Ok, this chapter is written from Guinevere's POV, only because I needed some time to figure out my story line with Lancelot, so look at it as a...intermission:)

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What Heaven Is...

Chapter 6- "Revelations"

I knew I was wrong, what was I doing? All I was doing was hurting two people at the same time. I held two hearts in the palm of my hands, and one of them had raised up higher then the other. To whom this heart belongs, I share with only him. But this heart was now broken and lay crumpled in my mind.

God send him back to me; bring him back to soothe this pain.

I wish I could have told him, wish I wouldn't have said I chose Arthur, when both my soul and heart told me to choose him. He was my soul mate, he was my destiny. I wanted nothing more then to just see him smile once more, and know that I was the sole purpose for it being on his lips. I loved him, he knew this, and he loved me, I knew this as well. There was no excuse why I sent him away in the way I did. There was no excuse why I tormented him during the ceremony. Why had I done this?

You wanted to see how much he would endure for you…

I wrapped my arms around me as I walked in the cold, picturing that it was his arms. That I was once again wrapped in his warm, trusting, protecting arms and knowing that I would never come to harm while he was there. I knew Arthur was there for me, in an equally important way. But nothing can compare to the love that I felt with my fearless Knight, the Knight who had come to my side when a Saxon sought to kill me.

"Guinevere?"

I turned hopefully, wanting to see him standing there with open arms. But alas I saw my husband, and he wore a smile of hope on his face. I shut my eyes and a tear silently escaped unwillingly. I heard Arthur's steps coming nearer to me and I covered my face and wiped away any sign that I was distressed.

"Guinevere, I've been searching for you. What are you doing so far from the wall?" Arthur asked as he reached out to me.

I tried to put the best smile I could on my lips.

"Got caught up in my thoughts I suppose, you know me."

Arthur laughed and took me into his arms. These arms weren't as comforting as Lancelot's.

"Yes I suppose I do know you. You and Lancelot are always going off by yourselves; I wonder sometimes why you did not choose him."

Oh do not say such things! I can not endure them!

"Come, its growing cold." Arthur said as he turned me from my path.

I followed him, knowing it was no use to protest. The cold had already done its damage on my heart.

"Arthur!!"

I looked up at the voice and found it to belong to Galahad. The young Knight's eyes were dancing with distress.

"Galahad? What is it?" Arthur asked as he let me go.

"It's Lancelot, he's no where to be found."

Oh god…not this

"Bors said he came upon him in the stables earlier." Galahad was explaining.

I reached out to Arthur and fought through my tears,

"I take my leave, seems my journey took more out of me then I expected." I said as I left quickly.

I heard Arthur say something while I walked away.

"We need to find him Arthur…" Galahad responded.

The note was lying on my bed when I entered and I picked it up quickly. I read the heartfelt words and finally let my tears overcome me. I clutched the small piece of paper to my heart and looked out the window.

"Come back to me…that is all I ask, come back…"

I have 2 more previously written chapters left, seems I cant quite get Chapter 9 done, but they're coming! Thanks for reading.