Disclaimer: in my own little imaginary world I own the Gilmore girls and this wonderful creation called Luke Danes, but since this is real life, I do not own any of the characters I'm using for this crazy fiction. Which is very sad because who wouldn't want to be the owner of shirtless Luke.

Author's note: I'm sorry for doing this but I had too. Major rating alert this is no longer PG! this chapter is R!

New guy Luke

CHAPTER 17

The next morning I woke up next to Rory. We were both in the same cloths we wore last night. I glanced at the clock that showed 6.30

"Rory honey, wake up"

"Why?"

"Because you're gonna be late for school…"

"I'm not going today mom" she said opening her eyes

"Are you feeling ok?"

"I'm fine, I just don't want you to be alone"

"Oh honey… thanks but you need to go to school"

"Are you sure? I could stay and we can talk about last night"

"I don't wanna talk about last night babe, and I could use some time alone…"

"But why did Luke leave? I mean he knows you said no right?"

"Rory, go get ready for school"

"Mom, you need to get this out… you need to talk…"

"I don't wanna talk, don't worry about me babe, I'll be fine, trust me… I'm gonna make everything better ok…"

"If it makes you feel better I think what they did to you last night was wrong and I even told dad he was out of line"

"Honey I don't want you in the middle ok… let me do my thing"

"But what about Luke?"

"You're gonna be late for school kid… now shoo…"

"Fine… hey what about the diner?"

"Don't worry. It's all taken care of"

"Ok… I'm gonna go get ready, you want some coffee?"

"No babe, I think I'm going back to sleep… I'll see you after school"

After Rory left the room I laid down hugging my pillow and started crying so hard, and all I thought about was the song we danced to on our first date

Just pretend I'm holding you

And whispering things soft and low

The more I thought about the words the more I cried. I wanted him to hold me and make me feel that he'll never go away.

Just pretend I didn't go

But he did, he did go and he did leave me there crying, and he did leave me with nothing to do other then to pretend it was him I was holding and not the cold pillow

And I'll come flying to you

All the crying is true

I will hold you and love you again

But

Until then

Just pretend

What am I suppose to do now? Give up? I don't have any intention of marrying Chris. I'm not gonna let my parents decide for me.

I chose Luke. He's all that matters. Why can't he see that? Why can't he understand that I live my life the way I choose and not the way others choose for me?

I fell asleep at one point. The phone didn't stop ringing so I unplugged it. I slept all day, till Rory came back from school and woke me up.

Handing me the coffee she just made she asked "you said the diner is taken care of… I had to deal with Kirk on my way here. Apparently he left his wallet there yesterday"

"I think Kirk should move to Litchfield, I'm sick of him"

"Mom… were you wallowing?"

"I don't wallow…"

"Why were you in bed all day? I know something happened with Luke… you have to stop crying… tell me what happened"

"I can't Rory"

"Why?"

"Because I can't talk about it" I said and the tears started coming down again

"Mom" Rory hugged me

"He said it was for the best" I cried "he said… I should… I should marry Chris…"

"Mom, you need to talk to him"

"I can't… I can't let him see me like this" I kept crying "I told him that I love him Rory… but he didn't care… he just left…"

"You did? Mom… you have to go to him… if you don't then I will…"

"No… he made up his mind…"

"Fine… I'll go then… I'm gonna make him listen"

"Don't Rory…"

"Why not?"

"Because I'm hungry and I need you to order pizza"

"I'm hungry too… I'm gonna call Joe, and you go take a shower, you look like… well you know what you look like"

After we ate, Rory wanted to watch a movie but I told her to go do her homework. After crying some more I decided that I wasn't just gonna sit around and wallow about a guy I know wants to be with me.

I told Rory I was going for a walk. She knew where I was going and said that she's not going to wait up for me. I smiled, she was too smart.

I arrived at his apartment and just sat there by the door. I had to collect myself and figure out what to say. There was really not much to say.

When I heard noises from his apartment I got up and hid out in the stairs. It was Nicole leaving his apartment, she took the elevator and in the minute she was gone I knocked on his door.

He opened it, surprised "you don't waist time huh…" I said "I can't believe I even came here" I added and turned to leave

He grabbed my arm and I looked at him "don't be like this" he said

We just stood there looking at each other for a long while. Looking into his eyes I saw pain, I was hurting to. It was all there in my eyes, all the love I felt for him, all the misery I was in all day… my eyes could never lie.

His eyes couldn't lie either. I saw how he wanted me, I saw how painful it was for him to be there, to touch me, to say nothing because he can't find the right words to explain why he left. I loved his eyes, mostly because he had a special look saved only for me. That look was drowning in the sea of sorrow.

And then he pulled me to him and kissed me so soft, like it was the first time, like he was afraid of touching me.

But a moment later he pulled back from me "I can't do this"

"Luke"

"Please, just go home"

"Don't do this"

"Don't you understand, it's not going to work"

"Why, cause you're back with your ex wife?"

"What? No…"

"Then why? Everything was going so well…"

"It will never work"

"Tell me why" I brought my hand to his cheek "tell me that you don't feel anything when you kiss me…" I started crying again, the look in his eyes broke my heart "tell me that you don't want me… tell me and I'll leave…"

He didn't say anything, he just wiped a few tears from my cheek.

"Luke, you can't do this… please…"

He took my hand and let me into his apartment. We stood there in the middle of the apartment just holding each other till I stopped crying.

"Lorelai, listen to me" he then said "I don't wanna do this but I have too"

"You don't have to… please just hold me"

"I can't… you don't understand, I've been through the same thing with Nicole's family… and look how that turned out… I don't fit in your world"

"This is my world Luke… Rory and Sookie… this town… and you… not my parent's world… I don't fit there either, you know that"

"They will never accept me…"

"I don't care"

"You will… in time… one day you'll realize that you need their world"

"I lived on my own since I was sixteen, I never needed them, I did fine on my own… all I need is Rory and you"

"Lorelai…"

"Luke please… I know you were humiliated last night and you think I'm better off without you but we don't have to go back there… I won't let you go through all this again… I'm sorry…"

"Don't apologize for something you didn't do…"

"I took you to this damn birthday party…"

"What if it doesn't work…?"

"I don't see any reason for us not to work… we're great together… don't I make you happy?"

"Lorelai…"

"Don't I? You make me happy…"

"You make me happy too"

"I know…"

"You're humble"

"I know that too"

He took my hand and led me to the couch, we started kissing slowly at first and then the passion took over and I forced him to lie on the couch with my body. He didn't object, instead he positioned me on top of him with his hands that were placed firmly on my behind.

"What was she doing here?" I asked kissing his neck

"Forget her"

He answered and started working his way under my shirt. His hands were cold but I didn't mind, I needed to feel him, his touch. Our lips met again after I made sure his neck was done, he just brushed my hair aside and kept kissing me, hard and wet.

He pulled up to a sitting position with me still on top "I'm sorry" he said through the kissing "I know…" I replied "Luke…" I said again "I thought we agreed this couch is too small"

He grabbed my behind again and rose "you're right" he said and did his way to the bedroom.

Still kissing as we were, we fell on the bed, this time he was on top. We kept kissing, as if we were apart for years. Every time we needed air he went down to kiss my neck or my cheek.

At some point it got really hot and I was burning "Luke…" I said and pulled my shirt up a little "yeah, you're right…" he said and helped me get rid of it

I laid my head back against the pillows and he slid his hands under my body to work on my bra which soon was on the floor.

His sensual and tender lips kissed down my neck, I called his name when I felt his now warm hands on my breasts. I moaned to the feel of his tongue circling each nipple and then sucking on it ever so soft and gentle as he was.

His lips kept on kissing their way to my belly, I arched my head and closed my eyes when his hand traveled between my legs up to a place that felt so wet and hot

I couldn't take it anymore. I pulled him up for another kissing session but still felt his knee pressuring me between my legs.

His hair was such a mess by then because I had nothing to hold on to while he kissed me so eagerly and vigorously, I didn't care though, really it was his fault he kissed me like that.

I rolled him over. It was my turn to make him shiver and call out my name, I missed him so much that I just needed to please him and make him feel how much I want him. His shirt was gone right away, his chest was his weakness, and I knew it. I knew that every kiss, every feel of my tongue, every contact I made with his nipples made him crazy and so I started caressing his upper body in soft slow motions.

He closed his eyes and let out low pleasurable moans when I kissed every inch of his chest. I looked up as I was sucking and biting on his nipples and saw him biting his lower lip as he arched his back.

My tongue went downwards to his belly but my hands kept roaming his upper body. His sweatpants came next. I climbed out of bed and slowly tugged his pants letting my hands brush along his legs.

I climbed back on top of him and he rolled me over. We shared a smile and he kissed his way down to my jeans. I thought I was going to explode when he took his time with each button, and kisses his way down the parts he haven't reached yet.

He wasn't so patient when he undressed me completely and took my panties along with my jeans.

He then took a comforter and covered me with it "get in" I said and after taking off his boxers he climbed back to bed and under the comforter.

We laid next to each other, kissing some more and I felt like this as gone too far. I traveled my hand along his chest to his back and pulled him a little closer, he smiled through the kiss and positioned himself on top of me.

He supported his body on his forearms and kept kissing me, then my cheek and then my neck. I felt his arousal between my legs, I was burning. I sent my hands to his lower back and further down.

I pulled my leg up to his hip and he caressed it gently still kissing my neck as he was he pushed my leg outwards and his fingers traveled my thigh down and in between my leg, I moaned and cried his name in pleasure I've never experienced before.

It was the first time his fingers went that far and it felt so good inside. I wished he'd stayed there longer but after a few movements he took it out and looked deeply into my eyes, I smiled and we that he entered me slowly and fully.

Eyes closed I listened to his breathing become heavier with every slow thrust he took in and out of my burning wetness. It felt like he was trying to make this moment last forever.

I could tell he was watching me enjoying the feel of him inside me. I knew he was listening to my moans and the other sounds I made. I also knew he was smiling every time he leaned in to kiss me I felt his smile.

But now I know it was wrong to go

I belong here by your side

That's what the end of the song says. That's how he made me feel that night, that he knew it was wrong to go and that he belongs here by my side.

I know he will never leave me.

And there we were lying in his bed, with only the moon lighting the dark room, in each other's arms, where we belong.

I was caressing his chest up and down slowly, placing soft little kisses when my lips begged for the feel of him while he was playing with my hair "I forgot to tell you something last night" he suddenly said

"What?" I looked at him

"I love you too" he smiled

This time it was certainly happy tears I felt on my cheeks, it was no longer pain or hurt. I was happy, he made me happy, and I really couldn't find a proper respond.

He kissed me and wiped my tears away.

I love him.

And he loves me.

I thought as I rested my head back in the crook of his shoulder and closed my eyes.

I had to do it. I'm not sorry, this is my favorite sex scene from all the scenes I wrote, probably because it's Luke and Lorelai. And for those who read my two other R stories let us say together – it's about time I write some Luke and Lorelai action!

Thanks for reading and reviewing. Especially for reviewing because that's how I get my motivation.

Thank you ASP for Lucas Danes. Thank you for every rant, every word, every look and every smile. Thank you for making him grumpy, cranky, moody, sad, sexy and sweet. And finely, thank you for casting this amazingly beautiful and sexy man for this great role.

This line – its mine! And ASP's… but that's beside the point.

GO GO GET to review because your review is what keeps me going.

No sack of potatoes needed here.

Incase I didn't mention it before – I love Luke. Probably too much. I can't help it… he's too hot for me to handle.