"I'm angry with you."

"I know."

"Then why aren't you trying to do something about it? Why are you just sitting there staring dumbly into the fire?"

"What do you want me to do?"

"Hold me. Tell me that everything is going to be ok. Tell me that you love me and need me."

"You've always been blind Lily. Since you were eleven you never did see."

"I see fine, Remus. I see everything."

"Then look into my eyes, Lily. Tell me what you see."

"I see an old man, a tragic boy. I see someone who once loved me long ago."

"Once loved you?"

"I don't think you do anymore. I think your love for me has faded away and you know what Remus?"

"What?"

"It's killing me. The thought that I might have lost you is killing me."

"Lily…"

"Don't you Lily me. Don't you try to sugar coat what you feel. You told me this summer. You wrote me a long letter saying you loved me and wanted to be with me. What happened, Remus? What changed your mind?"

"Lily…"

"Don't you lie to me Remus. I can see it in your eyes. You're about to lie to me. We were happy and then I come back from a week with my family and all of a sudden you don't love me anymore! I don't understand."

"Maybe you aren't supposed to. Maybe it's only for me to understand."

"I want to understand. Let me understand."

"It's too complicated."

"Complicated!"

"Yes, complicated. Too much for you to understand. You don't know anything about it."

"About what? What don't I know about?"

"About pain, Lily! You don't know a thing about suffering."

"Pain! Suffering! Do you know what's its been like for me this past month? Not a day goes by when I don't cry. Not a day goes by when I don't feel like I'm dying because you aren't here."

"Try seventeen years of pain, Lily. Try a life time of pain. And once you felt that, then we can talk."

"Remus. Please."

"Please what?"

"Talk to me. Love me."

"You never did learn how to give up, did you?"

"It's not in my nature to let people I love leave me."

"Your sister left."

"She's an exception."

"And why is that?"

"Because nothing I could have done would have made her want to stay. She had enough and needed freedom."

"Maybe I've had enough."

"Don't say that."

"Maybe I need to be free."

"Remus, stop it. Stop it right now!"

"Maybe I wish I could pack up my bags and walk out the front door."

"Why? What did I do?"

"Not everything is about you, Lily. Not everything that happens to me was caused by you."

"Than what? What made you hate me so much?"

"Life"

"You always say that."

"There's nothing more to say."

"Yes there is. You can say that you love me. That you're sorry you hurt me. You could come over here right now and wipe away my tears as you tell me how much you hate watching me cry."

"You always were a romantic, Lily."

"I just know what I want."

"And what is that?"

"You"

"Not James?"

"No! It's you. It's always been you."

"You and James have been pretty close lately."

"You've noticed?"

"There's not much about you I don't notice."

"You watch me?"

"I observe."

"And what do you see?"

"Perfection"

"I'm not perfect, Remus."

"You're so perfect that you don't even realize it."

"Look. My socks don't match."

"Scarlet and gold. Coincidence?"

"I have to show house pride. It was a quidditch game today after all."

"And you support our house?"

"Of course!"

"Not James?"

"If I support Gryffindor I support James by default."

"I bet you were hoarse for hours from cheering for him."

"If I'm hoarse at all it's because of all the time I spend crying for you."

"Don't do that."

"Do what?"

"Look at me with teary eyes. Look at me wearing your heart on your sleeves."

"I want to look at you like this. I've always looked at you like this."

"Things change Lily."

"I don't want them to."

"Sometimes, you don't have a choice. Life will always changes and you have to change with it."

"I don't want to. I want to go out to the lake tomorrow and see you sitting by our tree waiting for me to come. I want to talk about believing and escaping and I want… I want tragedy to come back into my life."

"It doesn't work that way."

"Make it work that way."

"You're so young, Lily. So young, so naïve."

"And you're old. So old, so boring."

"Not tragic?"

"You don't deserve to be tragic anymore. Not after the way you've treated me."

"I do miss you, you know."

"No you don't."

"Of course I do."

"If you did you would have come over to me when I cried out for you. If you did you wouldn't have disappeared. You wouldn't have… given up."

"Given up on what?"

"On me. On…life."

"I never had a life to give up on."

"Yes you did. The life we were supposed to share. You gave up on that and on me!"

"I just stopped believing in its reality. I just stopped imagining our life together."

"Reality isn't so great, you know? I've lived in reality for a month now and I wish I could go back to how I was before."

"Back?"

"Back when I was wild and crazy and you loved me."

"Reality is all I have."

"No, you have me you just choose to be miserable."

"No one chooses to be miserable."

"You do. Because I can make you happy. I can give you everything in this world but you turn away from it. It's tragic really."

"So I'm tragic again."

"Do you love me again?"

"This is silly, Lily. You're silly."

"You used to love that about me."

"Things change. People change."

"Have you really changed that much."

"There's no point in denying it."

"Can you tell me one thing?"

"What?"

"If you could go back, would you?"

"Yes."

"I would, too."

"There's no point, you know?"

"In what?"

"In wanting to go back. In wishing for the past. There's no point. This is reality now Lily: live it, embrace it."

"I can't."

"Why not?"

"Because I don't want to say goodbye. I don't want this to be it."

"Everybody says goodbye sometimes, Lily."

"Not us. Not people who love each other."

"Even us. Even if we love each other."

"Remus, please. Don't give up. Not on life. Not on me."

"It's too late."

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