Disclaimer: I still don't own Harry Potter, and never will. Maybe one day I will own my own fiction world, and everyone will love me and idolize me as they do to J. K. Rowling. Maybe.
A/N: ok well I dunt know how good this chp but read and review it newayz!!
I sat down in my favorite squashy armchair by the fireplace, which was in the Gryffindor Common Room.
Most of the time I spent at Hogwarts was here, when I wasn't doing homework or in class, or spending time with my best friend, Melanie Hughes.
It was kind of in the corner of the Common Room, in the shadows, where you had to look twice to see someone sitting in it. But it was near enough to the fire where you could hear it crackle and smell the burning wood.
A few minutes ago, James Potter had walked in the Common Room, looking very preoccupied about something. He didn't notice me sitting in my chair, quietly observe him run his hands through his hair, a habit of his which used to annoy me to no end, but now I found rather attractive.
I settled back into the comfortable chair, getting ready to have a good think about an issue that had been on my mind. I had waited all day, through all my classes, meals, and homework, to get to this chair, to sit alone in the quiet Common Room and think.
James Potter. I don't know what to think about him anymore. He used to bother me endlessly, asking me to go out with him. It infuriated me. He thought I was the one girl at Hogwarts that wouldn't bow down to him, so he wanted me, of course.
But now… this year he doesn't seem like that. Now that he's different, and I would so accept an invitation to Hogsmeade with him, he's not asking me out.
Restless tonight
Cause I wasted the light
Between both these times
I drew a really thin line
It's nothing I planned
And not that I can
But you should be mine
Across that lineI wish he would've changed sooner. Then I could have gone out with him, possibly turn into his girlfriend, and we would be the perfect couple. Right. Like something that wonderful would ever happen to me.
I would do anything to get him to ask me out again. To constantly ask me out, begging me with that adorable grin of his, and his wonderfully messed up hair.
But the truth is, I like him, maybe even love him. It's like I can't wait to see him in the mornings, and all I ever think and dream about is him. It's scary how much my feelings for him have changed in the past three months or so.
But I don't know if he likes me anymore. Maybe, after all the times I've yelled at him, he now despises me.
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something
Perhaps he's given up on me. After two years… maybe it was just a game for him. To occupy his time. But I'll never know until I ask him.
I promise I might
Not walk on by
Maybe next timeBut not this time
But do I really want to know? I would die if he didn't like me anymore! If he didn't care about me ever again.
Even though I know
I don't want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds
I would just forever be 'the girl James Potter used to like,' watching him be happy with some other girl. Damn, he's just consuming all of my thoughts these days.
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something
I like him, I think. Maybe it's just a crush, but I doubt it. It's unreal. Like I'm obsessed with him or something, now. It might be that, now that he doesn't like me, I want him. People always want what they can't get.
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something
Okay. So I like him, maybe something more. I've established that fact. Now what? Do I run after him and beg his forgiveness, after turning him down over and over again?
If I traded it allIf I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thingWouldn't that be something
I want to know what he's thinking. Does he still like me? Or even care? Would he even be my friend, if worse comes to worse?
Even though I know
I don't want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it soundsLove is evil. Love is evil. Love is evil. It corrupts the mind, until all you can think about is that one person.
Even though I know
I don't want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds
The way he looks so good in his quidditch robes. How he is so charming and nice, with his grin that could win anyone over. I thought it would never win me over, but look how I am now.
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something
I bet he is silently laughing at me, every time he sees me. He knows that I want him.
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something
But no, he isn't that kind of guy. He's wonderful, amazing, smart, kind, good-looking… Too bad I couldn't figure all that out a few months ago, when he still wanted me.
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out
If I knew all about this one thing
Wouldn't that be something
Now, if he asked me to Hogsmeade, or even talked to me, I would jump at the chance, just to be around him.
What will I do? I suppose it will work out in the end. For better or for worse. I'll just have to wait until then.
If I traded it all
If I gave it all away for one thing
Just for one thing
If I sorted it out…
A/N: well I hope y'all like that! Im about halfway dun with chapter three, and hope to have it finished and posted by Friday or so. Any ideas tell me. Heres tha responses!
Response to Reviewers:
Hpandfriendsruletheworld: hi hi! Glad you liked it and hope u like lily's chapter.
banana-princess93: huh? I was talkin about ocean avenue for remmie. This song wouldn't really go with him.. yah benny rules! And I want u to look over next chappie too.
chenelle: lol thanks. I wish u hadnt removed mischief managed.. but that means more chapters for always remember rite??? Lol update!
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