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Author's notes:

I updated to tell you I'm not abandoning you guys! I will keep writing as long as I find time....Thanks for you patience!

Disclaimer:

I don't own Harry Potter. If I did, I would be writing my next book, right?

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Her hair flew behind her back, revealing her tear-stained face. Her green eyes weren't green anymore, but forest greenish with hints of brown. Her puffy red eyes seemed to have this effect on her.

Lily sat at a large rock near the lake, staring at the dark blue sky sprinkled with stars.

She remembered when she was a little girl, she and her father used to count the stars, waiting for her mother to come out and give them hot chocolate.

Flashback:

"Daddy, how come there are so many stars?" asked six year old Lily Evans at her father who was sitting beside her in their balcony.

"It was said that there are so many stars so each person could name their star." Said Mr. Evans.

"There are about a zillion people! The stars wouldn't be enough because it would just probably be a million or so." Said Lily, smiling.

"I think there are a gazillion stars there, not a million. Come on, let's count it and when you find the perfect star, you could name it." Said her father and they both looked up and began counting.

After a while, Mrs.Evans emerged from the balcony door, carrying two cups of hot chocolate.

She laid them down and joined Lily and her husband. Suddenly, Lily's eyes widened.

"Daddy! I think I found a star that would fit me! Look!" she said excitedly as she pointed at a star different from the others. It was a reddish color with hints of blue and green. But what amazed Lily the most was that it was the only star who seemed to stand out.

End Of Flashback:

Lily's tears came down and she looked up at the sky again. Then, she saw it, her star. The Lily star. It was still like the last time she saw it with her father. She smiled and remembered all her good memories with it.

Lily looked at the lake and tears started to fall down too. But this was not because of her parents, It was because of Sirius. She remembered that she and Sirius met here in the lake.

Flashback:

Thirteen year old Lily Evans sat near the lake, reading her favorite muggle book. She flipped her long red hair and smiled at the sun.

It was certainly a beautiful day today. The sun shone brightly, the sound of children playing really meshed well together with the environment and the lake was so tempting that she could jump in it if she couldn't control herself.

Lily stood up and went near the lake, taking in the beautiful scenery. Just then, she heard a voice that made her alert.

"Hey! Watch out!" said a male voice and Lily looked around, to see two boys playing what seemed like a plastic platter.

The platter aimed for her and she ducked in time, but she lost her balance. She fell into the lake and felt very cold.

The boy who shouted ran towards her to help her. He lent her a hand and as she pulled, she lost her balance again and this time, she fell with the boy.

They both laughed and looked at each other. As she stared at the boy's darkish brown eyes, she knew she wouldn't forget those.

The boy stretched out his hand.

"I'm Sirius Black. I'm really sorry for what happened." Said the boy named Sirius.

"I'm Li-Lily Evans. It's really no problem." She replied, though she was kind of shy.

Sirius pulled himself up and Lily and Sirius bid his goodbye, leaving Lily.

After that day, Lily knew she wouldn't like another boy than Sirius.

End Of Flashback

More tears fell and Lily knew that this place was holding too many memories. She cautiously stood up and stared at the castle. She really didn't want to go back and endure Alice's advice and Arabella's comments, but it was better than reliving her memories.

She walked towards the castle and went straight to Gryffindor Tower. As she entered, a few people noticed her face and questions ran in her mind. She passed the middle of the common room, only to see none other than the marauders.

Lily just walked faster, but Sirius saw her.

"Lily! Look, I'm sorry about-

But he didn't get to finish since Arabella slapped him with all his might. Lily looked shocked and stared at Arabella.

"How dare you even try to talk to Lily! She broke it off with you so leave her alone! Go ahead and stay with that Loren of yours!" screamed Arabella and she chucked anything she could find at Sirius, which was unluckily, a vase.

Sirius got hit in the arm and he winced. He glanced up to see Lily sobbing and Arabella comforting her, with Alice trying to get her inside the dorm.

Everyone at the common room began talking about what had happened.

"Okay, everyone clear off, now! Marauder meeting!" said James and everyone obeyed.

Sirius sat down and covered his bleeding arm with a piece of clothing.

When everyone was gone, Remus turned to look at him.

"What was that about, Padfoot?" he asked, glaring at him. It was obvious Sirius did something not pleasing at all.

"The truth?" asked Sirius impatiently as he tried to stop the bleeding.

Everyone nodded and he sighed. This wasn't easy to explain and he knew it. But sooner or later, they would find out. Better now or never.

GIRL'S DORM

"Lils! He is such a bastard, how could you let him do this to you?" asked Arabella angrily after Lily has just finished telling them her three problems with great difficulty.

Lily buried her head in her pillow deeper. It was hard to tell them what happened. It just brought her to more tears. But she knew telling them would lift some weight from her.

Alice comforted her and assured her.

"Lils, I know your parents are a very great loss, and I'm not telling you to forget about them. But always remember, we're always her for you no matter what."

Lily sobbed but did not look at them.

"Lily, remember, my mother died too, and I had a hard time recovering. But I know you won't because you are a strong willed lady. I'm weak." Said Arabella sadly.

Lily still did not look at them but her sobs died a little. The two knew they were getting somewhere.

"Just remember Lils, whatever happens, don't let yourself be hurt again with a boy. Remember, nothing is worth fighting for if you're fighting for a boy." Said Alice as she patted Lily's back.

"Lils, we know you really miss them, but remember, you still have to take care of yourself. Imagine how unhappy they would be to see their little witch suffering." Said Arabella.

At this, Lily finally looked up and hugged both of them.

"Tha-Thank you so much guys..."

NEXT MORNING

"Guys? Why is everyone giving me weird looks?" asked Lily as a group of Hufflepuff girls passed her.

Alice and Arabella looked worriedly at her. After the death, it wouldn't be fair for her to suffer like this.

As they entered the great hall, the chattering died down and all of them sent glances towards Lily.

She raised an eyebrow and looked down. She didn't want to know whatever happened on why everyone is looking at her.

As the three of them took a seat, Loren with a group of friends. She smirked down at Lily, who looked confused.

Loren walked down to Sirius and began kissing him. Lily grew red and she turned to her food absently.

Loren walked back to Lily, now smiling broadly than ever.

"So, Lily. I've heard, you're a sole target of the Dark Lord, right? Oh my, everyone close to you might die and suffer! That's probably why Sirius broke up with you, freak!" shesaid loud enough for everyone to hear.

Lily looked up, shocked to speak, and found that Loren was smiling along with her friends, and all of the students in the great hall were too scared to even look at her. The gryffindors sitting close to her moved away and shivered.

Lily began to feel tears brim her eyes. Now, all of the students will stay away from her for sure. After the death of her parents, she receives this?

"IF you think I will have pity because your no use parents died, I won't! Either will all of them!" said Loren and she glared at her.

Usually, Lily would have slapped Loren. But, she couldn't.

She stood up and ran away from the great hall.

"Lily!"

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Okay then, sorry for that small cliffy. Anyway, who was the one who called her after she ran away? Why is Loren such an evil toad? Find out in the next chap!