Chapter 8

The next few days went by in a blur. Katie had had her commitment ceremony on the fourth day of the trip and now the boat was getting ready to dock on some little Island that no one could pronounce.

Shalimar and Emma were busy getting ready in their room. Shalimar didn't know what was going on with Emma, one minute she would act like nothing was going on and the next she'd be all over Shalimar like a rash. She had tried to talk to Emma about it but she would always end up changing the subject. They were just about to leave their room when Adam's voice crackled over their comlinks,

"Shalimar? Emma? Are you somewhere you can talk?"

"What's up Adam?" Shalimar spoke into her ring.

"I think you need to come back...It's Jesse." Shalimar tensed at hearing that.

"What is it? Tell me he's ok Adam"

"I don't want to go into must detail but he was shot with some kind of taser gun a few days ago and he's not doing too good." Shalimar didn't know what had hit her, she slowly sat down in one of the chairs and put her head in her hands.

"Can you track us Adam and pick us up? We've just docked on some island," Emma had took over the conversation.

"Yeah I'll do it now and get Brennan to pick you up in the helix." Adam cut the link.

Emma looked over to Shalimar who still sat with her head in her hands. She walked over to her and knelt down in front of her. Shalimar looked up and her face was wet with tears.

"Im so scared Em. I don't know what I will do without him."

Emma cupped Shalimar's face and wiped away the tears with her thumbs. She leaned in and placed a gentle kiss upon Shalimar's lips.

"Jesse is a fighter he'll get through this but you have got to be strong for him ok. Do you think you can do that?"

"Yeah crying won't get me anywhere. We better pack, it won't take the helix that long to get here." Shalimar spoke her voice still trembling.

A few hours later they were back in sanctuary, they had told Katie that there was an emergency back home and that they had to leave right away, she was disappointed but understood. Emma and Shalimar had went straight to Jesse, after half an hour Emma went back to her room to unpack but Shalimar stayed with Jesse. Emma fell asleep, when she woke she looked at her watch, 2 am, she rolled over planning to go back to sleep when she heard someone in the bathroom. She pulled herself out of bed and opened the door to the bathroom to find Shalimar.

"Hey you ok?" she asked the feral.

"Yeah, Adam said that Jesse is doing much better."

"Good." Emma said while walking upto the feral and wrapping her arms around her waist. She leaned in and kissed just below her ear. Shalimar sighed.

"Em, we said before we left that we couldn't do this, at least not yet. There's too many complications at the moment, what if we get caught?"

"I know but...." Emma took Shalimar's hand in her own and slid it into her pajama bottoms to rest between her thighs, "I'm soo turned on."

"Oh God," Shalimar moaned, feeling the wetness between the psionics legs. Emma kept Shalimar's hand their with her own and started to grind her hips into her hand. Shalimar pulled Emma even closer with her free hand and kissed her hard., Emma smiled into the kiss loving how easily Shalimar gave in. Emma pulled her hand away from Shalimar's that was still between her thighs confident that Shalimar knew what she wanted. They crashed into the bathroom wall making a loud thud but neither cared.

Shalimar was working her way down Emma's neck with her lips whilst teasing Emma with her hand but not giving her the release that she needed. Emma wrapped her arms around Shalimar's neck lightly raking her fingernail down it. She couldn't take the teasing anymore so she pleaded with the feral. Shalimar heard the pleas along with moans and whimpers so she stopped her teasing and gave Emma what she wanted, sending her over the edge in a matter of minutes. She held onto Emma as she was coming down from the high that she had just experienced.

After a few minutes Emma looked up and smiled at Shalimar. The feral placed her forehead on the psionics and whispered,

"Em."

"Yeah."

"I love you." She pulled her head back to look at a shocked Emma.

"I know it's soon and that you probably don't feel the same way, but i'v had feelings for you even when you were with Brennan and i'v come to realise that im madly in love with you."

"Shal...."

"No you don't have to say anything, I just wanted you to know that's all."

"No Shal let me speak. I do have feelings for you, I'm just not sure what they are yet. Just give me some time." Emma smiled at Shalimar who was smiling back, "But in the mean time...weren't we in the middle of something."

Emma pushed Shalimar through the open door into her bedroom, just as she was about to kiss her she saw Brennan closing her bedroom door.

"Brennan"

"Not quite the name I was expecting." Shalimar laughed before leaning in to kiss Emma but she quickly pulled away.

"No he was in here, he just left" Emma said a worried look across her face. Shalimar spun round and looked at the door.

"Shit what do we do?" Shalimar questioned

"I'll go talk to him. Wait here."

Emma walked around sanctuary looking for Brennan, she found him in the kitchen. He turned around when he heard someone behind him and saw it was Emma and quickly turned back round and carried on doing what he was doing.

"How long?" His vioce was suprisingly calm.

"After me and you... I would have never cheated on you, you should know that."

"Should I?" He turned around to face Emma his voice raised now, "You said you loved me but you never really did."

Emma didn't know what to say after that. There was an uncomfortable silence until Breanna spoke up.

"So, you and Shal is it just sex for you? Cos she obviously is in love with you...are you just fucking her?"

"Maybe, I mean no....me and Shal it's complicated....I don't know how I feel.. I don't know what me and Shalimar are." she said finally.

Brennan could tell that the psionic was struggling with her feelings and he did sympathise for her. He knew there was nothing he could do to get her back so he decided that he would put the past behind them and just stay friends and as a friend he was going to have a serious talk to her.

"Em sit down, I need to tell you something and don't interrupt me 'til I'm finished." Emma nodded and they both sat at the table. Emma hoped that he wasn't going to try and get her back.

"One thing I noticed about you is that you are so busy feeling everyone elses feeling that you never consider yours.... I know that half of the time it's not your fault but half of the time it is. You put walls up to stop you from getting hurt and I understand, I do, maybe that's what you done to me I don't know but Shalimar...she loves you Em, I heard that much and I know you love her, I felt it from you when I said her name and I think subconsiously you may have had feelings for her for quite some time, maybe that's why you couldn't love me. You can't protect your heart all your life Em otherwise you'll never really feel. Now as your friend I say, let her in and go tell her you love her."

Emma sat their stunned, her eyes glistened with unshed tears. She stood up and kissed Brennan on the forehead.

"Thank you" She said before going off to find Shalimar.

Shalimar sat in Emma's room waiting for her to come back, she was too busy thinking about everything that had happened that she didn't sense or hear Emma come into the room. She walked upto Shalimar and slid her hands round her waist from behind and placed a sweet kiss on her neck. Shalimar spun round at the sudden contact.

"Hey." Emma said leaning in to place a loving kiss upon Shalimar's lips, then started planting them down her jawline. Shalimar pulled back surprised at how calm Emma was acting.

"Em, what happened with Brennan?"

"He made me realise something." Emma said simply looking into chocolate brown eyes. Suddenly Shalimar felt a wave of emotion go through her, she recognised it straight away, it was love but not just any kind, it was love towards her. She looked at Emma, her expression between confused, shocked and happy.

"What is it, baby?" Emma asked in a teasing tone. She knew Shalimar had felt her love for her, she had done it on purpose but she decided to tease the feral for a little bit.

"Umm...nothing...it's just I thought I felt...never mind." Shalimar stuttered

"You thought you felt love?" Emma asked, face and voice deadly serious now.

"Yeah" Shalimar whispered. She turned her head away knowing that she was going to be disappointed.

"That's what Brennan made me realise. I love you Shalimar Fox. And before you ask; yes I do really mean it, you just felt it."

Shalimar couldn't believe it, Emma actually loved her. She pulled Emma close and whispered.

"Thank you. I love you soo much"

Emma smile, before pushing Shalimar down on the bed.

"Right, where were we."

The End