Stange Love Chapter 3: Shiver, a degrassi fanfic

Alllllllrighty. Whatever. Fairysk8r is the only one who cares (sinff sinff) soo..here I go

Another goddamn Disclaimer: I don't own Degrassi. Or the song Shiver by Maroon 5.

I do own Mr. Senate though...and he's hot ;)

Back at home, Ashley was pacing furiously through her room. This. Is. Not. Normal. You do not have these kind of feelings for a teacher! It's not right. Nor do you flip out when someone mentions that it's attractive. Wait, he's not an it. He is a person..an attractive person..but..he's not your attractive person.

Ashley sighed and looked at the clock. The green numbers read 1:01. She shook her head at herself and jumped into bed. She couldn't let this situation get the best of her. Sleep was all she needed, she decided, closing her eyes contentedly. After a few minutes of listless rustling, Ashley fell asleep.

She made it through most of the next day without freaking out about Mr. Senate. That is of course, until English.

"So," Mr. Senate said, sitting easily on the desk, his long legs draping over the sides. "Let's not do anything today."

Spinner stood up and cheered.

Mr. Senate smiled. "Maybe I should clarify. We're going to discuss-" He was interrupted by a groan from everyone in the class. "Anything you guys feel passionate about. Let's just chat."

The class murmured to each other semi confused, but mostly excited. The class drifted off into a chat about whatever came to mind, music, movies, anything at all. Ashley didn't feel like contributing, so she just watched. Mostly, she just watched Mr. Senate. There was something so beautiful about how he moved, almost like it was poetry. He was at the minute, joking around with Spinner, laughing as his blue green eyes shone.

"..Yeah well, I'm not sure Spinner, maybe the dating scene isn't for me," She heard him say, chuckling.

Ashley did a double take. This gorgeous, smart, funny man wasn't involved with anyone? What? She decided that this conversation was one she wanted to hear.

"Come on Mr. S, you're like a total studly man right? Give it up" Spinner said, grinning.

You build me up

You knock me down

Provoke a smile,

And make me frown

You are the queen

You run around

You know it's true

"I don't know Spinner, it's just most of the people I meet.. I just don't connect with. Maybe I just haven't found the right person," He admitted, running a hand through his hair. Ashley had a feeling he was going to look up, right at her, but she couldn't stop. It felt like sacrilege to stop.

Just then, He did look up, right into her eyes, blue green vs. hazel.He won though because Ashley looked down blushing.

You chew me up

And spit me out

Enjoy the taste

I leave in your mouth

You look at me

I look at you

Neither of us know what to do

The bell rang then and Ashley hastily grabbed her things and shoved them in her bag, determined not to be the last one out of the room. She wasn't, but the sight she saw in the hallway was enough to make her heart stop. Manny waltzed over to Craig, and he swept her up in his arms and kissed her, right there in front of everyone.

People were pushing behind her and she realized that she was holding everyone up. She stepped back into the classroom, and clapped her hand over her mouth, gasping as the sob wracked her body.

"Alright guys, have a good weekend, don't go too crazy ok?" Mr. Senate called, closing the door as the last of the kids left his classroom. Then he turned around and saw Ashley.

"Ash..Ashley, what's wrong?"

She shook her head and sobbed even more, feeling so pathetic and embarrassed that Mr. Senate had found her like this.

"Do you want me to get Mrs. Soviet?" he asked, reaching out and rubbing her arm gently.

Through the fog in her mind Ashley was able to form one coherent thought.

Oh. My. God. He touched me.

There may not

Be another way to your heart

So I guess I better find a new way in

And I shiver when I hear your name

Think about you but it's not the same

I won't be satisfied till I'm under your skin

"Ok, do you want to sit down?" He questioned, motioning toward the nearest desk.

Ashley responded by sliding down the wall, directly under the window and crying into her knees. Mr. Senate sat right down next to her, and put a strong arm around her shoulders, as she cried inconsolably. He didn't say anything, just let her cry, until she had calmed down some.

"Do you want to talk about it?" He asked softly.

Ashley sniffled and realized how close they were. She could see now that his eyes were not only blue-green but they had flecks of gold in them, and that he smelled amazingly good, like clean man.

"I..uh..broke up my boyfriend of a few months right before Christmas break," she began, hating how superficial the words sounded. "I found out he was cheating on me"

"That's not good,"Mr. Senate said, urging her to continue.

"Um. No. And when I was leaving before.. I saw him...making out with the girl he left me for" She said, shakily, as tears rolled down her cheeks.

Immobilized by the thought of you

Paralyzed by the sight of you

Hypnotized by the words you say

Not true but I believe them anyway

"Shh..You're Ok Ash. It's ok now" He murmured pulling her into his chest and letting her cry as he hugged her.

Ashley was crying on the outside but on the inside she was freaking out. Oh my god. This is so wrong. Teachers and students do not cuddle on the floor together. It's not right. It should not be happening. I should end this.

But she found couldn't lulled in to a state of comfort by the smell of his cologne and the feel of his strong chest. Finally she pulled away.

"I should go now." She whispered, gathering her things.

He watched her carefully, trying to read her body language. "You know, if you ever need to talk, I'm here. Alright?"

She nodded and looked at him, still amazed by how close they were.

So come to bed

Somehow, despite how close they were, he leaned closer.

It's getting late

She found herself doing the same wondering where this was going but somehow knowing all along.

Remember how my body tastes

Ashley felt a powerful jolt as their lips met. She never remembered feeling like this with Craig, or Jimmy, or anyone.

You feel your heart begin to race

He knew how wrong this was, but he didn't care. This girl, this kid really, was so alone and sad. But she was so beautiful, and he found himself compelled to help her. He wanted to discover her, find out all about her, be there for her. But he couldn't say anything, so he just kept kissing her.