In cold blood

Written by Becca

Disclaimer: I own nothing you recognise and everything you don't.

Summary: From the word go, Harry's summer goes downhill and he sinks into a deep despair. With no hope and the resurrection of Lord Voldemort, Harry does what any normal teenager would do in those circumstances; he tries to take his life. When he awakes he finds himself in a family who seem to welcome him openly. He has changed, he is no longer human and yet he still has to defeat the darkest lord of the century...will he stand alone or will he find, in this family, what he had always desired? Love and affection.

Author Notes: nabiki, I'll be writing the chapters that havent already been written yet as soon as I can. Though I've just started another story where the plot has been unwilling to leave me alone for a while. I'll try and have them up as soon as possible though, I always do, I hate taking too long to update... Believe me when I say it irritates me as much as it does anyone else.

Thank you all for your reviews, they have been greatly appreciated and I am more than pleased that you are enjoying the story.

Chapter Six

"What should I tell him?" Harry asked as he paced backwards and forwards, almost tearing out his hair in frustration. His family watched him with amusement for a minute and laughed openly at his glare. In just one hour's time, Harry was to be at the Potions classroom and yet he couldn't decide what questions he should answer if any or whether he should perhaps just deny it for longer.

"If you want my advice Olwë, then you should just tell him everything. Ask of him to keep it quiet but if he tells Dumbledore then we shall just have to deal with that when it comes. Lets face it, the truth will be known sooner or later and if its sooner, then well...we'll just have to see. But I think, if he agrees, he would be of great help keeping our secret and he seems the man who would cover our backs and clear up all mistakes quickly" Celeste said slowly and the others nodded

"Make sure to ask him why he teases you so wont you?" Marius asked with a smirk and Harry glared half-heartedly at his brother but the effect was rather ruined by the spectacular blush that rose in his cheeks. Actually, half of him hoped that the man would continue to tease him like that but another part of him was rather concerned about the sudden change of attitude. Maybe he should ask if he was under the Imperius or something. Of course, he wouldn't let his brothers know that.

He had a rather confusing dream last night involving said Potions Master and that dream went to prove that it was possible to do such a thing between two men. Harry's face heated even more at just the thought of those hands touching him, that mouth around him. Merlin, how did he even know half of the things he dreamt? He didn't even think some of the things that happened where even...hygienic. He wrinkled his nose up at the thought but even that didn't calm his growing erection.

"Mums right Rúmil, even if in the end it all does come out, I think it would do you some good anyway, it would be a huge relief to have at least one person outside of the family in which you could converse with. You obviously like this man and he likes you, maybe this was just meant to be" Ané said shrugging "I think you should tell him everything he wants to know, mainly because if, later on, he discovers you have lied then it may set something back between you...if there is anything to set back that is" she added, frowning slightly as she yet again confused herself with her own words.

Harry nodded and sighed, he would do as they said and he would tell the man everything, if his trust backfired on him this time then he would just have to deal with the consequences when he came to them. Besides, Ané was right. It would be a relief to get it all off his chest. He looked at the clock and groaned as he realized he now only had ten minutes. With a sigh, he waved to his family and left the room, ignoring their pointed smirks.

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Harry walked into the potions room and sighed when he saw nobody was in sight. Watch now, he would have done all that worrying for nothing and Snape would have completely forgotten about their little arranged meeting. Ugh, typical. He sighed and waited by the door just inside the room, somehow it felt like it would be wrong to sit whilst he waited though he knew that was completely stupid considering this was a classroom.

He started and jumped visibly when arms encircled around his waist from behind. How did the man do that? Harry could even hear his mother coming and yet Snape always managed to sneak up on him. He sighed as he felt that lean muscular body pressed up against his own and bit his lip "I have to admit I am surprised you actually came" that voice whispered in his ear and Harry bit back a groan as he felt himself hardening.

"For some reason, I felt I had no choice" he managed to say without his voice breaking. Then than delightful voice was chuckling in his ear and Harry moaned, really, the man should laugh more often, it was truly beautiful. One of those hands escaped under his shirt and stroked his stomach again, laughing as the muscles quivered under his touch.

"Come, I have to make the wolfbane potion for that mutt of yours. You can help me" Snape said pulling back and before Harry could say anything or protest, he found himself dragged through the classroom and into what looked like a private workroom. He looked around in awe at some of the ingredients, itching to get his hands on them and play but he bit that back and just stood rather awkwardly at the door.

After a while, Snape beckoned him closer and then set him to work on chopping up the ingredients. They worked together in silence for a while, Harry slicing and chopping and Snape mixing and stirring. Harry watched him from the corner of his eye and marveled at the look on concentration on that face. He was surprised when Snape pulled back from the potion and lifted his robes off over his head, leaving tight black jeans and a black silk shirt with the sleeves pushed up to the elbow.

He found himself staring at those strong muscular arms and when Snape looked up he blushed and turned back to his cutting quickly. The man was simply gorgeous; there was no other word for it. Snape smirked at him and then continued throwing god only knows what into the potion whilst Harry tried his hardest to concentrate on what he was supposed to be doing.

"Tell me, where were you this summer?" Snape asked eventually and Harry bit his lip and looked at him

"I want your word that you wont tell anyone," he said quietly and Snape looked up at him. Harry wouldn't meet his eyes and he pushed his sleeves up out of the way and continued cutting, wishing the man would look away or do something.

"I cant give you that Harry, but I will think about it after I know" he said finally and Harry nodded, he had expected as much but this, well, he was feeling decidedly more nervous now than he had earlier and his hands were trembling slightly

"I was with my family" he said and then smiled slightly at the look of disbelief on Snape's face "no not that one, I was with my family who cares..." he trailed off, wondering how to tell this but then froze as Snape's hand shot out and grabbed his arm. Harry swallowed hard as Snape turned it sideways and then the Potions Master ran a thumb over the scars on his wrist. Harry bit his lip and looked away "That's the reason I was turned. I- my family were watching and I- I did that and I nearly died before one of them reacted quickly and turned me," he whispered and then he lowered his head and told the whole story.

When he was finished, Snape was staring at him, still not letting go of his wrist. He pushed Harry's chin up and cupped his cheek as their eyes locked "Why are you so afraid of others finding out Harry? Surely your family are willing to let others know considering they came all the way to Hogwarts for you" he asked, arching an eyebrow and Harry smiled slightly, he hadn't mentioned the names of his family but it was rather obvious

"My family instructed me to tell you the truth...or should I say advised me. I just, I'm not ready for everyone to know yet, I'm kinda still getting used to it myself," he said quietly and Snape nodded and then smiled and kissed his forehead

"Then I shall tell no one until you are ready" he said and then quickly added another ingredient to the potion, Harry was about to go back to his slicing when that hand grabbed him again and lips were pressed against the hideous scar on his wrist "Never again Harry, never again" he said firmly, looking into Harry's eyes. Harry bit his lip and lowered his eyes, neither agreeing or disagreeing.

"My name isn't Harry anymore" he said into the silence and blushed when Snape looked up at him "My family named me, my nickname if Rúmil, and my full name is Olwë Maeglin Melwasúl," he added. Snape looked at him then laughed aloud

"Deathdancer and lovely beautiful vampire? Oh I do like that" he said and then fell silent again, Snape chuckled to himself every now and again but Harry just continued with his task in silence. He did feel loads better now that he had told someone and even better thanks to Snape's promise to wait until he was ready. He smiled slightly at that, he certainly liked this Snape much better than he liked the Potions Master.

Finally the potion was left to simmer and Harry followed Snape into his office where he stood nervously, waiting for the man to dismiss him or to ask him to sit down. He didn't expect for the man to stand really close behind him and press a kiss to his neck. He melted back into that body again as one hand slowly crept up his thigh. He tensed as the other hand stroked a scar on his stomach and then groaned when the first hand reached its target and squeezed him before pulling back altogether. Harry whimpered and glared at him

"Why do you have to be tormenting... So mean? You leave me aching all day and for most of the night and you only have to speak then!" he moaned and then clamped his hand over his mouth and blushed furiously as Snape looked at him shocked

"You mean – you don't – touch yourself?" he asked, stunned and Harry frowned and then arched an eyebrow

"Of course I do!" he said and Snape looked relieved and even a little disappointed there "How else do you think I go to the toilet" he added almost to himself and Snape's eyebrows shot up and he stared at Harry with nothing short of lust and desire in his eyes

"But – don't you touch yourself – for pleasure?" he asked and Harry stared at him confused, shaking his head slightly

"You- you're untouched?" Snape whispered again, stepping closer and Harry nodded, biting his lip though he found it a bit unfair to call him untouched, he did have to touch himself to use the toilet and Snape himself had done his fair share of touching lately

"Are you under Imperius or something?" Harry blurted, taking a step back. Snape stared at him for a minute before he started snickering and then was laughing full out, Harry blushed again and fidgeted with his shirt "Well you just started liking me all of a sudden, well, if you even like me and..." he trailed off when he felt lips pressed against his own

"No, you see Olwë, everything I thought about you was proved wrong this summer. Then I looked and saw the real you... You have to understand that vampires are extremely forward when it comes to potential mates. But, I – err, I had no idea I was tormenting you that much! I assumed you would just go and find release" he said and then stroked Harry's cheek and smiled "I could show you – if you like" he said hesitantly as he pressed the palm of his hand against Harry's crotch

"Err..." Harry shifted uncomfortably and his eyes rolled back in his head as a wave of pleasure washed over him. Snape chuckled in his ear and stepped closer, officially pinning him against the wall, their faces inches apart

"I could show you how to touch yourself. I could show you many, many things Rúmil, I could make you mine if you wanted, I could make you my mate but if you want that, now you have family I'll have to do it properly, but for now I could show you" he whispered and Harry worried his bottom lip and nodded. Before he knew what was happening, Snape pulled Harry's trousers down so that he was naked from the waist down, he then pulled him away from the wall and molded his body into Harry's back

He took Harry's hand gently into his own and rested his chin on the younger vampires shoulder before guiding both hands to their target. Harry was tense and blushing fiercely and Severus couldn't help but smile at his obvious discomfort and embarrassment. He had decided he would back off on the whole touching thing for a while until he was tempted so severely twice in one night... And then when the boy revealed how innocent, how untouched he really was...well, there went any restraint he had left.

He paused for a minute, waiting for the boy to relax slightly and just looked at him. He had definitely changed greatly over the summer. Instead of looking like James Potter's twin now, he looked like his own person with his mother's eyes. Those eyes that were glowing against the smooth, pale, untouched skin. He truly was beautiful beyond words, angelic even. To be honest, Severus was half expecting to find wings under that shirt.

Even beautiful doesn't cut it. Severus mused as he watched the boy relax very, very slowly and lean back against him. How could a creature such as this even consider someone like him? But hell he wasn't going to waste time questioning that now, he had much more fun things to do before he grabbed enough wits about him to approach Celeste and Armand with his request to date their son as was custom still in vampire laws. Damn it made him feel like a teenage boy again but Harry was more than worth it.

The twenty years age difference didn't bother Severus in the least though, for one, whilst Harry was still a child even by Wizarding standards, his mind and soul seemed to be much older and as vampires were immortal, such like twenty years may seem like twenty seconds in time to come. If Harry would have him, then there would be no problems.

He shook himself from his thoughts and curled Harry's fingers around his arousal carefully "Feels good doesn't it? Just to feel bare flesh against it" he whispered in the boy's ear, his voice low and husky, damn it should be illegal for someone to be so...sooo...gorgeous. "It almost hurts in intensity does it not? That's it, slowly start to move your hand up and down, do what feels right" he added and then let go and watched intently, before he walked in front of him so that he could see the boys face when he came.

Harry was a quick learner, Severus thought briefly and fought back a smirk, that small hand was moving faster now and Severus knew his release was close. It seemed the boy was still embarrassed. Really, it wasn't in the nature of vampires to be embarrassed about sexual things, he crept closer and reached out a hand to just touch him again and then he looked up quickly and Harry was coming hard.

He caught Harry in his arms as the boy almost fell and then chuckled before sitting down on the floor with the boy on his lap. He stroked the hair out of the beautiful face, already recalling the expression as he came. Damn he was painfully hard himself but that could wait. As he watched the boy eyes flicker open again he smiled "Would you mind terribly if I asked your parents for permission to date you?" he asked, Harry blinked and stared at him incredulously for a minute before shaking his head and biting his lip

"I- I'd like that" he said quietly and Severus grinned before pressing a gentle kiss to his forehead. They stayed just staring at each other in silence for a minute before Severus helped him stand up and then clean up. He watched intently as the boy dressed, his eyes never leaving the lithe figure in front of him

"You had better be getting back before your mother starts to think I have – err – done inappropriate things" he said eventually, a playful smile tugging at his lips. Harry grinned at him and nodded before heading to the door, before he could leave though, he was pulled into a kiss and he parted his lips to that tongue as it begged for entrance. He moaned and gave up the battle for dominance immediately as he contended with stroking that tongue with his own, all too soon, they had to come up for air.

"Good night my beauty" Severus whispered and Harry smiled at him angelically before pressing a kiss to his cheek and leaving, shutting the door quietly behind himself.