Let us suppose that:
Lorelai owns the diner. She is not the world's biggest hazard in the kitchen.
Rory is Lorelai's daughter and yes she goes to Chilton.
Lorelai and Rory live in their big house, the diner apartment is an office.
Luke is the new resident in town. He's a carpenter.
Things are exactly the same as for the rest of the people of stars hollow.
Pattie and Babette are still Babette and Miss Pattie.
Taylor is still annoying as always.
Sookie and Jackson are together.
Basically this is somewhere in the first season.
Disclaimer: in my own little imaginary world I own the Gilmore girls and this wonderful creation, but since this is real life, I do not own any of the characters I'm using for this crazy fiction.
New guy Luke
CHAPTER 5
5.35 I look at my watch, I walk out of the kitchen to find Kirk sitting there like always in his table at the corner, I look outside and spot his truck. Where is he? And there I see him stepping out of his truck and starts walking towards the diner. Why am I like this? Why is he like this... we're grown ups we're supposed to be able to act like grown ups around each other... "Hey" he says as he walks in and I smile "good morning" is all I'm able to say
He follows me to the counter and takes a sit at the end of it like always and looks at Kirk "is this guy here every morning?"
"Yes. It's very annoying"
"I know what you mean"
"So, what will you have?"
"Tea and a bran muffin"
"Going crazy today ha..."
"Yeah..."
And then an awkward silent God I hate that "coming right up"
First guy I'm interested in, in years, and he turns out to be married, great Lorelai... this is just great... "Here... be right back"
"Lorelai, I would like some pancakes and more coffee"
"Sure Kirk" I said and went to the kitchen to cook his order
So what now ha... he said they were separated... well can't he just finish a topic before he moves on to the next one? Are they seeing a marriage counselor? Naaa... I don't think so, I mean Litchfield is near but it's not so close to here... he wouldn't have moved away to a different town if they were trying to work this out... "awww" I yelled suddenly, I placed my hand on the hot stove "shit..." I yelled again and then saw Luke "what happened?"
"I don't know Luke, my mind was busy and I guess I wasn't paying attention..." I said hurting
He reached for the towel and wetted it then put it gently on my hand "here, just hold this"
"Thanks... but I'm ok, I gotta get this to Kirk"
"Here, I'll do that you just sit and wait for your cook to get here"
"It's not like it never happened before Luke... but its ok, I can cook, this stuff happens..."
"Wait here" he said and left
When he came back I was still sitting there on a box holding the towel on my hand. He sat next to me and then asked "is it still wet? Let me check"
"Luke I'm ok..."
"How did it happen anyway?"
"I told you I wasn't paying attention"
"How could you not? You're standing right next to it..."
"I was preoccupied"
"With what?"
"Oh... just stuff..."
"Sounds pretty serious if you managed to burn your self"
"I have to get back to work"
"Fine... I'm gonna go..." he said
"Hey... thanks for the towel"
"Sure"
"So I'll see you later?"
"Yes you will"
"Luke? Can we talk for a minute?"
"I have to go"
"This is not you trying to run again is it?"
"No, I really have many things to do and I also promised Rory to start on her drawer so..."
"Oh... ok"
"But, you can come later... to my workshop... we can talk then..."
"Around lunch time?"
"Sounds great"
"I'll bring you something to eat... how does that sound?"
"Even better"
"So, see you later"
"Keep the towel wet ok... and later put on some lotion or something"
"Yeah, ok..."
"Bye Lorelai"
"Bye"
I cant believe I burned myself thinking of him... this is bad... really bad... not healthy at all to get so emotional when he's around... but I cant help myself, damn him... he just had to be married... ok, so, what now? Are you gonna ask him or what?
I can't ask him... what will he think of me...? ok, just ask him what's going to happen now that their separated... yeah that's good...
"Mom"
"Hey kid..."
"What happened to your hand?"
"Just a burn, nothing to worry about"
"How did you..."
"Don't ask... so heading to school?"
"Yeah, see you later"
After the lunch rush I wrapped a sandwich and some water and walked to Luke's workshop. As I got close I heard that he wasn't alone
"So, this is it?" the woman said
"Yes."
"I'm sorry I'm not leaving till you give us another chance"
"What chance, we tried"
"We didn't try hard enough"
"You mean you didn't try hard enough"
"Luke I'm sorry, ok, please come home"
"I can't"
"Why not?"
"Because I'm through"
"Why are you being like this...? this isn't easy for me but I came here and I'm asking you to give me another chance"
"I cant, we tried... there's no use... its just going to be the same, you always in the office and me alone at home... and its not your fault ok, I know, but I cant go back to that..."
"I'll try to be at home more"
"come on, even if you'll be at home, its gonna feel like you're not there... look, I'm not accusing you, ok, your career means everything to you, I understand, but you have to look at it from my point of view, I don't want to live like that"
"Luke I can't change who I am..."
"I'm not asking you to..."
"So you're walking away"
"I have to"
"I love you"
"Nicole"
"I have to go"
"Wait..."
"No Luke, I shouldn't have come"
"I'm sorry"
"Me too"
"You don't have to go, have lunch with me"
"No, I cant, I'm gonna go... I'll send you the papers soon"
"Ok"
I hid around the corner when she said goodbye to him and saw her walking to her car, she had a nice car, she looked good too, he had good taste.
When she drove away I didn't know what to do should I go in? What if he wants to be alone? I decided to go in and see how he is
I walked in and saw him sitting at his desk, his hands folded to his chest his eyes looking down "hi" I said and he looked up "what are you doing?"
"Hey, just taking a break"
"Food goes great with breaks..." I smiled and handed him the bag
"Thanks, but I'm not very hungry"
"Oh..."
"Listen, I have a lot of work here so..."
"Ok, I'll see you later" probably next year "bye" I said and left. He didn't even try to stop me
Why didn't he try to stop me, damn... poor Luke... divorce is never easy, he probably still loves her if he took it so hard...
And then, run away Luke strikes again... 2 days went by, he didn't come to the diner, I didn't go to his workshop. What was I to do, I figured he needed his space. He took it bad, obviously.
The third day was too much for me to bear and I went to see him. I walked in to find him working. He was wearing a tight black T-Shirt, no plaid damn he looks good I thought as he spotted me and stopped working "hi" I said with a small smile.
He took those big glasses off, the ones they usually wear to keep their eyes from all the wood cheeps flying in the air "hi"
"How are you?" I asked frozen on my spot. I couldn't move
"Ok, you?"
"Good, good"
"Shouldn't you be in the diner?"
"I could go..."
"I was just asking..."
"what ever... look, I just came to see how you were, you didn't show your face in my diner for 3 days so... and don't answer ok, I know what you're going to say, you were busy I get it... so I came, I saw, I gotta go..."
"Wait"
"For what?"
"Why are you acting like this?"
"I don't know..."
"You don't know?"
"I don't. I don't know why I care, I don't know why I bother... all I know is that you... I can't read you... and I'm pretty good reading people... but you, you're like the biggest mystery ever..."
"Why am I a mystery? Because I'm not jumping into bed with you?"
"Oh my god... I can't believe you just said that... I mean, ok, I get it you took the whole conversation with your wife hard and you're hurt obviously... and I didn't come here for 3 days cause I gave you your space, you don't owe me any explanation and I didn't ask for one but you can at least treat me like I treat you..."
"You heard me talk to my wife?"
"I was just on my way in when I heard that you weren't alone and I didn't want to intrude"
"But you stayed and listened to the whole thing"
"I'm sorry"
"You had no right"
"Luke"
"This is my life, not yours, and my conversations with my wife are privet"
"I know that"
"This isn't going to work... I'm sorry... I think you should leave... I can't..."
"Fine... don't even finish the sentence... I'm outta here..."
I'm so stupid... God, how could I be so stupid... jumping into bed with you... who the hell does he think he is? no more Luke, as far as I'm concerned he's just another resident in stars hollow... not even new guy Luke... in fact I don't even wanna remember his name... I hate him... I can't believe I thought something could actually happen there...
So, that was it for me, I didn't see him, he didn't come to the diner to see me, I was beginning to think he was dead but he wasn't.
I gave Rory the money to pay him when he comes with her drawer, I don't want to come in contact with him, not even for short exchange of money.
I wanted to forget him, but instead I just kept counting the days I didn't see him... its like people who're trying to stop smoking, instead of ignoring it and forgetting it they just count the days they didn't smoke... look at me, I'm comparing him to an addiction... he's not my addiction, he's like a bad cup of coffee you don't ever want to drink... another addiction... what is wrong with me...
I'm in the stupid town meeting, Rory's not here, and Sookie is sitting in the front with Jackson. As much as I love harassing Taylor I just don't feel like going one on one with him tonight.
I don't think I heard one word he said all evening, oh my God... what the hell is he doing in town meeting... I suddenly saw Luke come in and take a sit in the other side of the path. I looked at him and got up and left I wasn't ready for this, damn him... what the hell is he doing here
"Lorelai wait" I heard him call but I didn't "Lorelai"
Finely I stopped and turned to see him walking towards me "what?"
"Hey"
"Hey? Hey? That's all you have to say to me... Hey?
"I'm sorry"
"I don't care... I have to go"
"I said I was sorry... what else do you want me to say?"
"Nothing..." I answered and kept walking.
"Wait a minute..." he followed me and grabbed my arm
"Leave me alone Luke..."
"I'm sorry"
"I don't care ok... just leave me alone..."
"I can't..."
"Sooo not my problem that you can't... let me go"
"I'm sorry for the things I said"
"You should see a doctor about your hearing problems... I said I don't care"
"Stop acting like a child and look at me"
"What?" I said raising my voice
"I'm sorry"
"Let me go Luke I swear I'm gonna scream if you don't" he did "good night"
"Lorelai, wait... come on... why are you like this, I said I was sorry"
"Sorry? For what exactly? For treating me like dirt? For making me feel like shit, even though I was always good to you? Or for saying you're sorry when clearly you don't mean it..."
"I mean it, I'm sorry"
"You could've said it sooner... you could've come to me and tell me you're sorry not just when you happen to run into me in town meeting..."
"I came here for you"
"Yeah right"
"Why do you think I showed up this late for a meeting that started an hour ago?"
"I don't know... maybe you were busy..."
"Stop that"
"No! You stop it, I don't care if you're sorry, I don't want to ever talk to you again... I spent a whole week just trying to block you from my thoughts and I did a pretty good job till tonight..."
"I was a mess the other day ok... I'm sorry... I didn't mean what I said to you"
"Fine, apology excepted now goodbye" I started walking away
"I got the divorce papers in the mail that day, and I took it out on you... I'm sorry" I didn't answer
"I signed it and mailed it" I stopped
"Is it safe to come near you?" he said and a moment later I could feel his breath on my hair "Lorelai, I need you to know that this is very hard for me"
"What is?" I asked still with my back to him
"Talking to you..."
"Why is it hard?"
"Because I don't know if I'm ready for this..."
"I have to go Luke, I can't stand here and listen to this"
"I'm sorry, I wish it was easier"
"Me too"
"I want to be with you" he said and put his hands on my arms
"But you cant, I got it..." I wanted to die at that point. The feel of his hands on mine felt so good and yet it was so painful to be around him and not being able to look at him or hold him
"I don't want to hurt you" he said and turned me so that I would look at him, I didn't though, I couldn't
"How do you know you're gonna hurt me?" I asked looking down
"I don't want you to be the rebound girl"
"Luke please, let me go... I can't do this..."
"I'm sorry Lorelai"
"I'm sorry too" and with that I started walking away from him not looking back. I could feel him standing there watching me, I wanted so much to stay there with his arms around me, with his voice and his breath on my ear. But I couldn't do it, I couldn't just stand there listening to his reasons for not being with me.
He's getting a divorce, and it will be final in six months. I'll wait.
The way I feel when he's around, or when he looks at me.
The way my heart misses a beat when he accidentally touches me.
The way I wanna cry when he won't let me be there for him to comfort him.
I can't give up those feelings.
I'll wait for him until he finds that place in his heart for me and only me.
I can never ask him to let me in where someone else is.
I'll wait, for him, For all that he is.
Thanks for reading. Please tell me what you think. Thank you very much for all the reviews so far, you've been kind and great.
"Dear coffee cup" is going through some changes, actually, a lot of changes. It's not going to be sequel to "just friends". It's going to be about Luke and Lorelai's daughter, simply because I'm tired of being different and because there are more Java Junkie's out there then other pairings... like me. The fics I'm going to write from now on will be only Luke and Lorelai.
Controversy-queen, thank you.
So, thanks again for reading my stories and reviewing. You are the only reason I'm still writing. Thanks.
Oh, almost forgot, special thanks to Tina and Debbie for every review and idea.