And here my story continues 1 month after the wedding.

I was at home in the apartment, cleaning as usual. When we got engaged and I found out I was pregnant, I moved in with Richard. It was tough to leave an apartment that I loved but with the engagement, Tom on the way and things still weird with Chandler, I had to go. I probably wouldn't have said yes to Richard if it weren't for Chandler telling me to. Then the doorbell rang and sure enough it was Chandler on the other side.

" Hey, what are you doing here?" I asked. He had a sullen look on his face and instantly I was concerned.

" Umm, I just need to talk. You know, like how we used to when you lived across the hall."

" Sure. Come in." He sat down on the couch and I sat next to him. " So what's wrong?"

" It's Phoebe. We had another stupid fight."

" It seems like you guys have a lot of stupid fights and your still newlyweds."

" I know! I don't want us to end up like one of Jennifer Lopez's marriages. I would like our relationship to last longer than a tick tack." (Sorry Jlo fans)

" Well…umm, Chandler. I don't want to sound like I'm not supportive of you guys but why are you two together? You're opposites and this whole marriage thing came kind of fast, don't you think?"

" Yea I guess, but…I don't know if I should say this…"

" You can tell me anything." He took a deep breath.

" It's been a while since we've been together and we both moved on, so I guess I can say it…I always thought of you as the perfect woman for me. After we didn't work out, I looked back on all of my relationships and I figured I must have been doing something wrong. So I decided to change something in my life, like the type of women I usually go for. Then when Phoebe and I slept together I figured that she was totally different from anyone I've been with and that maybe that was a good thing. So we started to date. One night she mentioned that we should get married and I was kinda drunk so I said sure. The next morning, I didn't have the heart to tell her it was too soon because she looked so happy and she already told all of you. This type of thing was typical of Phoebe but not for me and I thought that we could just make it work." I just looked at him in disbelief.

" So you're saying that you would change for Phoebe, but not for me?"

" What?"

" Yeah, you were too scared of commitment to just stay in a relationship with me but you were able to marry Phoebe after 6 months of dating! God Chandler, Why did you come to me about all of this? You could have gone to Joey, Ross or Rachel but you came to me, your ex. Why?"

" Because I wanted to talk to you! I don't have with Rachel, Ross or even Joey what I have with you. And it's not what you think, the only reas-,"

" What do we have Chandler? Things have never been the same since we got together and broke up. Do you expect me to give you sympathy?"

" No, I don't want your sympathy! Listen, Mon, I was not over you when Phoebe and I got together. If I couldn't have you, then at least I had somebody. Plus, Phoebe is nothing like you and wouldn't remind me of what I lost. Now, I realize that I used Phoebe but back then, I just wanted to do anything I could to move on with my life, like you had."

" But whose fault was all of this? Who broke up with whom? I wanted to be with you Chandler! If I didn't, I wouldn't have come to you after Richard proposed. You told me to go with him because you didn't want me."

" I did not say that! I wanted you to go to him because I thought that he was the better guy for you. I gave you up because of my damn insecurities. I lost the one who could have possibly been the love of my life and at that moment I promised myself that it would never happen again. I was not going to mess up the next relationship I had. Then Phoebe came around."

" Chandler…" I just looked away. My life was a royal mess. " What do you want me to say to that?"

" I don't know. I'm just glad its out in the open."

" Yeah, but what now? Do you…do you still love me?"

" Yes. Do you still love me?" Oh god, this was what they would call in the movies 'the moment of truth'.

" I think so."

" What does that mean? You think so?"

"I have so much problems going on that I don't even know if I believe in love anymore or at least true love. But I think I could love you."

" But do are you still in love with Richard?"

" No, I feel trapped when I'm with him. He's not you. Yeah, he gave me my child who I love with all my heart but…he's not you…but what about Phoebe? I won't let you hurt her, because I know how it feels to be dumped by Chandler Bing."

" I think she's silently waiting for me to end it with her. She doesn't seem happy and I know that I'm not." He moved closer to me. " Monica, I want another chance with you. You're the one I'm meant to be with." He put his hand on my cheek and his blue eyes sparkled. His soft lips touched mine and I didn't stop him. The kiss started to deepen and I got weaker at the knees. The phone started to ring, I realized what I was doing, and I gently pushed Chandler away.

" Hello?"

" Mrs. Burke?"

" Yes, this is her."

" I'm Sergeant Blenman and I have some bad news…"

" What? What is it?"

" There's been accident."

" Is Tom alright? Is Richard?"

" You're son is fine but your husband is another story. I rather talk to you in person. Come to Beth Israel hospital, third floor."

" Okay, I'll be right there." I hung up the phone and turned to Chandler. " I have to go to the hospital."

" Why?"

" Tom and Richard were in an accident."

" I'll go with you."

All right so there was a little more insight into what's going on. Let me know if it starts getting weird or confusing. Or just review to tell me if you like it. Thanks!