Chapter 3 : tears and fears
I strolled into a gaudie lit Hotel. It was right next to a Casino. I approached the reception desk. To discover a old woman about 53 manning the desk.
" Checking in are we?" Said a lady who wore fire engin red lipstick and globby purple eyeshadow.
" Yes I made a reservation a few days ago." Which was a lie.
" Name please?" The lady said glaring at the computer screen with her fingers on the home keys.
" Sam Ailpein." I stood there pretending to get impatient. I really wasn't but its always funny to pretend.
" Can you spell your last name for me please."
" A-I-L-P-E-I-N" I gave a loud sigh.
" Im sorry but we don't seem to have a res. . " She was mid sentence and then she finished "Oh look I found your reservation right here. Payment will be accepted when checking out."
How practical that they had a reservation for me. Well its just a little mind game. It wont hurt anyone. " Thank you." I said as she handed me my room card and some information.
" Your welcome , and remember satisfaction is our motto!" She finished so cheerfully I felt like gaging.
Since I already fed I decided just to go check out my room. And how ironic it was the presidential sweet. My luck just gets better and better. I entered the elevator and pressed floor 22. When the elevator stopped I stepped out and turned left. Room number 1809. I swiped my room key and entered. I found the bed and plopped down.
Granted it was only about 3:30 or something along those lines but I was going to be going out during the day so I decided to go to bed early. I changed into pj pants and an oversized shirt and went to bed.
=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
When I woke up sunlight was streaming threw a large bay window at the right side of my bed. It was 1:32 in the afternoon. "Arg I don't really want to do this anymore." I stated aloud. I rolled out of bed and guided myself to the shower. I turned the knob to cold and let the water rush over me. I washed and rinses and got out of the shower. I picked up a fluffy white towel that was on a table in the bathroom. I wrapped it around my self and ventured back into the bedroom area to get dressed.
I shook out my hair and rubbed it with a towel. I put on normal sized black/grey baggy jeans and baggy black Disturbed shirt. I tossed on a plain black hoodie on over it. It was still a little chilly out. I realized I should of woke earlier and fed but its to late now. Mabey go back to New Mayhem and find a Single Earth. I wonder if they have take out. (giggles. . kinda like meal to go like in a cup or something) I can wait 7 or 8 hours.
In the meanwhile I left my room and while walking down the hall shoved a black and grey beanie on my head. "Never leave home without a beanie, "its" best friend." Its sad when I don't even know what to think of myself as anymore. Im a girl and am in no way shape or form attracted to girls. But dress like a man to attract Marry's attention, who just so happens to be gay. So what would that make me.
I continued thinking while I stepped onto the once again empty elevator. Floor 1, I pressed the button and it lit up. I sat in the corner while working out my thoughts. Does that make me transgender. Well no I didn't get any genitalia implanted. It just makes me a girl that dresses like a guy to please her gay lover.
Seriously this is something that would be on Jerry. That's what Fala said before. But she's not one to talk. She is supposedly Moria's "lover" but bangs Christian on the side. Okay mabey it was once or twice but it still counts. I walked off the elevator and out the front door. While walking down the sidewalk I continued my thoughts.
Come to think of it Christian gets a piece of everyone. Marry, Fala and well Raine. But I guess its not that many people anymore. But he did. " What am I doing?" I said aloud. I realized im in Niagra Falls to forget about New Mayhem. But it wasn't working that well and I had a nagging feeling that I would be this way for my whole vacation. Screw this its not a vacation its like torture.
I used my mind to take myself back to my room. After packing the little things that I had unpacked I took myself back to New Mayhem. I threw my stuff down. Marry was sleeping soundly in the bed that we shared.(?????) I changed back into my pajamas. It was 5 in the afternoon. I crawled into bed next to Marry.
He shifted slightly. And his eyes opened a little.
" Back so soon?"
"Yeah I wasn't enjoying myself much." I cuddled up and sighed deeply.
" Good to have you back." Marry mumbled and fell instantly back asleep.
Its times like these I don't mind. Being able to be with Marry and him not get angry. I sat there awake for a few minutes remembering the times we spent together. We used to spend hours a night laying there talking about anything. But then after a while he started slipping more into less desirable patters. Then is when I tried to avoid him.
Marry unconsciously draped one of his arms over me and I smiled to myself and drifted off to sleep for the second time that night.
I awoke the next night to find Marry had already left. It was around 10pm. I slept late. Oh well. I got up and dressed in corduroy bondage cargos with a green Incubus shirt and a beanie to match. Today was another one of those "I feel like shit so why bother" days. I put on my black and red vans as I was leaving.
I walked down the stairs to the café and it was just starting to empty out. People where eating early that night I assumed. It was a light drizzle outside. I started walking not sure of my destination yet. I could go to Las Noches, or mabey Ambrosia. Nikolas is holding one of his bash's tonight but I don't think I would be welcome there. Being one of Marry's. There's just nothing to do when people don't like you. Mabey I should visit Christian.
As I continued walking I fallowed the river away from New Mayhem to Ramsa. Oh well, just keep walking. I approached the local high school of which I ha been to a few months prior. I know I didn't know her that much but I missed Raine. New Mayhem doesn't feel the same without her.
I started feeling slightly dizzy and then got a sudden rush to my head. "Better eat soon." I said aloud while starting down a dark street. There was another lonely person strolling the street and I targeted him for my next meal. The man couldn't of been more than 20 years old. I decided to feed and not kill. I came up from behind him and clamped my hand over his mouth. "This wont hurt and you'll be fine." I bit down and let the blood run into my mouth and down my throat. I fed until satisfied but not enough to kill. As soon as I let go he clamped his hand to his neck. "You'll be okay don't worry."
With that I turned the corner and left. I kept walking till I reached another river. I wasn't even aware there was 2 rivers in Ramsa but I must be incorrect. There was a long boat tied to a dock. I decided to sit at the end of the dock with my feet in the boat. It wasn't till I sat down that I noticed that I wasn't alone. There was a man in the boat already I didn't acknowledge the fact he was there I went about my doings as where. As I sat the dock creaked and the man looked up and I stared into his pale blue eyes. They where hypnotizing. Breaking his gaze I was startled by what I saw. Now noticing he was a boy and in fact not a man and looked incredibly like yours truly.
'Hello." I said absent-mindedly while I continued staring at the boy.
"Hey," He replied glancing down at the water.
I assumed that was the end of our conversation when he looked back up. I crossed my legs at my ankles and let them dangle and swing.
" You look fermiliar do I know you?" He questioned.
" No, don't think so." I started to amuse myself with my pants. They could prove to be quite entertaining when there's awkward silence.
" Have you ever been to Buffalo?"
" Yeah actually I have and Niagra Falls quite a few times." I thought It strange that I was siting at the end of a dock talking to a random person and not feeling insecure. Of which lately I have been feeling a lot of.
" Did you go to any shows there?"
" Yeah. . . come to think of it."
"That probably why you seem fermiliar, you where at the Dashboared show whereat you, the one at Dome with Thrice?"
"Yeah I went with a friend."
"Well, my names Tresch."
"Sam, so Tresch do you live around here?" I said slightly dazing off. While trying to remember if I even remembered the kid from that night.
"Nope I like in Kenmore, I was here for a Regatta today. And im slightly pissed because we came in third again."
"What?" I seriously thought Regatta was a type of cheese.
"Crew, rowing crew. Boat races in water, well yeah obviously its in water but yeah you get the idea." He said than grabbed his chin and the top of his head and turned it violently left then right producing two very loud cracks. "So are you from around here?"
"You could say that." I gave a slight smile. I love being hazy with details when they matter. It annoys the hell out of people.
"Well its 11:17 and curfew is 11:30 for crew members. Mabey I'll catch you again if you ever come to Kenmore again."
"Yeah mabey." With that he got up and jogged of. Got to love the random's. I noticed something on the docks and picked it up. It was a wallet. Oh yay "Tresch" left his wallet. I opened it up to reveal some ids and picturers. Turns out his name was Matthew. Oh well if my name was Matthew Id go by Tresch to.
On the opposing side was a picture of him and a girl. I took the picture out of its sleeve. On the back it said Me and Maddie Formal 04'. How cute. I started walking back to New Mayhem following the other river. I fiddled with the wallet some more than stuck it in my pocket. I guess I would have to visit Kenmore to return it. There was just something about him that caught my eye. He seemed different from all the other people I had ever came across. Come to think of it I do remember seeing him at that concert. He was there with a dark haired chick decked in all black with a tint of vampiric aura around her. And it struck me as odd. But then again not odd enough for me to say something.
I worked my way back into New Mayhem, noticing that the hour was approaching I decided to go to Café Sangria. I walked in and Marry was sitting with Christian and he was holding a black rose. I went to approach them and Marry shook his head so I decided just to get a coffee and drink it in the corner by myself. I sat down with my white chocolate mocha and sipped it in silence.
There was a thick layer of sugar at the bottom of the cup. I sloshed it around and then gulped it down. I decided to read a book. Its something I haven't done in a while. I went upstairs and tossed the wallet on the bedside table and searched for a book that I haven't yet read. Finding my task difficult I decided on a movie instead. I hardly watch them anymore. Well different ones. I tend to stick to Pirates of the Caribbean and Harry Potter. The last movie I saw was with Christian.
We didn't have that wide of a selection of Dvd's. I decided to settle for The Shawshank Redemption. Iv seen it more than 20 times but it's a good movie. I cuddled up with my heart comforter and put the disk in the dvd player. I turned off the few lights that where on. It was 1 o'clock by the time I was settled and started the movie. Toward the end I got a box of Lucky Charms out and started munching. One movie didn't fulfil my night as I had hoped so I decided another one would do well. The next disk I selected was Shakespeare in Love. How fitting a chick that dresses like a guy to get what she utmost desires. I wonder why that seems fermiliar. I wrapped the blanket tighter around me. About 15 minutes into the movie I herd the door open and Marry walked in.
"Hello Samantha, what are you up to?" Marry walked up and leaned on the couch.
"Nothing just watching a movie." I pulled my legs tighter to my body and let my head rest on the side of the couch.
" Oh what one?" Marry questioned looking at the paused screen.
" Shakespeare in Love, it's a good movie." I fumbled for the remote and un paused the movie.
" Never saw it. Well I spilled coffee on my shirt, well it was thrown at me actually but Im going to change and head out again."
With that he walked into the bedroom. I became focused souly on the movie. It was about 6:30ish in the morning when it was over. I washed up a bit and then put some pajama's on and retrieved my blanket and made the bed. I don't know why but before I go to sleep for the night I always make my bed. Is there a point in making your bed than sleeping in it? I don't know but I was tiered from watching the movies so I fell asleep as soon as I hit the pillow.
AN: Okay Just to clarify because I didn't do this yet: I do not own any of the characters as follows, Aubrey, Jessica, Risika, Nikolas and Fala and characters such as those, they are owned by Ms. Amelia Atwater-Rhodes. The characters Raine, Christian, Marry, Havoc, Kevin, and including Sam are Raine's. But I do own Tresch and Maddie. I will sort all that out later.
But In other news I am dead tiered and is 12:16 on June 24. I was at the worst movie today and It sucked. But then while standing in the rain I felt like writing so I came home and did so. And I will probably end up posting some character bios for Maddie and Tresch but I'll have to look more into that. In the mean time review and umm well review? please I'll give you a sticker! lol there fun. but this is me saying peicies strictly recies. -=me=-
I strolled into a gaudie lit Hotel. It was right next to a Casino. I approached the reception desk. To discover a old woman about 53 manning the desk.
" Checking in are we?" Said a lady who wore fire engin red lipstick and globby purple eyeshadow.
" Yes I made a reservation a few days ago." Which was a lie.
" Name please?" The lady said glaring at the computer screen with her fingers on the home keys.
" Sam Ailpein." I stood there pretending to get impatient. I really wasn't but its always funny to pretend.
" Can you spell your last name for me please."
" A-I-L-P-E-I-N" I gave a loud sigh.
" Im sorry but we don't seem to have a res. . " She was mid sentence and then she finished "Oh look I found your reservation right here. Payment will be accepted when checking out."
How practical that they had a reservation for me. Well its just a little mind game. It wont hurt anyone. " Thank you." I said as she handed me my room card and some information.
" Your welcome , and remember satisfaction is our motto!" She finished so cheerfully I felt like gaging.
Since I already fed I decided just to go check out my room. And how ironic it was the presidential sweet. My luck just gets better and better. I entered the elevator and pressed floor 22. When the elevator stopped I stepped out and turned left. Room number 1809. I swiped my room key and entered. I found the bed and plopped down.
Granted it was only about 3:30 or something along those lines but I was going to be going out during the day so I decided to go to bed early. I changed into pj pants and an oversized shirt and went to bed.
=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-
When I woke up sunlight was streaming threw a large bay window at the right side of my bed. It was 1:32 in the afternoon. "Arg I don't really want to do this anymore." I stated aloud. I rolled out of bed and guided myself to the shower. I turned the knob to cold and let the water rush over me. I washed and rinses and got out of the shower. I picked up a fluffy white towel that was on a table in the bathroom. I wrapped it around my self and ventured back into the bedroom area to get dressed.
I shook out my hair and rubbed it with a towel. I put on normal sized black/grey baggy jeans and baggy black Disturbed shirt. I tossed on a plain black hoodie on over it. It was still a little chilly out. I realized I should of woke earlier and fed but its to late now. Mabey go back to New Mayhem and find a Single Earth. I wonder if they have take out. (giggles. . kinda like meal to go like in a cup or something) I can wait 7 or 8 hours.
In the meanwhile I left my room and while walking down the hall shoved a black and grey beanie on my head. "Never leave home without a beanie, "its" best friend." Its sad when I don't even know what to think of myself as anymore. Im a girl and am in no way shape or form attracted to girls. But dress like a man to attract Marry's attention, who just so happens to be gay. So what would that make me.
I continued thinking while I stepped onto the once again empty elevator. Floor 1, I pressed the button and it lit up. I sat in the corner while working out my thoughts. Does that make me transgender. Well no I didn't get any genitalia implanted. It just makes me a girl that dresses like a guy to please her gay lover.
Seriously this is something that would be on Jerry. That's what Fala said before. But she's not one to talk. She is supposedly Moria's "lover" but bangs Christian on the side. Okay mabey it was once or twice but it still counts. I walked off the elevator and out the front door. While walking down the sidewalk I continued my thoughts.
Come to think of it Christian gets a piece of everyone. Marry, Fala and well Raine. But I guess its not that many people anymore. But he did. " What am I doing?" I said aloud. I realized im in Niagra Falls to forget about New Mayhem. But it wasn't working that well and I had a nagging feeling that I would be this way for my whole vacation. Screw this its not a vacation its like torture.
I used my mind to take myself back to my room. After packing the little things that I had unpacked I took myself back to New Mayhem. I threw my stuff down. Marry was sleeping soundly in the bed that we shared.(?????) I changed back into my pajamas. It was 5 in the afternoon. I crawled into bed next to Marry.
He shifted slightly. And his eyes opened a little.
" Back so soon?"
"Yeah I wasn't enjoying myself much." I cuddled up and sighed deeply.
" Good to have you back." Marry mumbled and fell instantly back asleep.
Its times like these I don't mind. Being able to be with Marry and him not get angry. I sat there awake for a few minutes remembering the times we spent together. We used to spend hours a night laying there talking about anything. But then after a while he started slipping more into less desirable patters. Then is when I tried to avoid him.
Marry unconsciously draped one of his arms over me and I smiled to myself and drifted off to sleep for the second time that night.
I awoke the next night to find Marry had already left. It was around 10pm. I slept late. Oh well. I got up and dressed in corduroy bondage cargos with a green Incubus shirt and a beanie to match. Today was another one of those "I feel like shit so why bother" days. I put on my black and red vans as I was leaving.
I walked down the stairs to the café and it was just starting to empty out. People where eating early that night I assumed. It was a light drizzle outside. I started walking not sure of my destination yet. I could go to Las Noches, or mabey Ambrosia. Nikolas is holding one of his bash's tonight but I don't think I would be welcome there. Being one of Marry's. There's just nothing to do when people don't like you. Mabey I should visit Christian.
As I continued walking I fallowed the river away from New Mayhem to Ramsa. Oh well, just keep walking. I approached the local high school of which I ha been to a few months prior. I know I didn't know her that much but I missed Raine. New Mayhem doesn't feel the same without her.
I started feeling slightly dizzy and then got a sudden rush to my head. "Better eat soon." I said aloud while starting down a dark street. There was another lonely person strolling the street and I targeted him for my next meal. The man couldn't of been more than 20 years old. I decided to feed and not kill. I came up from behind him and clamped my hand over his mouth. "This wont hurt and you'll be fine." I bit down and let the blood run into my mouth and down my throat. I fed until satisfied but not enough to kill. As soon as I let go he clamped his hand to his neck. "You'll be okay don't worry."
With that I turned the corner and left. I kept walking till I reached another river. I wasn't even aware there was 2 rivers in Ramsa but I must be incorrect. There was a long boat tied to a dock. I decided to sit at the end of the dock with my feet in the boat. It wasn't till I sat down that I noticed that I wasn't alone. There was a man in the boat already I didn't acknowledge the fact he was there I went about my doings as where. As I sat the dock creaked and the man looked up and I stared into his pale blue eyes. They where hypnotizing. Breaking his gaze I was startled by what I saw. Now noticing he was a boy and in fact not a man and looked incredibly like yours truly.
'Hello." I said absent-mindedly while I continued staring at the boy.
"Hey," He replied glancing down at the water.
I assumed that was the end of our conversation when he looked back up. I crossed my legs at my ankles and let them dangle and swing.
" You look fermiliar do I know you?" He questioned.
" No, don't think so." I started to amuse myself with my pants. They could prove to be quite entertaining when there's awkward silence.
" Have you ever been to Buffalo?"
" Yeah actually I have and Niagra Falls quite a few times." I thought It strange that I was siting at the end of a dock talking to a random person and not feeling insecure. Of which lately I have been feeling a lot of.
" Did you go to any shows there?"
" Yeah. . . come to think of it."
"That probably why you seem fermiliar, you where at the Dashboared show whereat you, the one at Dome with Thrice?"
"Yeah I went with a friend."
"Well, my names Tresch."
"Sam, so Tresch do you live around here?" I said slightly dazing off. While trying to remember if I even remembered the kid from that night.
"Nope I like in Kenmore, I was here for a Regatta today. And im slightly pissed because we came in third again."
"What?" I seriously thought Regatta was a type of cheese.
"Crew, rowing crew. Boat races in water, well yeah obviously its in water but yeah you get the idea." He said than grabbed his chin and the top of his head and turned it violently left then right producing two very loud cracks. "So are you from around here?"
"You could say that." I gave a slight smile. I love being hazy with details when they matter. It annoys the hell out of people.
"Well its 11:17 and curfew is 11:30 for crew members. Mabey I'll catch you again if you ever come to Kenmore again."
"Yeah mabey." With that he got up and jogged of. Got to love the random's. I noticed something on the docks and picked it up. It was a wallet. Oh yay "Tresch" left his wallet. I opened it up to reveal some ids and picturers. Turns out his name was Matthew. Oh well if my name was Matthew Id go by Tresch to.
On the opposing side was a picture of him and a girl. I took the picture out of its sleeve. On the back it said Me and Maddie Formal 04'. How cute. I started walking back to New Mayhem following the other river. I fiddled with the wallet some more than stuck it in my pocket. I guess I would have to visit Kenmore to return it. There was just something about him that caught my eye. He seemed different from all the other people I had ever came across. Come to think of it I do remember seeing him at that concert. He was there with a dark haired chick decked in all black with a tint of vampiric aura around her. And it struck me as odd. But then again not odd enough for me to say something.
I worked my way back into New Mayhem, noticing that the hour was approaching I decided to go to Café Sangria. I walked in and Marry was sitting with Christian and he was holding a black rose. I went to approach them and Marry shook his head so I decided just to get a coffee and drink it in the corner by myself. I sat down with my white chocolate mocha and sipped it in silence.
There was a thick layer of sugar at the bottom of the cup. I sloshed it around and then gulped it down. I decided to read a book. Its something I haven't done in a while. I went upstairs and tossed the wallet on the bedside table and searched for a book that I haven't yet read. Finding my task difficult I decided on a movie instead. I hardly watch them anymore. Well different ones. I tend to stick to Pirates of the Caribbean and Harry Potter. The last movie I saw was with Christian.
We didn't have that wide of a selection of Dvd's. I decided to settle for The Shawshank Redemption. Iv seen it more than 20 times but it's a good movie. I cuddled up with my heart comforter and put the disk in the dvd player. I turned off the few lights that where on. It was 1 o'clock by the time I was settled and started the movie. Toward the end I got a box of Lucky Charms out and started munching. One movie didn't fulfil my night as I had hoped so I decided another one would do well. The next disk I selected was Shakespeare in Love. How fitting a chick that dresses like a guy to get what she utmost desires. I wonder why that seems fermiliar. I wrapped the blanket tighter around me. About 15 minutes into the movie I herd the door open and Marry walked in.
"Hello Samantha, what are you up to?" Marry walked up and leaned on the couch.
"Nothing just watching a movie." I pulled my legs tighter to my body and let my head rest on the side of the couch.
" Oh what one?" Marry questioned looking at the paused screen.
" Shakespeare in Love, it's a good movie." I fumbled for the remote and un paused the movie.
" Never saw it. Well I spilled coffee on my shirt, well it was thrown at me actually but Im going to change and head out again."
With that he walked into the bedroom. I became focused souly on the movie. It was about 6:30ish in the morning when it was over. I washed up a bit and then put some pajama's on and retrieved my blanket and made the bed. I don't know why but before I go to sleep for the night I always make my bed. Is there a point in making your bed than sleeping in it? I don't know but I was tiered from watching the movies so I fell asleep as soon as I hit the pillow.
AN: Okay Just to clarify because I didn't do this yet: I do not own any of the characters as follows, Aubrey, Jessica, Risika, Nikolas and Fala and characters such as those, they are owned by Ms. Amelia Atwater-Rhodes. The characters Raine, Christian, Marry, Havoc, Kevin, and including Sam are Raine's. But I do own Tresch and Maddie. I will sort all that out later.
But In other news I am dead tiered and is 12:16 on June 24. I was at the worst movie today and It sucked. But then while standing in the rain I felt like writing so I came home and did so. And I will probably end up posting some character bios for Maddie and Tresch but I'll have to look more into that. In the mean time review and umm well review? please I'll give you a sticker! lol there fun. but this is me saying peicies strictly recies. -=me=-