Disclaimer: I really, really, really, really, REALLY, REALLY wish I owned Harry Potter. But for now I will just content myself with being able to write in the wonderful world of Harry Potter Fanfiction. Unleash your imagination and free your soul.

A/N: Hi! This is just a little something that would not leave me alone! So I wrote it down and now I'm posting it so you can comment on my writing, that I might become a better writer, able to give you joy as long as you read fanfiction.

I walked along the corridor to the Owlery, running a hand through my jet-black hair.

I sighed and looked at my watch. It was nearing midnight, and past curfew. I didn't care though. I needed to think. Think about my number one trouble. The only trouble I have ever loved. The trouble's name was Lily Evans.

Now, you might think this was just a silly teenage infatuation. That's what Lily thought. Lily didn't know how much I loved her. But the truth was I had loved her since the moment I saw her, but I didn't know it.

I realized my 'infatuation' for her in the middle of fifth year. I took it upon myself to get her to go out with me. Of course, knowing me, I took it about completely the wrong way.

I'm not a perfect person

As many things I wish I didn't do

But I continue learning

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I pestered her until she screamed, hexed, or just slapped me to go on a date with me. I was an idiot, and I think I still am. I bothered her all through the rest of fifth year, and sixth year.

At the very end of sixth year, the night before we would leave, I finally bugged her so much she broke into tears. Normally, no one would dare suggest or even think that Lily Evans would burst into tears. But I did it. She sobbed and begged for me to just leave her alone.

We avoided each other until we got to Kings Cross the next day. I spent all summer brooding about her. I hurt her. I resolved to change; I didn't want to torment her anymore.

So this year, I became determined to not ask her out one single time. I would try to act like a normal human, not like the 'insufferable git' she had always pictured me as.

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you

It's something I must live with everyday

And all the pain I put you through

I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears

That's why I need you to hear

It's the beginning of November of our seventh year now, and she's only barely beginning to consider that this change might be for real. But I love her; she just can't see that.

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

She can't see the anguish she puts me through every time she looks away from me, every time I hear her talk and know she might not ever talk to me, every time I hear her laugh and know she would never laugh with me.

And the reason is you

But I still love her. I love the way she looks, even when she has just gotten up and feels horrible.

And the reason is you

I love the way she laughs, as though she hasn't a care in the world.

And the reason is you

I love her for being her. For being kind to everyone. For giving second chances. Hell, she has given me a second chance, and a third, and a fourth, until she was so fed up she couldn't stand being around me anymore.

I'm not a perfect person

I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go

That I just want you to know

I wish she would even talk to me. Have a civil conversation. Maybe even smile at me for just one time.

I've found a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

And the reason is you

I want her so badly. Just to talk to. To laugh with. To walk around the lake with. To go to Hogsmeade with. To even do bloody homework with!

But she doesn't see how badly I need her. I don't know if she ever will.

I've found a reason to show

A side of me you didn't know

A reason for all that I do

And the reason is you

A/N: Okay, well, that's it. I know it's pretty short, but I couldn't make a songfic a songfic with way too much words and not enough song. I've gotten ideas for a second chapter in Lily's PoV with her own special song and a third chapter where they hook up. But let me know if I should keep this as a one-shot or continue. I really really really would love reviews. They brighten my day… or really like week. So have a heart and review!

Also, if you like my writing, please please please check out my other L/J story, Rantings and Ravings. It's Lily's first person, and I'm trying to get it started good and make it really nice and humorous and everything. But it desperately needs ideas and criticism. Thanks!

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