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-Chapter Seven-

Sam was pushing against an invisible force, one she didn't recognize and one she didn't know how to fight. She had struggled for her life before; the entire team had, but this was different.

Sam felt no reason to stay.

It was nice, being in her mind like this. She couldn't feel pain, couldn't feel hunger or thirst.

Couldn't see his face, swimming on the edges of her consciousness.

She was safe in her mind.

Sam had often thought about what it would be like to die. She had followed SGC policy and created a living will, to be opened in event of her death. In an outgoing gesture of friendship and unity, she had, in fact, named one Jack O'Neill to be her next of kin. An uncommon gesture, but practical, considering her father's involvement with the Tok'ra, Jack was the next logical choice. At least, that's how she envisioned it.

Maybe, deep in her heart of hearts, she wanted him to suffer. If she were brain dead in a hospital room somewhere, it would be his responsibility to tell the nurses to pull the plug and end her life. Sam took somewhat of a sadistic satisfaction knowing that Jack would have to wrestle with that decision just as Sam had wrestled with her own choices.

To tell him, or not to tell him?

Life was ironic that way, Sam thought as she sat in the blackened flower field. Extending her hand, she caught a blossom as it fell. She remembered how fragrant and soft this bud had been; how delicately the tiny petals had twirled through the air to make homes in the grass and, much to her annoyance, her hair. Now, the flower was dead, killed in its prime. The peak of its perfection was overshadowed by the utter triumph of its destruction. Much like her.

With a soft noise of disgust, Sam tossed the flower away with a careless sweep of her hand and stood. She didn't need this life anymore. She had suffered too damn much. It just needed to end now.

Sam strode over to the edge of the flowery abyss, knowing that once she jumped, she was dead. Good. No more lonely nights or broken hearts. No more yearning glances or gentle touches.

No more Jack.

Sam gathered herself mentally and closed her eyes, allowing for a brief moment, his face to swim into view. His cautious eyes watched her, tired and gentle eyes that bore no trace of their usual mischief. His thin lips were closed tightly and he seemed to be shaking his head at her, telling her to stop what she was doing, telling her what a fool she was. In those eyes, Sam could see his pain, something she had wanted to see forever, to know that she had hurt him as much as he had hurt her. In those eyes, Sam saw love. With a start, Sam opened her own eyes and stepped back from the edge.

Damn it all. She couldn't do it. She loved him too damn much.

The image of Jack faded from her mind as Sam took another step back from the edge, reinvigorated with the will to live. The ground beneath her seemed to shake with her excitement. The ground was shaking.

Sam looked down in alarm as the earth beneath her feet gave way with a mighty roar, darkness creeping around her as she was swallowed whole by the greedy jaws of soil, sending her ultimately, to the thing that Sam both longed for and detested. Her death. Despite her change of heart, Sam was devoured by the earth and flowers, screaming as the darkness overwhelmed her. Death, she discovered, waits for no one.

(Infirmary)

In the whitewashed halls of the Command Infirmary, surrounded by machine clicks and beeps, Sam opened her eyes with an agonizing scream.

-End Chapter Seven-

OOOOhh. I had you good, didn't I? You thought she was going to die! Lol, I know, I suck for doing this and will get another chapter up as soon as I can. Please let me know what you thought. I love feedback as you can tell. :D see ya next chapter!