BLEEDING ANGEL
AN: I do not own Card Captor Sakura
Chapter 13
No more pleading, no more begging, no more explaining… She was yelling at me, screaming at me… She wasn't asking, she was ordering.
She was ordering me to…
She was telling me to…
How could she? How could she ask me to do something I've been running from for six years?
This is not where I wanted our paths to lead us. I wanted to have her by my side for eternity. I wanted her to stay with me for the rest of our lives and if the Angel permitted it, if her God permitted it, in the after life.
I was confused.
I was angry.
I was being torn to shreds!
Please, please… Don't make me complete this task I was given six years ago. Please let her live. Please grant me my selfish wish, just this once.
"Please Li, just kill me. Save your people, save your family, save your self and kill me."
"I don't care about myself." She smiled gently at me, her hand on my cheek and her heart beating in the same painful rhythm as my own. "Sakura…"
She pressed her lips against mine and I indulged myself in the sweet kiss she offered me. I became aware of the cold handle resting in my hand. I glanced down at the knife she had pressed into my hands when we shared the kiss.
The sudden roar and beating against the windows and doors and the screeching of the beasts filled my senses and I looked at the window to find them all furiously and desperately glaring in at us. They knew what she had asked me and they do not want it.
My fingers closed around the handle and she put her hands over mine. Smiling she leaned in and kissed me. Warm tears ran down her face as she pulled away and collapsed back onto the coach.
Red liquid burned my skin as I watched her face pale.
Painful tears ran down her pretty face. She took a sharp breath. "You should have killed me a long time ago Syaoran." I could feel her life slipping from this dimension; she was slowly crossing over. And I did not want her to leave! "But you didn't." She smiled at me once more.
"Sakura, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry." I did not want her to leave!
"Thank you."
Her hands slipped from around mine and fell to her sides. I became aware of the burning tears on my own face as I pulled the blade from her limb body. It smirked at me and I hated it more that I've hated anything in my life.
My foggy gaze shifted to the windows. The sky was starting to light up and in a few hours the burning sun will once more sweep down over the planet and wash its life giving light into homes and onto joyous faces. Except for one.
My gaze shifted to the girl.
The threat was gone. It disappeared along with her life.
Who knew such beauty held such a force, such pain in her life.
I had to rid the world of this pain and this force.
I had to take her life.
Damn the world!
Damn my life!
My blood slowly flowed from my veins and my red liquid of life mixed with the girl's. Bitter tears ran down my face and I pulled the girl tight into my arms as the knife slipped from my grasp and fell to the ground.
I look at my troubled past
I turn to my forgotten future
I remember
I remember
"Forgive me Sakura." My vision blurred and I could hear feet rushing toward the room, toward us. I brushed hair from the girl's face.
I kissed you
I love you
Do you remember?
Do you remember?
How come in death everything becomes so clear? That in those last few moments you share with that one person everything suddenly becomes so clear? "Xiao-lang? What are you talking about?" Confused I looked up at my mother. Had I said that aloud? Yes, must be if my mother… "Xiao-lang…"
"I killed her." Fresh tears burned my skin. "Will I be forgiven?"
"Yes, yes Xiao-lang. The Angel forgives all those who did what they must to protect the people."
"Will her God forgive me?"
"Yes, Xiao-lang, I believe He will. I believe He will forgive you."
I closed my eyes.
Finally.
Finally I can rest, my task is done.
And I hope…
I hope that I will be forgiven.
Forgive me Bleeding Angel
For I have sinned.
I lifted my hands from my abdomen and smiled up at the dark ceiling of my sorrow filled home. My pain was gone and life washed with the blood dripping from the roof down into my veins, washing me clean of my own blood, of my own pain and sorrow.
I am the Angel of Death, the Bleeding Angel.
Once in every ten thousand years my life starts to slip from my grasp as it slips from the mortals and I have to reclaim it once more. Once every ten thousand years lovers die so I may live, so I may protect the people of this planet.
It was written in the stars that the Prince of Death and his Flower will give life with their death. It was their destiny. The beasts helped me for fill this prophesy, their destiny.
They had completed their destiny.
Now I shall watch over them in the heavens and over their people on this planet until the time comes. I shall continue in the task God has given me.
"See" God said. "I'm sending an angel ahead of you to guard you along the way…"
AN: It's a damn depressing ending! But it's the only way. It's sad, but true. So if you don't like my ending go write a book and tell someone who cares! Ha-ha!
Thank you so much for sticking this story out with Xiao-lang and me. I'm grateful that you stayed with us through all his heart ache and turmoil and all my typing errors. Thank you for all your encouraging reviews urging me to 'go on' and to 'update soon'. It has taken a while, but we are here.
So in the last rays of the day
I lift my head to the sky
I let my lips play with a smile
I let my heart love who I want
I let my soul roam free
And I thank God
For the last moments
You with me
Thank you
Tella