Van's life had basically hit rock bottom and had come to an end since a
week before when Fiona once again left his life. He had little motivation,
and a longing that could no longer be fulfilled with Fiona's absence from
his life. She may not have gone anywhere but even though they were close to
each other it made no difference because it was like they were worlds
apart. His heart had fallen deep into the pits of despair and the only way
that he felt that he could get it back was by being with Fiona once again.
To be so close yet to not be able to touch or hold was the same problem that Fiona was having. She left because of the constant pain their love for each other had seemed to cause on the both of them. Fiona had no wish for Van to live a life where he could probably never truly be happy. It was much more painful than even she could have expected, but the pain really lied within her. The pain that she had been feeling when it was her that shot Van, and the child that was growing inside of her was a complete mystery because she had no idea who it was that it belonged to. She just didn't want Van to be hurt anymore because of the actions that were taken because of her.
'I would give anything to be able to hold her in my arms once again but she won't even acknowledge my presence anymore. I guess for her, the fastest that she can forget me is the fastest path to getting over it,' Van told himself while he absent-mindedly worked on a few repairs on the blade liger. It was strange thought because Van didn't even feel the slightest bit of anger towards Fiona. 'I guess it is because she was thinking of me when she did that. I don't care about anything that she did it for. All I want is for her to come back to me so we could be happy,' Van told himself as he stopped working and dropped the tool that he had been open. Van knew that he wouldn't be able to work at that moment so he jumped down off the blade liger and started to walk away.
Irvine saw Van walking off and knew exactly what was on his mind. Irvine walked up so that he was standing right next to Van. "So how are you taking everything?" asked Irvine once the two had walked in silence for a few moments.
"Ok, I guess. She won't even look at me anymore though and that makes it even worse," said Van with his head held low. It was actually becoming too painful for him to even think about it lately.
"Understandable, but I don't believe that you are ok. I know that it is a great pain for you at this moment. The one problem with everything that Fiona has been doing in this situation only seems to make things worse for you," said Irvine a little angry at Fiona although she was like a sister to him.
"I have tried to tell her that but she isn't listening to me. She is trying too hard to protect me and that is the greatest pain. The greatest pain is that whenever she does it ends up separating us and all I want is to be around her. To tell the truth, lately it is whenever I am around Fiona that I have ever truly been happy," Van admitted.
Fiona is the one that needs to know that, not me," said Irvine but they suddenly stopped when they saw Thomas standing in the middle of the hall holding a letter but it was like he had no idea what he was doing. "I don't think that bombs can fit in a letter that thin," said Irvine with a little laugh. "Who is the letter for?" he asked snatching the letter from Thomas before he could stop him.
Thomas tried to grab it back but he was unsuccessful. "It is for Fiona so please give it back," said Thomas trying to make another grab for it but Irvine once again moved it and Thomas nearly fell over but he managed to catch himself in time.
"For Fiona? Haven't you gotten over her yet? Besides, you already have a girlfriend and I don't think she would be too happy to know that you were sending Fiona love letters," teased Irvine embarrassing Thomas greatly.
Thomas managed to regain composure and finally snatch the letter back from Irvine. "I will have you know that this isn't from me. I was only asked to deliver it to her," admitted Thomas very annoyed with Irvine at that moment. "Now if you will excuse me, I have to get this to her so I can get back to work," said Thomas trying to get by but Irvine held out an arm and had a concerned look on his face.
"Who is the letter from Thomas? In these times it might be best to watch what you give Fiona because that letter could be from Zack. It doesn't have a name on it except for Fiona's so that is always a possibility," said Irvine not wanting to upset Fiona anymore than she already was.
"We don't know but I have been told to tell Fiona that if it is from him to report to Crougar immediately. They may want to keep her safe but they don't want to invade her private life any," said Thomas scratching the back of his head before he walked off. In a direction that he hoped that Fiona was in.
*****
Fiona just sat in front of a cup of hot salty coffee but it didn't look like she was even trying to drink any of it. Her mind was many places besides where she was at. It was hurting her but she tried to avoid Van as much as possible because she would probably go back on what she said if she were to talk to him.
"I don't see why you continue to put yourself through some of the things that you do. Why is it that you always think of other people happiness before you ever think of your own?" asked Moonbay taking a seat right next to Fiona.
"It is better this way," Fiona said but she knew that she was only lying to herself at that moment. "I am sure that somewhere out there is someone that can make Van happier than I ever could. I wasn't able to remain faithful to him even if I was controlled, and my own daughter is afraid of me as well," said Fiona about on the verge of tears.
"It is because of all of those things that I think that you need Van. He is probably the only one that can help you physically as well as emotionally. Out of all of the people I know, you are the one that I believe deserves the most happiness. All you need to do is stop doubting everything that comes your way. I have to admit that it is becoming very tiresome to see you like that," said Moonbay pleading for her friend's happiness. "You do know that Van doesn't blame you for all that had happened, right?" asked Moonbay placing a comforting hand upon Fiona's shoulder.
"Van just doesn't understand anything that is going on. I love him with all my heart but what good is love if fate doesn't give us even the smallest amount of time to be together and be happy?" said Fiona staring down at the table and finally allowing the tears that she had been building up to fall.
'Van doesn't care about any of that Fiona. He is perfectly happy with any time that he is able to just spend with you. I have seen his face when he is around you. Even in these dark times, he always has a smile on his face when he is with you that he never gives to the rest of us,' Moonbay thought to herself yet was unable to say the words to Fiona. "Fiona, listen, I am begging you to stop all of this and go make up with Van," said Moonbay actually getting down on her hands and knees to show how much she wanted Fiona to do this.
"I just can't do that," said Fiona standing up walking away leaving her still untouched cup of coffee. She didn't get too far before Thomas stepped in her path. "Oh hello Thomas," said Fiona forcing on a small smile despite what she was actually feeling at that moment.
"Hello Fiona. Something came in for you recently and I was told to give it to you as well as a message that if it has anything to do with Zack, that you are to report it in immediately," said Thomas holding out the small letter.
Fiona looked at it for a second with a cautious look before reaching out for it and taking it within her hands. "Thank you Thomas," said Fiona already starting to open it. She pulled the letter out of the envelope and Let out a breath but then a gasp a moment later.
"Is it from Zack?" Moonbay and Thomas said trying to get a good look at the letter but Fiona kept on turning it out of their view so that they wouldn't be able to read it. They saw Fiona shake her head no and they let out a sigh of relief. They heard another large gasp and then Fiona rushed towards the door as fast as she could.
"Hey Fiona, where are you going?" asked Moonbay rushing after Fiona and grabbing her arm. She looked into Fiona face and saw something strange within it. it wasn't anger, it wasn't fear, and it wasn't the type of look that she would only give to Van. It was less than that but more than the first two. Moonbay just really couldn't place what the look that was on Fiona's face was but she planned to get it out of Fiona because if whatever she was up to, Moonbay wasn't planning on letting her do it if it was dangerous because Moonbay still had a mission to get Van and Fiona back together.
"I-I have to go somewhere," said Fiona not feeling like talking about it at that minute. She pulled herself free and started to run towards the hanger but she stopped a few moments later and looked like she was really contemplating saying something but she turned around and spoke. "If Van asks, tell him I had to go somewhere and that I promise that I will be back in a little while," said Fiona with a sad look on her face before she once again turned around and ran off.
'I knew that you still cared greatly for him,' thought Moonbay giving off a smile before she let Fiona go and she turned around to go back to the kitchen to finish the cup of coffee that she started before Fiona had received the letter. She couldn't help but worrying who the letter was from anyways. Moonbay didn't want her friend hurt anymore but she could tell that Fiona wasn't lying when she said that it wasn't from Zack so that was good enough for her because Fiona wasn't known to lie. Ok, maybe except for that one time with Van but that was merely to protect him. This time with Van she had been completely honest with him when she broke up with him but it had been causing them both pain that Moonbay wished she could fix.
"Hello Moonbay," said a tired looking Van when he walked into the room. He appeared to be in the same condition as Fiona in not really being able to concentrate on anything. "Where's Fiona?" asked Van hoping that he could talk to Fiona before she could get away.
"She left not too long ago," said Moonbay but then she saw Van's face and quickly continued. "She told me that she was going to be gone for a little while and that she promised that she would come back," said Moonbay hoping to sooth some of Van's fears for Fiona's safety. Anyone could tell that he wanted her back but that it was Fiona who refused to get back together with him. She looked at Van's face and saw the hurt that was going through him. 'Please go back to him Fiona,' Moonbay thought to herself.
*****
Fiona walked through a small town looking for something that was said within the letter that she had received. Pretty soon she was in front of a restaurant. She carefully opened the door and walked in only to see that the entire place was completely empty except for one woman that was in the corner of the room that she knew was the one that had sent her the letter.
The woman looked up and saw Fiona standing there and signaled her over to the table. She saw Fiona walk over until she was right in front of Fiona. "It has been quite a while Fiona," said the woman as she calmly sipped the tea that she had in front of her.
"Yes, it has mother," said Fiona knowing without a doubt that the woman that was in front of her was the mother that she had left behind when she had been placed into the pod that Van had opened and set her free from. She just stood there before she carefully took a seat in front of the woman.
To be so close yet to not be able to touch or hold was the same problem that Fiona was having. She left because of the constant pain their love for each other had seemed to cause on the both of them. Fiona had no wish for Van to live a life where he could probably never truly be happy. It was much more painful than even she could have expected, but the pain really lied within her. The pain that she had been feeling when it was her that shot Van, and the child that was growing inside of her was a complete mystery because she had no idea who it was that it belonged to. She just didn't want Van to be hurt anymore because of the actions that were taken because of her.
'I would give anything to be able to hold her in my arms once again but she won't even acknowledge my presence anymore. I guess for her, the fastest that she can forget me is the fastest path to getting over it,' Van told himself while he absent-mindedly worked on a few repairs on the blade liger. It was strange thought because Van didn't even feel the slightest bit of anger towards Fiona. 'I guess it is because she was thinking of me when she did that. I don't care about anything that she did it for. All I want is for her to come back to me so we could be happy,' Van told himself as he stopped working and dropped the tool that he had been open. Van knew that he wouldn't be able to work at that moment so he jumped down off the blade liger and started to walk away.
Irvine saw Van walking off and knew exactly what was on his mind. Irvine walked up so that he was standing right next to Van. "So how are you taking everything?" asked Irvine once the two had walked in silence for a few moments.
"Ok, I guess. She won't even look at me anymore though and that makes it even worse," said Van with his head held low. It was actually becoming too painful for him to even think about it lately.
"Understandable, but I don't believe that you are ok. I know that it is a great pain for you at this moment. The one problem with everything that Fiona has been doing in this situation only seems to make things worse for you," said Irvine a little angry at Fiona although she was like a sister to him.
"I have tried to tell her that but she isn't listening to me. She is trying too hard to protect me and that is the greatest pain. The greatest pain is that whenever she does it ends up separating us and all I want is to be around her. To tell the truth, lately it is whenever I am around Fiona that I have ever truly been happy," Van admitted.
Fiona is the one that needs to know that, not me," said Irvine but they suddenly stopped when they saw Thomas standing in the middle of the hall holding a letter but it was like he had no idea what he was doing. "I don't think that bombs can fit in a letter that thin," said Irvine with a little laugh. "Who is the letter for?" he asked snatching the letter from Thomas before he could stop him.
Thomas tried to grab it back but he was unsuccessful. "It is for Fiona so please give it back," said Thomas trying to make another grab for it but Irvine once again moved it and Thomas nearly fell over but he managed to catch himself in time.
"For Fiona? Haven't you gotten over her yet? Besides, you already have a girlfriend and I don't think she would be too happy to know that you were sending Fiona love letters," teased Irvine embarrassing Thomas greatly.
Thomas managed to regain composure and finally snatch the letter back from Irvine. "I will have you know that this isn't from me. I was only asked to deliver it to her," admitted Thomas very annoyed with Irvine at that moment. "Now if you will excuse me, I have to get this to her so I can get back to work," said Thomas trying to get by but Irvine held out an arm and had a concerned look on his face.
"Who is the letter from Thomas? In these times it might be best to watch what you give Fiona because that letter could be from Zack. It doesn't have a name on it except for Fiona's so that is always a possibility," said Irvine not wanting to upset Fiona anymore than she already was.
"We don't know but I have been told to tell Fiona that if it is from him to report to Crougar immediately. They may want to keep her safe but they don't want to invade her private life any," said Thomas scratching the back of his head before he walked off. In a direction that he hoped that Fiona was in.
*****
Fiona just sat in front of a cup of hot salty coffee but it didn't look like she was even trying to drink any of it. Her mind was many places besides where she was at. It was hurting her but she tried to avoid Van as much as possible because she would probably go back on what she said if she were to talk to him.
"I don't see why you continue to put yourself through some of the things that you do. Why is it that you always think of other people happiness before you ever think of your own?" asked Moonbay taking a seat right next to Fiona.
"It is better this way," Fiona said but she knew that she was only lying to herself at that moment. "I am sure that somewhere out there is someone that can make Van happier than I ever could. I wasn't able to remain faithful to him even if I was controlled, and my own daughter is afraid of me as well," said Fiona about on the verge of tears.
"It is because of all of those things that I think that you need Van. He is probably the only one that can help you physically as well as emotionally. Out of all of the people I know, you are the one that I believe deserves the most happiness. All you need to do is stop doubting everything that comes your way. I have to admit that it is becoming very tiresome to see you like that," said Moonbay pleading for her friend's happiness. "You do know that Van doesn't blame you for all that had happened, right?" asked Moonbay placing a comforting hand upon Fiona's shoulder.
"Van just doesn't understand anything that is going on. I love him with all my heart but what good is love if fate doesn't give us even the smallest amount of time to be together and be happy?" said Fiona staring down at the table and finally allowing the tears that she had been building up to fall.
'Van doesn't care about any of that Fiona. He is perfectly happy with any time that he is able to just spend with you. I have seen his face when he is around you. Even in these dark times, he always has a smile on his face when he is with you that he never gives to the rest of us,' Moonbay thought to herself yet was unable to say the words to Fiona. "Fiona, listen, I am begging you to stop all of this and go make up with Van," said Moonbay actually getting down on her hands and knees to show how much she wanted Fiona to do this.
"I just can't do that," said Fiona standing up walking away leaving her still untouched cup of coffee. She didn't get too far before Thomas stepped in her path. "Oh hello Thomas," said Fiona forcing on a small smile despite what she was actually feeling at that moment.
"Hello Fiona. Something came in for you recently and I was told to give it to you as well as a message that if it has anything to do with Zack, that you are to report it in immediately," said Thomas holding out the small letter.
Fiona looked at it for a second with a cautious look before reaching out for it and taking it within her hands. "Thank you Thomas," said Fiona already starting to open it. She pulled the letter out of the envelope and Let out a breath but then a gasp a moment later.
"Is it from Zack?" Moonbay and Thomas said trying to get a good look at the letter but Fiona kept on turning it out of their view so that they wouldn't be able to read it. They saw Fiona shake her head no and they let out a sigh of relief. They heard another large gasp and then Fiona rushed towards the door as fast as she could.
"Hey Fiona, where are you going?" asked Moonbay rushing after Fiona and grabbing her arm. She looked into Fiona face and saw something strange within it. it wasn't anger, it wasn't fear, and it wasn't the type of look that she would only give to Van. It was less than that but more than the first two. Moonbay just really couldn't place what the look that was on Fiona's face was but she planned to get it out of Fiona because if whatever she was up to, Moonbay wasn't planning on letting her do it if it was dangerous because Moonbay still had a mission to get Van and Fiona back together.
"I-I have to go somewhere," said Fiona not feeling like talking about it at that minute. She pulled herself free and started to run towards the hanger but she stopped a few moments later and looked like she was really contemplating saying something but she turned around and spoke. "If Van asks, tell him I had to go somewhere and that I promise that I will be back in a little while," said Fiona with a sad look on her face before she once again turned around and ran off.
'I knew that you still cared greatly for him,' thought Moonbay giving off a smile before she let Fiona go and she turned around to go back to the kitchen to finish the cup of coffee that she started before Fiona had received the letter. She couldn't help but worrying who the letter was from anyways. Moonbay didn't want her friend hurt anymore but she could tell that Fiona wasn't lying when she said that it wasn't from Zack so that was good enough for her because Fiona wasn't known to lie. Ok, maybe except for that one time with Van but that was merely to protect him. This time with Van she had been completely honest with him when she broke up with him but it had been causing them both pain that Moonbay wished she could fix.
"Hello Moonbay," said a tired looking Van when he walked into the room. He appeared to be in the same condition as Fiona in not really being able to concentrate on anything. "Where's Fiona?" asked Van hoping that he could talk to Fiona before she could get away.
"She left not too long ago," said Moonbay but then she saw Van's face and quickly continued. "She told me that she was going to be gone for a little while and that she promised that she would come back," said Moonbay hoping to sooth some of Van's fears for Fiona's safety. Anyone could tell that he wanted her back but that it was Fiona who refused to get back together with him. She looked at Van's face and saw the hurt that was going through him. 'Please go back to him Fiona,' Moonbay thought to herself.
*****
Fiona walked through a small town looking for something that was said within the letter that she had received. Pretty soon she was in front of a restaurant. She carefully opened the door and walked in only to see that the entire place was completely empty except for one woman that was in the corner of the room that she knew was the one that had sent her the letter.
The woman looked up and saw Fiona standing there and signaled her over to the table. She saw Fiona walk over until she was right in front of Fiona. "It has been quite a while Fiona," said the woman as she calmly sipped the tea that she had in front of her.
"Yes, it has mother," said Fiona knowing without a doubt that the woman that was in front of her was the mother that she had left behind when she had been placed into the pod that Van had opened and set her free from. She just stood there before she carefully took a seat in front of the woman.