to her feet she removed her clothes, and the pesky handcuffs and got into the shower, determination powering her tired limbs.

For the first time since she'd been bought back Buffy had purpose. After all Angel had done for her, she would save him.

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"Oh give it a rest" Spike complained for the fourth time. His accent coming out thicker as his irritation grew.

Xander had been pointing a crossbow at him, scowling at him for the last 10 minutes. Giles was still on the phone getting details.

"I was just interested, that's all" Anya retorted, munching on a bag of chips, "If you and Buffy have had sex in a lot of positions, you might have a new one me and Xander haven't tired yet and you know variety is the spice of-"

"Anya" Xander yelled. "I really wish you wouldn't" Anya sat down on one of the stools grumpily.

"Fine, maybe I shouldn't ever talk then." Before Xander could come back with a witty retort Giles came into the Kitchen looking even more somber than usual.

"Well Rupert, what is it? Don't keep us in suspense. What happened to the bloody poof?" Giles, giving Spike an impatient look waited until Willow and Tara came back into the room, nodding to him that the spell had been completed successfully.

"It seems that Darla was brought back to life" Giles started before being interrupted by an upset Willow.

"You mean the Darla that sired Angel? The Darla that Angel killed years ago?" Giles nodded, relieved for once that Spike didn't have anything to add. Suspiciously he didn't seem surprised.

"She was brought back as human to turn Angel. When that didn't work they had Dru change her again. Into a Vamprie" Giles cleared his throat.

"It seems Angel slept with her. He did not lose his soul, but she somehow became pregnant. She had to stake herself for the baby to born. It seems everyone wanted this baby for some demonic reason or another and in the end Westley betrayed Angel, stole the baby and somehow the baby and some Holts character from Angels past were sucked into a hell dimension".

Spike's stool scraped across the floor as he pushed it back. "HOLTS?" Xander didn't even grab for the crossbow, everyone was sort of in shock.

It was then that he noticed Buffy standing in the door way, hand to her mouth, eyes wide, glassy with un ushered tears.

Spike was surprised that when he went to her she didn't push him away, even when he engulfed her in his arms.

He felt his heart surge with joy as Buffy let him comfort her. Something under normal circumstances he would never be able to do.

"I have to help him" Buffy whispered brokenly and Spike felt his hope nose dive. He had to hand it to her, she really knew how to cut a guy down.

A/N Please read and review! I hope to have a longer chapter up soon!