Disclaimer: Same ol' same ol' Paramount takes the credit and I'm left in
the dust with the rest of the fanfic writers.
Author's Notes: Thank you for all of the reviews. I really do love feedback. I wasn't really sure about this chapter but I posted it anyways and I hope you all enjoy it.
B'Elanna and Seven were franticly searching for Kathryn. The ceremony was to begin in less then ten minutes and she was nowhere to be seen. They searched the bathrooms, the connecting dance hall and even where the men where dressing. Little did they know she was right out side. Bearing her soul to a man she swore she would never get to close to.
Kathryn was frozen. She had never been one to be at a loss for words but now they just escaped her. Chakotay rubbed her arm in an attempt to calm her. She was so afraid he wouldn't want to be with her after he knew she couldn't make him happy, couldn't give him what he wanted.
"Kathryn, whatever you have to tell me I'll still love you just as much as I do right now."
She moved away from him and stared towards the coast. The wind was lightly blowing her loose strands of hair. She wished she could enjoy the scenery; and not have to explain to him that he was making a mistaken by loving her, by wanting to be with her. But he deserved the truth and she wouldn't deny him that.
"Chakotay, I can't make you happy. There's just so much I can't give you."
She paused and took another glance towards the horizon. She continued speaking but her eyes never left the mesmerizing sight.
"I'm so afraid that marring me would waste all the love you have to give. I can't give you the time and love you deserve; I can't give you a home. But most of all Chakotay, I can never give you a child. You deserve more than anyone to be a father to share your love with a baby. I can never provide that for you. I'm not about to let you waste your life on me."
Chakotay gently held her jaw and turned her neck so she was facing him. He spoke softly with a slight whisper to his voice.
"Whatever made you think that would even matter to me? I knew perfectly well what I was getting myself into. I knew that about you. I knew you where incapable of having children."
Kathryn was clearly confused by his last statement no one knew about her condition but the doctor. She hadn't been this way her entire life in fact it had happened when she was a lieutenant. She was on an away mission gathering information when a plasma storm erupted out of nowhere. She was caught unaware and took a direct hit from a lightning surge. The bolt had affected all of her internal system but had hit her reproductive system the hardest. The damage left her so that she was capable of carrying a child for a short time; but she could not sustain the fetus for more than a few months. Her uterus just wasn't strong enough to take the pressures of a pregnancy.
" I was a lieutenant when it happened how could you have possibly known?"
"After an attack from the Borg you were severely injured and I had the doctor do an advances full body scan to see the full extent of the damage you had sustained. It came up but the doctor had ruled it as an old injury."
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"I knew you would come around in your own time and tell me when you were ready. Though I expected it to be sooner that five minutes before our wedding."
He joked with her to try and lighten the mood.
* * *
* *
B'Elanna ran to the entrance of the church and nearly took Tuvok's head off in the process.
"What seems to be the problem, Lieutenant?"
"We can't find Chakotay and the Captain anywhere. Have you seem them? "
"No I haven't"
"I don't understand what they could be doing when their wedding is minutes from starting. It's just like them to make a decision and not let anyone else in on it." B'Elanna's temper began to flare as she realized she had no control over the situation.
"It's illogical to assume they didn't have a plausible reason for leaving."
" Tuvok, I don't have time for your logic. I'm the Maid of Honor and it's my duty to keep track of her." She cursed under her breath.
"Lieutenant, have you searched outside the church? Perhaps they are there."
"No", B'Elanna felt rather ignorant. She had search everywhere inside and out but had not simply looked outside.
She craned her neck around the door and her eyes focused on both Chakotay and Janeway sitting on a fallen tree. She immediately ran to where they were situated. She was oblivious to the importance of their conversation. She grabbed Chakotay's arm.
"What do you two think you're doing? I have 146 people and one hologram impatiently waiting for you two to finally say 'I do" and you're out here chatting."
Chakotay snapped his neck in her direction and gave her a glare that B'Elanna knew all to well.
"B'Elanna, would you mind giving us a moment?" His voice didn't portray anger but she knew he was furious with her sudden intrusion. She walked back to the steps of the church and passed back and forth.
"Kathryn, are you ready for this? Do you still want to go through with this?"
"You'd have to tie me up to keep me away. I wouldn't miss this for the world."
He grabbed her hand and they made their way to the church.
* *
* *
"I now pronounce you man and wife." The doctor's voice resonated through the chapel. "You may know kiss the bride."
Their kiss sealed it. The picture of Chakotay and Kathryn together was tranquil. It had only taken what had seemed like a lifetime to get to this moment though. The ceremony held tears and laughter and some moments of strange unity; for the crew knew that everything was in its rightful place.
Kathryn stared at her husband.She thougth to herself how odd it felt to say 'her husband' but in a way it seemed to fit her. She gazed into Chakotay's warm brown eyes. She knew their future held triumphs and tragedies but for the moment she was grateful for the here and now.
Author's Notes: Thank you for all of the reviews. I really do love feedback. I wasn't really sure about this chapter but I posted it anyways and I hope you all enjoy it.
B'Elanna and Seven were franticly searching for Kathryn. The ceremony was to begin in less then ten minutes and she was nowhere to be seen. They searched the bathrooms, the connecting dance hall and even where the men where dressing. Little did they know she was right out side. Bearing her soul to a man she swore she would never get to close to.
Kathryn was frozen. She had never been one to be at a loss for words but now they just escaped her. Chakotay rubbed her arm in an attempt to calm her. She was so afraid he wouldn't want to be with her after he knew she couldn't make him happy, couldn't give him what he wanted.
"Kathryn, whatever you have to tell me I'll still love you just as much as I do right now."
She moved away from him and stared towards the coast. The wind was lightly blowing her loose strands of hair. She wished she could enjoy the scenery; and not have to explain to him that he was making a mistaken by loving her, by wanting to be with her. But he deserved the truth and she wouldn't deny him that.
"Chakotay, I can't make you happy. There's just so much I can't give you."
She paused and took another glance towards the horizon. She continued speaking but her eyes never left the mesmerizing sight.
"I'm so afraid that marring me would waste all the love you have to give. I can't give you the time and love you deserve; I can't give you a home. But most of all Chakotay, I can never give you a child. You deserve more than anyone to be a father to share your love with a baby. I can never provide that for you. I'm not about to let you waste your life on me."
Chakotay gently held her jaw and turned her neck so she was facing him. He spoke softly with a slight whisper to his voice.
"Whatever made you think that would even matter to me? I knew perfectly well what I was getting myself into. I knew that about you. I knew you where incapable of having children."
Kathryn was clearly confused by his last statement no one knew about her condition but the doctor. She hadn't been this way her entire life in fact it had happened when she was a lieutenant. She was on an away mission gathering information when a plasma storm erupted out of nowhere. She was caught unaware and took a direct hit from a lightning surge. The bolt had affected all of her internal system but had hit her reproductive system the hardest. The damage left her so that she was capable of carrying a child for a short time; but she could not sustain the fetus for more than a few months. Her uterus just wasn't strong enough to take the pressures of a pregnancy.
" I was a lieutenant when it happened how could you have possibly known?"
"After an attack from the Borg you were severely injured and I had the doctor do an advances full body scan to see the full extent of the damage you had sustained. It came up but the doctor had ruled it as an old injury."
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"I knew you would come around in your own time and tell me when you were ready. Though I expected it to be sooner that five minutes before our wedding."
He joked with her to try and lighten the mood.
* * *
* *
B'Elanna ran to the entrance of the church and nearly took Tuvok's head off in the process.
"What seems to be the problem, Lieutenant?"
"We can't find Chakotay and the Captain anywhere. Have you seem them? "
"No I haven't"
"I don't understand what they could be doing when their wedding is minutes from starting. It's just like them to make a decision and not let anyone else in on it." B'Elanna's temper began to flare as she realized she had no control over the situation.
"It's illogical to assume they didn't have a plausible reason for leaving."
" Tuvok, I don't have time for your logic. I'm the Maid of Honor and it's my duty to keep track of her." She cursed under her breath.
"Lieutenant, have you searched outside the church? Perhaps they are there."
"No", B'Elanna felt rather ignorant. She had search everywhere inside and out but had not simply looked outside.
She craned her neck around the door and her eyes focused on both Chakotay and Janeway sitting on a fallen tree. She immediately ran to where they were situated. She was oblivious to the importance of their conversation. She grabbed Chakotay's arm.
"What do you two think you're doing? I have 146 people and one hologram impatiently waiting for you two to finally say 'I do" and you're out here chatting."
Chakotay snapped his neck in her direction and gave her a glare that B'Elanna knew all to well.
"B'Elanna, would you mind giving us a moment?" His voice didn't portray anger but she knew he was furious with her sudden intrusion. She walked back to the steps of the church and passed back and forth.
"Kathryn, are you ready for this? Do you still want to go through with this?"
"You'd have to tie me up to keep me away. I wouldn't miss this for the world."
He grabbed her hand and they made their way to the church.
* *
* *
"I now pronounce you man and wife." The doctor's voice resonated through the chapel. "You may know kiss the bride."
Their kiss sealed it. The picture of Chakotay and Kathryn together was tranquil. It had only taken what had seemed like a lifetime to get to this moment though. The ceremony held tears and laughter and some moments of strange unity; for the crew knew that everything was in its rightful place.
Kathryn stared at her husband.She thougth to herself how odd it felt to say 'her husband' but in a way it seemed to fit her. She gazed into Chakotay's warm brown eyes. She knew their future held triumphs and tragedies but for the moment she was grateful for the here and now.