FAITH, LOVE, AND HAPPINESS
(AUTHOR'S NOTE: Lyrics in this chapter taken from Thousand Foot Krutch's 2003 album "Phenomenon". I guess this means I like this band... but does this song NOT fit perfectly into not just this chapter, but this story in general? Maybe I'm just weird)
Tru woke up, and immediately walked out into the rest of her small apartment.
She heard the shower running, so she assumed Faith was in there getting washed up.
About 20 minutes later, the water was still running, and there were no other sounds coming from the bathroom. Naturally, Tru began to worry about her friend.
"Okay... if she's not out in five minutes... I'm going in..." she whispered to herself as she twiddled her thumbs and waited.
Five minutes passed.
Not a sound.
She inhaled deeply and stood up, slowly creeping her way towards the bathroom.
Listening to the door, Tru could make out a slight humming noise...it wasn't a pleasant sound, it was broken up and distraught, almost like a sob.
Oh my god, is she...crying?
Without a second thought, Tru pushed the door open gently and searched around for Faith. And she found her, curled up in a corner of the room, away from the shower, crying her beautiful eyes out. It broke Tru's heart to see her friend in such agony, and she had no idea why it hurt so bad to see her like this.
She knelt beside Faith, and put her hand out onto her shoulder.
"Faith, what's the matter?"
The slayer jumped a bit, and looked up, shocked.
She wiped the tears from her eyes and sniffed a bit. "Would you b-believe me if I said 'nothing'?"
Tru smiled and ran her fingers lovingly through Faith's long, unruly hair.
When did it become 'loving'? Oh who cares...
"Nope,sorry. Now ya gotta tell me what's bugging you... I wanna know...and... why is the water on?" Tru reached over and turned a knob, stopping the flow.
Faith smiled... lovingly...
When the fuck did it become 'loving'? Oh who cares...
"I put the water on so... you couldn't hear me cry...A-are you still mad at me?" Faith said in a very small voice, barely heard by the other girl.
Tru hugged her close to her and whispered in her ear, "No, not at all, I am so sorry for treating you like that, I just, blew up on you for no reason and..."
She trailed off, becoming aware of Faith's body wrapped up so contently in her arms. "Shh, I understand, I mean... you ARE grieving... I can't just expect you to open up and talk to me... You only just met me a few days ago and I wouldn't think that..." Faith was interrupted by Tru's lips being placed on her own.
She gasped in shock and pulled away, crawling backwards across the bathroom floor in a desperate attempt to get away from Tru.
"What...the...hell...was that!!!???" Faith yelled as she bumped into the wall behind her.
Tears welled up in Tru's eyes for the second time this morning, and she bit her lower lip, looking down in shame.
"I ..." She stopped, glanced at Faith, then ran out of the bathroom.
WHY THE HELL DID I DO THAT!? What the hell is wrong with me!? Duh, Tru, you're in love with Faith, NO! SHUT UP! Wait... I must be crazy, I'm having a mental conversation with myself... But.. I think I'm more crazy for what I did... oh god she's gonna hate me...and then.. woops... rambling, SHUT UP!
She slammed her door and locked it, leaning against it as if it was the only thing keeping her from falling...which it was.
"Oh god..." she sighed, and sat down on her bed, head in her hands. "What have I done?"
What am I gonna do..? what can I do?... nothing...
She pulled out a walkman and played the rock music station headphones to help her ignore the situation she just put herself in.
The song that was on the radio caught her with the chorus.
It was angry, which she had to right to be, except at herself.
"Everyone is up in my face, need to get out of this place, it's hard to see with you in front of my face, just another perfect day, acting like they wanna talk to me, so fake yet so friendly. My eyes can see even the back of me, won't you just let me be.
Cause everyone is falling away, feel like they're stolen from me, wish everything didn't happen to me, all I want is faith, love and happiness. Everytime one runs away another one's returning, I wish everyone could just see your face. Faith, love, and happiness.
It seems everyone is up in my space, like it's the American way, I run in case somebody takes my place, just another change of pace. I know you think you know a lot about me, but so many wanna doubt me. My eyes can even see the back of me, won't you just let me be.
Cause everyone is falling away, feel like they're stolen from me, wish everything didn't happen to me, all I want is faith, love, and happiness. Every time one runs away another one's returning, I wish everyone could just see your face. Faith, love, and happiness.
Every which way I turn I've got the option of a million choices, every single word I say is judged by a million critics. Every which way you turn you hear the sound of a million voices. Every single move you make is torn by a million cynics. When will we all see the light of day? I don't know.
Cause everyone is falling away, feel like they're stolen from me, wish everything didn't happen to me, all I want is faith, love, and happiness. Every time one runs away another one's returning, I wish everyone could just see your face. Faith, love, and happiness."
She laughed at the so-called irony of that song.
Yeah, Faith, love and happiness, I'd settle for all three if I didn't screw this up so badly...
She heard a noise in the corner of the room, and she turned her head to see Faith leaning on the doorframe, smiling, but frowning.
Tru opened her mouth to try and explain, but Faith just held her hand up and shook her head.
She walked over to the bed and knelt in front of Tru.
"No talking, no thinking, just... kiss me... okay?" She said, pulling the headphones out.
Tru gulped and nodded quickly but nervously.
Faith leaned forward and kisses her, sending jolts of electricity down Tru's and her own spine.
They were magick.