Carly-chan: Ok guys…. Again I must apologize for my utter lack of updating…I know I suck…Um… I did plan on working on this way back in November on my Thanksgiving Break but I guess a lot was going on. Um.. Now I am going to finally force myself to write the rest of this…. Yes I am in fact…still alive. I was sick and out of school 2 days this week where I had planned to write but I just wasn't feeling up to it, my mind was too clouded by the sickness to write so I edited a few of my really old stories. I'm trying to get this done before I go out to Ohayocon next weekend (on the 14th-16th ), which is a big anime convention in Ohio, where I live, I'm really revved up about it anyway on to reviews!..
XxXOrangyPeachXxX: um…first off…did you change your name or am I really really losing it? …you used to be XAIH right? Um anyway… lol thank you for your complements and saying that my characters seem real … to me they are next store since inside of my mind we all live together in a house in there so they are like just in the other rooms smiles
X3-kYoko: thanks your complements are very inspiring to get me to actually work on this…uh…ok I am now doubtful that this was soon enough? doesn't know how much time passed between now and the last update
SGCred: I'm so happy you can review again! Oh you don't know how much your comment means to me… I've always wanted to write some sort of story where someone told me it was moving and emotionally charged! is happy Yay! Thank you so much for being here to support me all this time…I will be there to support you forever! Lol I hope you like this next chapter that much too. smiles (hmmm…and to think when I first started writing this fic I really hated it…)
Sweet-evil-girl: aww I'm so sorry it's so sad but…I guess I just can't help but write it that way. Don't worry I will finish… I promise you that.
Minday: sorry it's sad…. It just happened that way… you'll be surprised at the end though…well unless you think the way that I think… then you won't but anyway… Yay! I'm updating!
Kissed By A Prince: I'm really glad that you like it smiles Um… I will hopefully have this chapter out before the 14th yes yes
Disclaimer: Um…I'm tired today again but I'll come up with something to put here…it won't be as fun though……
Me: Um… Welcome to All to Make You Smile chapter 5 …wow 5 already?
Catsuu: Please excuse my dear friend Carly …. She suffers from slight memory loss and has lost track of time because of it… she just can't believe that so much time has gone by for her to have already written 5 chapters.
Me: Ahhh! Uh…Catsuu dear … would you mind not telling my readers about my strange problem… I'm not really sure if I want people to know about that.
Catsuu: Oh OK Carly-chan … I wouldn't mind at all.
Me: Uh…that's not what I meant…anyway…back to the real reason we are here.. The disclaimer! Um.. I don't own shaman king… obviously …if I did I don't think I would be writing fan fiction eh heh um yeah now onto the story…um…I do promise/ hope that this chapter will be rather interesting but judging by the fact that right now I have yet to write it I don't know… well I should start writing it now then…onto it then! smiles
I walked over to a nearby tree and started to climb up it, once I got far enough up that I could see all around me and to the city I started to try to figure out where I was by using places in the city as reference points, I used my apartment building, the cemetery and the large clock; it read 2:45. "Beautiful." I muttered as I saw the rest of the forest and a river just outside of the city with a small wooden bridge arched over it. There was no pathway from the city that led to the river, although this made it harder for me to get back to my home, it made it easier on me in the sense that normal people would be less likely to find my secret paradise, I can only imagine the trouble it would cause if a human or maybe a lowly psychic stumbled upon my hidden paradise. But of course I would be gone by then so it would be trouble I would have left behind for Ren and my family and I just wouldn't have that.
Slowly and steadily I climbed down from the tree, I wasn't in the mood to run back to the city anymore, I simply walked enjoying the untarnished nature as I went. Soon enough I had reached the river, I started to walk over the little wooden bridge but stopped suddenly at the middle of it, I turned and stared into the water for what seemed to be quite a long time, it most likely wasn't however, things so beautiful as the clear shimmering waters of the river just captivated me. Soon I was able to gather my thoughts together in a logical way and continue on back to the city.
As I continued to walk slowly home I stopped as I passed the cemetery, for quite a time I just stood and stared at it lost deep within my thoughts without a clue of what was actually going on around me. All of the thoughts bombarded me and may have made my head start to throb, but really I couldn't know, I was 'too far gone' in my own thoughts. 'This is where I will die tonight.' 'Such a gloomy place, it seems to fit me.' 'It's calling out to me, it knows I'm the girl who will die there tonight.' 'I will say goodbye to Ren and then I will rush headlong and soon it will all be over.' 'Was my life worth living?' 'Why couldn't I have made this great change sooner?'
All of these thoughts bouncing around inside of my mind, I just couldn't take it anymore. 'Stop!" I clasped my hands over the sides of my head, I saw birds flying out of a nearby tree, I must've screamed so loud as to have startled them. 'Stop… I just want it to stop… please…' I mumbled to myself. Since the cemetery had caused all of those thoughts to come into my head just moments ago I had decided to run quickly away from that place. I ran past the big clock, not even stopping to check the time. I nearly ran past my apartment building as well but quickly skidded to a stop.
I ran up the stairs and into my apartment slamming the door behind me and leaning back on it out of breath. I suppose by my actions it had seemed as if someone had been chasing me. "Who is after you dear?" I heard Heala say to me from her seat on the couch.
"No one but my own cruel thoughts." I said in a soothed voice. "What time is it?" I blurted out.
"Hmm…." Heala gazed over at the clock for a moment "It is 4:30"
"4:30? Already that late? I wanted to do some shopping… I'd better hurry to it then." I exclaimed about to head back out the door.
"Shopping? But…what will you shop for? What good is it all now?" Heala questioned, surely she couldn't find the point in me shopping on the last day of my life.
"You'll see later… just meet me at the cemetery at 6:20" That gave me and Ren twenty minutes alone together. Twenty minutes alone with Ren… I wonder what we will do. No… I must focus on the matter at hand.
I shopped until six o' clock and then as I carried my bag of things with me I went to the cemetery to meet Ren. I had gotten there just as the church bells rang, a sign that six o' clock had arrived at last. As I listened to the bells they seemed gloomy, those church bell were my requiem, my music to honor my death. As I came out of the slight trance the bells had put me in I looked up and saw that Ren was already standing there waiting for me, he was punctual as always.
I set my bag down and ran over and hugged him. He would probably be the thing I would miss most from this world once I was gone.
"Hello Ren!" I smiled, a smile so pure it was like the whitest of snow.
"How can you be so cheerful when the moment of your death is nearly upon you?" Ren questioned, I sensed curiosity in his voice.
"Well…" I trailed off, I wasn't in deep thought or unsure of what to say I was simply waiting for the right moment. Ren had looked away, growing impatient of waiting for me to speak. I seized that moment to reach into my bag for something. The look of pure shocking terror on Ren's face as he turned around forced me to let out a giggle.
What he had turned around to see was a porcelain mask covering my face that was held up by my hand. The mask's eye holes were curved upwards as to show happiness in them, there was red around the eyes and symbols on each cheek, one meaning 'happiness' and the other 'forever'… 'happiness forever'. There was a large smile painted onto the mask, beautiful ruby red lips forming a beautiful ruby red smile. I lowered the mask slowly to reveal my own painted ruby red lips in a large smile.
"What…is that?" Ren questioned just recovering from the shock.
"It's a symbol that I no longer have to hide behind a mask of happiness, I have found my own happiness finally… 'forever happiness'. I will be happy forever now." I smiled as I tossed the mask to a far end of the cemetery, I smiled at it as it collided with the ground and shattered into many delicate pieces. I muttered the words 'I am free' at the moment I saw it hit the ground.
"What else is in that bag of yours?" Ren questioned me sternly.
"Just some things I needed." I said with a smile guessing what his reaction would be.
"Need? You don't need anything or have you forgotten what is going to happen tonight?" I was right, the same as Heala's reaction…except that Heala was a lot kinder about it.
"Yes yes." I replied simply nodding my head then suddenly blurted out, "Never mind that! I have something for you"
"You… have something for me?" Ren said more to himself than he was actually asking me.
"Yes in fact I do…" I pulled out of the bag the large golden key to my paradise along with a note of directions on how to get there, I held the things out to him cupped in the palms of my hands.
"What is this?" he questioned, he still sounded so angry, had all of my attempts so far to make him happy been in vain. No, my paradise was sure to make him happy and I would make sure that my soul would meet him there and the two of us could be in happiness forever there.
"It is the key to paradise Ren… and directions of how to get there." I smiled knowing he would question further about this paradise of mine.
"Key to paradise?… Paradise? What paradise?" Yet again I was right in judging his reaction.
"The paradise that I created for you and all of the other shamans. I wanted to leave something great to make sure that my life wouldn't have been in vain so I used the magic that a sorceress I had met a while ago taught me and created it. It's a place for shamans like you and me to go to get away from this doomed modern world, only shamans can get into it. There are four other keys hidden all around the world for shamans to find so that you wont be lonely. I'll try to meet you there and then I can live there in paradise too." I smiled as I walked a few paces forward, took his hands, closed the items in them and then kissed him with as much passion as my body was capable of conjuring up. Our last kiss… our goodbye kiss, filled with sweet sorrow and regret yet the best thing that had ever touched those lips of mine.
"Excuse me guys." I heard that familiar voice ring out behind me.
"Heala?" I questioned breaking our kiss and turning to face her "Wow… are you early or did time just go that quickly?"
"No…I've got good timing like always, it's 6:20 now." She said calmly.
"Oh…so we only have ten minutes left then…." I muttered drifting off towards the end.
"I'll miss you guys… a lot…" My eyes glazed over with sadness as I stood, my head turned to the ground.
"Oh darling don't worry, we'll still see you… you aren't disappearing forever you know." Heala reassured me, her voice had always been so kind and soothing.
"Yeah. Don't worry about it Mei." Ren said a little less coldly than usual.
"Oh… thank you…" The glaze of sadness in my eyes was replaced by flowing tears, I had walked forward so that they wouldn't see the sadness, my back was turned to them. I turned suddenly and ran the few paces to them and hugged them both at once. "I'll really really miss you guys, I will. I'll miss being here in this world with you… Ren …I will forever miss the feel of your touch." I sobbed, I would have gone on but there was an interruption.
"Oh how touching… so sad to see a girl trying to deal with parting from the world of her lover and her ghost." I heard from somewhere behind me, the voice that spoke was cool and smooth yet to me it seemed just a little bit edgy.
"Sayo! I hissed as I whipped around to face him.