(A/N: Everything italics are flashbacks. Everything in bold italics are lyrics. The flashbacks aren't in any certain order they're just flashbacks and are representing what Brooke's thinking about when she's singing.)

Brooke sat on her bed and strummed her guitar. All she could think about was that kiss that her Nathan had shared, and how much of a bitch Theresa had been. Had she seen them? Was Theresa jealous? Did Nathan mean to kiss her like that? Did he mean all the things he said? A million questions circled in Brooke's head.

They've clipped my wings again,

Tore them apart and then, left me

No use to fly away to my yesterday, of freedom

My eyes died back that day,

"Nathan!" Brooke squealed as she ran into his room and jumped on his bed.

Nathan smiled and gripped Brooke's hips, "Hey baby," he said sweetly, "What's up?"

"Well, Peyton cancelled our shopping plans for today," she began, "So I was thinking...Maybe you and I could just go out for a bite to eat...At the mall..."

Nathan sighed, "Brooke. You know I hate shopping," he complained.

"Please!" Brooke pleaded and then kissed his forehead, "Please, please, please!"

Nathan stretched out his arms, "Fine...But only because I love you!"

Brooke giggled, "I love you too," she said and kissed him passionately.

Seeing the hurt I may have done

Beat me instead of them,

Pain is my only zen, of fun

I'll go where secrets are sold

Where roses unfold

I'll sleep as time goes by

Nathan walked out of Tim's house drunk and stammering. He fell onto Tim's front lawn laughing as Brooke and some of the guys from the basketball team tried to pick him up and get him into the car.

"Nathan," Brooke said; fed up with the way he was acting, "Get your fucking ass up!"

Nathan looked up at her, "Fuck off, bitch!"

"You are such an ass!" She exclaimed, "Why are you acting like this?"

Nathan rolled his eyes, "Because I'm drunk!" He laughed, "Drunk as a mother fucking skunk!" The rest of the team walked back into the house because the knew a fight was about to start.

"You need to grow up, Nate!" Brooke screamed, "I'm not your mother!"

"You need to grow up, Nate," he mocked her and then drunkenly laughed, "Get the fuck away from me...I don't need your help!"

Brooke felt her eyes begin to burn and felt a hot tear run down her cheek, "You're unbelievable," she said and then walked towards the car and drove off.

So hurting here is where I belong,

dreaming a song

Blood on my hands to stay strong

The flowers in the graveyard are all gone,

I don't belong

Nathan walked into Brooke's room and saw her laying in her bed in a fetal position. He could hear Brooke weeping softly, "Brooke," he whispered and sat down on the bed next to her, "Brooke," he said again.

Brooke could feel him put his hand on her back. He began to rub her back; Brooke felt another big tear run down her cheek and onto her already wet pillow, "I'm sorry baby," she heard him say sincerely, "I'm so sorry..."

Brooke nodded her head and moved over so there was room for Nathan to lay down. He laid down and put his arm around Brooke's waist.

There is no right to heal the wrong,

Soup's on hot feelin' like a do or die,

I can't throw up,

I don't think I even wanna try

Brooke walked into a beautiful Villa, where her dad's boss was hosting a party. It had been a month or so since she had seen her parents, so she wasn't very excited for the little get together.

Brooke walked upstairs and saw the many beautiful, "This place is beautiful isn't it?" She heard someone say behind her.

Brooke turned around and saw an attractive guy leaning against the wall with a martini in his hand, "Yes...It is," she said, "I would die to own this!"

"I can you give you the grand tour," the guy said, "My name's Greg," he said with a big, white smile.

Brooke smiled, "Brooke," she said and then followed him down the hall, "Do you live here?"

"This is my family's summer home," Greg said.

Brooke looked into a big room with pink walls, "Is your dad Bill Gates or something?" She asked in amazement.

"No, he's the boss of this all," Greg said.

"Oh!" Brooke said, "My dad works for your dad...Peter Davis."

Greg smiled, "He's an excellent worker, from what my father tells me. And he has a beautiful daughter," he flirted.

"Thank you," Brooke said graciously, "But I have a boyfriend..."

Greg put his fingers up to Brooke's lips, "Shh," he said and then kissed Brooke gently on the lips.

You still can't make me cry,

You've pinned this butterfly down

My fire's burning out,

Kill my flame without a frown

Nathan walked out of the shower with a towel around his waist. He had ignored 3 of Brooke's calls already and he was feeling bad. He walked into an unfamiliar room and saw Paige, a girl from another school, sitting on her bed, "Leaving already?" She asked as she crinkled her nose.

"I have to go," Nathan said nonchalantly.

Paige smiled, "Did you have fun?"

"You gave me what I needed," Nathan said as he got dressed.

Paige sighed, "Girlfriend's not putting out?"

"She is," Nathan said, "I've never done this cheating thing before..."

Paige got out of her bed and ran her hand down Nathan's naked chest, "It gets easier the more you do it," she said and licked Nathan's lips.

"No," Nathan said as he backed away, "This was a one time only thing..." He said sternly and walked out of Paige's room, and out of her house.

And starving hurts the soul,

When you're hungry for, some love

So if I close my eyes

I can really fly, above

"...You killed me.. I can't even pretend to be happy anymore.. It's not worth pretending.." Brooke said to Nathan as she walked into his room.

Nathan looked down at the ground to hide the tears in his eyes, "Then we can't do this anymore..." He said, "Your right, it's not worth pretending anymore, but I thought what we had was real!"

"Then this is it?" Brooke asked, even though she already knew the answer.

Nathan stood up and wiped his eyes casually, "I guess so..."

Brooke nodded, "We never expected it to last forever," she finally and walked out of Nathan's room.

So hurting here is where I belong...

Brooke set down her guitar and put on her coat. She drove to Nathan's house and walked into his room. Nathan looked up at her in surprise and stood up.

"Our whole relationship was based on love, Nathan," Brooke said, "I loved you so much." Nathan nodded, "You know everything about me, and I can never take the things that we shared back, and I would never want to...Seeing with you other girls killed me, and it still does. You should never be jealous of what I gave Lucas, because I gave you twenty times more. I gave you my virginity, Nathan. I let you into my heart and soul which is something that before I never let anybody reach...Tell me now if I'm wasting my time on thinking back on the memories, because dammit I'm not ready for another heart break," Brooke said with tears in her eyes.

Theresa walked out of Nathan's bathroom, "Which shirt should I wear Nate?" She asked and the noticed Brooke standing, "Hey honey," she said with a high pitched voice, "What's up?"

"Nothing," Brooke said, "I was just leaving..." She looked at Theresa then back at Nathan. Brooke ran out of his room and out to her car in the driveway.

"Brooke!" Nathan called after her, and finally catched up to her, "It's not what it-"

"It's not what it looks like!" Brooke screamed, "I just put my heart out there to you, and you have that fucking tramp in your bedroom...Wearing one of your t-shirts?"

Nathan sighed, "She doesn't mean anything to me! Theresa told me her parents were out of town, and said she didn't want to be left home alone," he explained, "I was helping her out..."

"Whatever," Brooke said coldly and then got into her car and drove off.

Theresa walked beside Nathan, "What's her problem?"

"I'm going to take you home," Nathan said as he walked towards his car.

Theresa scoffed, "What? Why?"

"There's nothing between us anymore!" Nathan said, "Give it up already!"

Brooke walked into Peyton's room crying and saw her in bed. Peyton looked up and saw Brooke walking towards her bed, "Brooke," she said, "What's wrong?"

Brooke put her hand over her face and cried harder, "Can I stay here tonight?"

Peyton nodded, "Yeah," she said and let Brooke lay down beside her, "Do you want to talk about it?" She asked.

"No," Brooke said, "Goodnight..."

Peyton looked over her shoulder at Brooke and saw her petite body shaking, "...Goodnight," Peyton said quietly.

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