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"Block, duck, stab! That is it, Nienna, you are doing it." Eowyn, the shield maiden of Rohan encouraged her friend.
Sweat was pouring down her face but Nienna knew that if she gave up like this in a real battle, she would be killed. She tried to block Eowyn's attack but she was too tired and her knees gave away.
"You have just been killed, Nienna." Eowyn said before she dropped her sword, when Nienna's sword collided with her own.
"So have you." Nienna growled angry.
Eowyn's face was full of fear when she looked upon Nienna's face. The Elf maiden's eyes were getting black and she looked ready to kill somebody. "What is wrong with you?" She finally managed to say.
Nienna shook her head, trying to clear her anger before she said. "I don't know. I was so angry back then. O Valar, Eowyn stay away from me. I have to leave, I have to think about this." Nienna said before she got up and ran into the woods. Eowyn looked at her retreating back with a look of pity on her face before she picked up the swords and walked back to the camp.
Nienna kept running as far as her body allowed it before she stumbled and fell on her face. Tears jumped in her eyes and she sat up again. Breathing deeply, she forced her racing heart back down. She wiped the tears away from her eyes with her sleeve before she got up and sat down on the trunks of a tree.
She had just realized why Saruman had chosen her as his student. She was the heir of Galadriel, which meant that she had the same power as the Lady of the Light but Saruman had chosen her because her power could be used for both evil and good.
"It is because my heart is both evil and good. I cannot ban the evil out of it because I don't know how. I have been living with magic for all my life, all my life I have been living with evil magic. I cannot live without it." Nienna said to herself.
She slowly opened her eyes when she heard the trees answer the silent cries of the lost Elfling. "Help me." She asked them.
'How can we help you? You are the only one who can ban the evil out of your heart. We cannot show you how, nobody can." They answered and then they fell silent once more.
Nienna dropped her head. She felt like she had failed. "I have failed them all. I have failed Legolas, Aragorn, Gandalf, Gimli, Eowyn, Atar and Naneth but most of all I failed myself. How can I do this? I don't know how." She cried silently.
"You can never fail as long as you believe you can do it. Nobody can make you do things unless you do them first. Believe in yourself and you will find a way." A voice on the wind said. Nienna looked up and a little bit of the despairing feeling disappeared. She wiped her eyes again and then walked back to the camp.
When she got back, she sat down after assuring Eowyn that she was fine. She drank and ate little that evening. She wished that she were home, she had never wished for it more then at that moment. It did not have to be Rivendell but just be among people that loved her and could help her. People that believed in her, not being somewhere on her own where all the two people she knew where afraid of her when they would find out.
When the watches were set, Nienna pulled her hood up and walked into the forest. She opened her heart to Legolas but almost closed it when she heard his voice in her head saying. "Why are you despairing, Meleth? Is everything alright?"
She felt tears sting in her eyes once more before she replied with. 'It is fine as if should be. I am not fine, I am..."
"You are what, Nienna?"
'I am evil, Legolas. You better stay away all of you. I cannot be changed. I don't know how. I know why Saruman kept me locked away and why nobody tried to safe me. I should be locked into a room and never set free for I am evil. If you like your life then you better stay away."
"You are my life, Nienna. Can you not see that?"
Nienna signed before she said. "I have to think. Goodnight Legolas." And with much effort she closed her mind off from him. She was touched by his words but knew that if she was evil, they could never be.
Miles away, Legolas signed grief when he felt his love close her mind away from him. It was true, here was not much he could do but why wouldn't she let him help her?
In Mordor a Red Eye became suddenly aware of a certain Elf Maiden's power and her connection to the Elf price and decided to use that for his advantage. He called to him the leader of the Nine Nazgul, the Witchking of Agmar.
"You know what to do. Proceed with the plan and help her ban the goodness our of her heart. Do it by all means." The Nazgul nodded.
Far in the West, the Valar watched the future with concern and decided to put the request of the Lady in Light in order and help her great grandchild. But how could they help Nienna except keep Legolas one long day away from her before she could ban the evil out of her heart.
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