Once Sean parked in the parking lot of Elana's townhouse, he got out then opened the car for Elana and walked her to her door. When she retrieved the key from her purse, Sean took it and unlocked the apartment for her.
"Why don't you go and check to see that everything is alright and I'll stay here until you get back." He asked Elana as she removed her blazer and put it in the closet.
Elana did as he asked and came back to let him know everything was ok.
"Sean, I can only imagine how you're feeling right now if it's anything near what I'm feeling. I want you to know that at the time I felt like I did not have a choice and that leaving was the only way I could protect you."
"I don't want to talk about the past anymore. Now I know what happened and I know what I have to do. I just need to know that you're going to give us another chance and that you're not going to run away from me again?"
Elana did not know how to answer his question because she was not exactly sure of what he was asking. She never fathomed that it was possible for them to get back together and now with the reality of it before her, she almost could not believe it. Sean could tell she did not really understand what he had just asked, so he moved in closer to her and put his hand on her face as his fingers entwined with her hair. "I need to know that you're going to give me a chance to show you how much I still love you. I never stopped Elana. If I didn't get that across to you earlier I want you to know that. I still love you just as much as I did before, if not more now, if that could be possible. Will you give us that chance Elana? Please?"
Elana held her hand against his on her cheek as she rested her head on his hand. She now saw fully what he was offering her. 'How could she refuse' she thought to herself as he mesmerized her with his endless stare and that boyish look she loved so much. She thought she would get lost in him if she continued to search his clear blue eyes. She answered the only way she could. "Yes, Sean. I will."
Sean was more than happy with her answer and felt a need to claim her in some way branding her so that no one else could take her away from him. He slowly closed into her inviting expression and placed soft, slow kisses on her full lips. After more than a few of these kisses Sean crooned to her "I know you don't usually do this on the first date?"
"No I don't." Elana whispered.
"I'm glad it's not our first date." He sighed. They both felt overcome with a desire to have more of each other so Elana wrapped her arms around Sean's neck as he moved his hand to the back of he hair and wrapped his other arm around her waist. They pressed themselves together as their interlocking tenderly reflected the feverish build up within them both. The more intense Sean became Elana would matched him. Sean could not help but be taken aback by her natural scent which he'd never forgotten and the sweet taste of her tongue that he had longed for all of these years. He had not felt this way in so long and he was not about to relinquish it, not yet. Elana's began to sigh quietly from the passion as she massaged the back of Sean's neck and he knew she was giving him the signal to go as far as he wanted. Almost involuntarily, while he was still kissing her, Sean moved her back up against the front door and removed his blazer. He then placed his left hand tightly around her buttocks squeezing her into his groin as he slowly began to release each button of her black angora sweater with his free hand. The swell of her breast breaking free from the garment weakened him as he anticipated feeling her lush body once again and after partially opening her sweater, he slid his trembling hand under her lace bra and cupped her left breast. His own incoherent expressions were now released, because of his remembering how full and perfectly formed she felt in his large hands. He gently squeezed her and lingered there basking in the soft silky feel of her. He then began to kiss her face, chin and neck while she held her head back for him to continue exploring her as much as he wanted. She instinctively pulled his shirt out of his slacks and slid her hands underneath to explore his broad, muscular chest.
Elana could feel the swelling in his slacks, pressing hard against her and wondered how much longer it would take for him to have her. The moment he began to kiss her she had decided she was not going to resist him, not now, not ever again, because just as she had told Gail, she was not as strong as she had been in high school and college. In fact where Sean was concerned she had no self-control anymore. She had exhausted that control on others that tried to invade the wall she built around her. Now, Sean had simply come and torn it down.
As he feasted on his single favorite part of Elana's neck, from which he knew brought her the most pleasure, he wished so much that they were married so that he could father a child with her. He was almost 33 and these things were missing in his life until now. Being with Elana like this made him see how much time had been wasted and it was as if the years had gone by in a matter of days and now they were back together and everything they wanted together was set before them.
These thoughts started Sean to thinking about Sheridan and a possible child with her and he realized that he and Elana had just had such an emotional discussion. So even though he wanted nothing more than to make love to Elana, he did not want to take the chance of her stopping him like she always had before or of him making the same mistake with her as he may have with Sheridan. Even though he would consider it more of a blessing than a mistake. He surmised that there would be plenty of time for them to be together. What he wanted to do most was woo her first and then ask her to marry him as soon as possible. He saw no need for a long dating process. They'd already done that. He wanted to pick up where they left off so he just had to wait for the right time. Along with that, he knew they would have to plan how to deal with his and Sheridan's child, if there was one. So he reluctantly decided to wait and slowly pulled her bra back over her breast and started to button her sweater back up.
Elana was surprised that he was working backwards and did not want him to stop. "Don't stop honey, please don't stop..." Elana whispered as her hands began to unbuckle his belt while he continued to ravage her neck.
Elana pleading and undressing him was something new and Sean realized that if she asked again and got his pants opened, it would be all over because he would not be able to stop. So gently removing her hand from his buckle, Sean spoke while he kissed her cheeks on one side then the other. "Don't temp me sweetheart. I think we need to quit while we're ahead."
With her hands caressing his chest again, Elana responded. "Why Sean? We know this is what we both want."
With a deep sigh Sean exhorted, "Elana, as much as I want to make love to you, there are still some pending things in my life that I need to take care of. I want you to be fully aware of what you may be dealing with."
Elana remembered that he had told her about Sheridan and suddenly the thought of him sleeping with and fathering a child with another woman ruined the mood. Elana took her hands out from under Sean's shirt and rubbed her chin and chest as she sighed and rested her arms around her body to quell the euphoria she was feeling. "Yeah, I guess you're right." She said. "Have you heard anything from Sheridan?"
"No not yet." Sean said after releasing her, rebuckling his pants and picking up his blazer. He threw the blazer over the steel banister and put his hands in his pockets to keep them off of Elana. His desire for her was quickly being replaced with disdain and frustration at what he had done with Sheridan.
Elana was frustrated too, so she turned to walk down the few steps into her living room. She went over to her love seat, kicked off her shoes and fell into it, then rested her arms on the armrest and put her feet up behind her. Sean followed and sat beside her, then put his arms up on the other armrest and rubbed his forehead in his hand.
"What's taking her so long to let you know. All she has to do is take a pregnancy test."
"Sheridan is not about to take a home pregnancy test. That's for the uncivilized people. She'll probably go to one of the best doctors so that he can check her out and tell her whether she's pregnant or not. And that being the case she probably does not have an appointment until next month some time. You know how long you have to wait for a specialist to get an appointment."
"Yeah." Elana sighed and rested her head down on her arm.
Sean laid his head back and sat facing upward putting his hands on his thighs.
"Do you make it a habit of having unprotected sex?" Elana asked trying to comfort herself about why it was good that they had not been so spontaneous.
"It was the first and only time I'd ever done that. I never slept with a woman without a condom before, but I guess because I was drunk trying to get you out of my head.... She said that I practically raped her, and that I refused to use any protection. "
"What do you mean 'she said'?"
"I told you I was drunk. That was the night she told me she was going to seek you out for that business deal, and she showed me your picture on the cover of two magazines. I was already dealing with facing you soon at work after so long. Then the pictures, my relationship with her:... I just couldn't handle it all, so I got a bottle of vodka to help me drown you and her out."
"So you don't even know if you slept with her at all?"
"No, I don't. All I remember is getting drunk and waking up in a chair at my parents' house. But, I don't guess she would lie about something as serious as that."
"Humph, I bet she would; especially, after you just broke up with her. She's probably stalling trying to figure out how to get you back and get you into bed so that she can really get pregnant."
"She knows that's not possible. Before that night we had not been together in almost eight months."
"Eight months!"
"Yeah can you believe it. We had unprotected sex after eight months of abstinence and I don't even remember it. You would think that after so long without it, I would remember some of what happened at least."
"I would not know about that."
Sean looked at her and let out a small laugh as he put his hand on the side of her thigh. "Well that's pretty much how the relationship went Elana. It was convenient and everyone just thought we were the perfect couple. Maybe we were picture-perfect, but that's as far as it went. Nobody in the picture would have been happy."
Elana did not respond. She only listened as Sean lamented about his last loveless relationship. Afterwards they both sat silently for a few minutes. Sean stared at the ceiling and Elana stared out into the living room.
Needing to be close to her, he asked, "Can you come over here with me." Elana willingly turned around then Sean pulled her feet and legs across his thighs and she rested her head on his shoulder and draped her hand on his chest. Sean held her around her shoulders and wrapped his hand around hers on his chest and they both fell listlessly asleep, wondering how a baby and thus a permanent bond with Sheridan Winthrop would impact their own re-blossoming love for each other.
"Why don't you go and check to see that everything is alright and I'll stay here until you get back." He asked Elana as she removed her blazer and put it in the closet.
Elana did as he asked and came back to let him know everything was ok.
"Sean, I can only imagine how you're feeling right now if it's anything near what I'm feeling. I want you to know that at the time I felt like I did not have a choice and that leaving was the only way I could protect you."
"I don't want to talk about the past anymore. Now I know what happened and I know what I have to do. I just need to know that you're going to give us another chance and that you're not going to run away from me again?"
Elana did not know how to answer his question because she was not exactly sure of what he was asking. She never fathomed that it was possible for them to get back together and now with the reality of it before her, she almost could not believe it. Sean could tell she did not really understand what he had just asked, so he moved in closer to her and put his hand on her face as his fingers entwined with her hair. "I need to know that you're going to give me a chance to show you how much I still love you. I never stopped Elana. If I didn't get that across to you earlier I want you to know that. I still love you just as much as I did before, if not more now, if that could be possible. Will you give us that chance Elana? Please?"
Elana held her hand against his on her cheek as she rested her head on his hand. She now saw fully what he was offering her. 'How could she refuse' she thought to herself as he mesmerized her with his endless stare and that boyish look she loved so much. She thought she would get lost in him if she continued to search his clear blue eyes. She answered the only way she could. "Yes, Sean. I will."
Sean was more than happy with her answer and felt a need to claim her in some way branding her so that no one else could take her away from him. He slowly closed into her inviting expression and placed soft, slow kisses on her full lips. After more than a few of these kisses Sean crooned to her "I know you don't usually do this on the first date?"
"No I don't." Elana whispered.
"I'm glad it's not our first date." He sighed. They both felt overcome with a desire to have more of each other so Elana wrapped her arms around Sean's neck as he moved his hand to the back of he hair and wrapped his other arm around her waist. They pressed themselves together as their interlocking tenderly reflected the feverish build up within them both. The more intense Sean became Elana would matched him. Sean could not help but be taken aback by her natural scent which he'd never forgotten and the sweet taste of her tongue that he had longed for all of these years. He had not felt this way in so long and he was not about to relinquish it, not yet. Elana's began to sigh quietly from the passion as she massaged the back of Sean's neck and he knew she was giving him the signal to go as far as he wanted. Almost involuntarily, while he was still kissing her, Sean moved her back up against the front door and removed his blazer. He then placed his left hand tightly around her buttocks squeezing her into his groin as he slowly began to release each button of her black angora sweater with his free hand. The swell of her breast breaking free from the garment weakened him as he anticipated feeling her lush body once again and after partially opening her sweater, he slid his trembling hand under her lace bra and cupped her left breast. His own incoherent expressions were now released, because of his remembering how full and perfectly formed she felt in his large hands. He gently squeezed her and lingered there basking in the soft silky feel of her. He then began to kiss her face, chin and neck while she held her head back for him to continue exploring her as much as he wanted. She instinctively pulled his shirt out of his slacks and slid her hands underneath to explore his broad, muscular chest.
Elana could feel the swelling in his slacks, pressing hard against her and wondered how much longer it would take for him to have her. The moment he began to kiss her she had decided she was not going to resist him, not now, not ever again, because just as she had told Gail, she was not as strong as she had been in high school and college. In fact where Sean was concerned she had no self-control anymore. She had exhausted that control on others that tried to invade the wall she built around her. Now, Sean had simply come and torn it down.
As he feasted on his single favorite part of Elana's neck, from which he knew brought her the most pleasure, he wished so much that they were married so that he could father a child with her. He was almost 33 and these things were missing in his life until now. Being with Elana like this made him see how much time had been wasted and it was as if the years had gone by in a matter of days and now they were back together and everything they wanted together was set before them.
These thoughts started Sean to thinking about Sheridan and a possible child with her and he realized that he and Elana had just had such an emotional discussion. So even though he wanted nothing more than to make love to Elana, he did not want to take the chance of her stopping him like she always had before or of him making the same mistake with her as he may have with Sheridan. Even though he would consider it more of a blessing than a mistake. He surmised that there would be plenty of time for them to be together. What he wanted to do most was woo her first and then ask her to marry him as soon as possible. He saw no need for a long dating process. They'd already done that. He wanted to pick up where they left off so he just had to wait for the right time. Along with that, he knew they would have to plan how to deal with his and Sheridan's child, if there was one. So he reluctantly decided to wait and slowly pulled her bra back over her breast and started to button her sweater back up.
Elana was surprised that he was working backwards and did not want him to stop. "Don't stop honey, please don't stop..." Elana whispered as her hands began to unbuckle his belt while he continued to ravage her neck.
Elana pleading and undressing him was something new and Sean realized that if she asked again and got his pants opened, it would be all over because he would not be able to stop. So gently removing her hand from his buckle, Sean spoke while he kissed her cheeks on one side then the other. "Don't temp me sweetheart. I think we need to quit while we're ahead."
With her hands caressing his chest again, Elana responded. "Why Sean? We know this is what we both want."
With a deep sigh Sean exhorted, "Elana, as much as I want to make love to you, there are still some pending things in my life that I need to take care of. I want you to be fully aware of what you may be dealing with."
Elana remembered that he had told her about Sheridan and suddenly the thought of him sleeping with and fathering a child with another woman ruined the mood. Elana took her hands out from under Sean's shirt and rubbed her chin and chest as she sighed and rested her arms around her body to quell the euphoria she was feeling. "Yeah, I guess you're right." She said. "Have you heard anything from Sheridan?"
"No not yet." Sean said after releasing her, rebuckling his pants and picking up his blazer. He threw the blazer over the steel banister and put his hands in his pockets to keep them off of Elana. His desire for her was quickly being replaced with disdain and frustration at what he had done with Sheridan.
Elana was frustrated too, so she turned to walk down the few steps into her living room. She went over to her love seat, kicked off her shoes and fell into it, then rested her arms on the armrest and put her feet up behind her. Sean followed and sat beside her, then put his arms up on the other armrest and rubbed his forehead in his hand.
"What's taking her so long to let you know. All she has to do is take a pregnancy test."
"Sheridan is not about to take a home pregnancy test. That's for the uncivilized people. She'll probably go to one of the best doctors so that he can check her out and tell her whether she's pregnant or not. And that being the case she probably does not have an appointment until next month some time. You know how long you have to wait for a specialist to get an appointment."
"Yeah." Elana sighed and rested her head down on her arm.
Sean laid his head back and sat facing upward putting his hands on his thighs.
"Do you make it a habit of having unprotected sex?" Elana asked trying to comfort herself about why it was good that they had not been so spontaneous.
"It was the first and only time I'd ever done that. I never slept with a woman without a condom before, but I guess because I was drunk trying to get you out of my head.... She said that I practically raped her, and that I refused to use any protection. "
"What do you mean 'she said'?"
"I told you I was drunk. That was the night she told me she was going to seek you out for that business deal, and she showed me your picture on the cover of two magazines. I was already dealing with facing you soon at work after so long. Then the pictures, my relationship with her:... I just couldn't handle it all, so I got a bottle of vodka to help me drown you and her out."
"So you don't even know if you slept with her at all?"
"No, I don't. All I remember is getting drunk and waking up in a chair at my parents' house. But, I don't guess she would lie about something as serious as that."
"Humph, I bet she would; especially, after you just broke up with her. She's probably stalling trying to figure out how to get you back and get you into bed so that she can really get pregnant."
"She knows that's not possible. Before that night we had not been together in almost eight months."
"Eight months!"
"Yeah can you believe it. We had unprotected sex after eight months of abstinence and I don't even remember it. You would think that after so long without it, I would remember some of what happened at least."
"I would not know about that."
Sean looked at her and let out a small laugh as he put his hand on the side of her thigh. "Well that's pretty much how the relationship went Elana. It was convenient and everyone just thought we were the perfect couple. Maybe we were picture-perfect, but that's as far as it went. Nobody in the picture would have been happy."
Elana did not respond. She only listened as Sean lamented about his last loveless relationship. Afterwards they both sat silently for a few minutes. Sean stared at the ceiling and Elana stared out into the living room.
Needing to be close to her, he asked, "Can you come over here with me." Elana willingly turned around then Sean pulled her feet and legs across his thighs and she rested her head on his shoulder and draped her hand on his chest. Sean held her around her shoulders and wrapped his hand around hers on his chest and they both fell listlessly asleep, wondering how a baby and thus a permanent bond with Sheridan Winthrop would impact their own re-blossoming love for each other.