The Diary, Decision and Nightmares

Nakada had gone to her room to ponder a bit. She went to her window, by her computer, that showed what it looked like out side. She smiled as she saw Caralama swimming toward the door of the home with Hiei holding on tight to her arm. I know Hiei will make Caralama really happy they are so perfect for each other. Only three more years until Caralama is eighteen and I can finely let down my guard and not be scared of loving someone with out hurting and killing someone else for my own happiness. A small tear fell from her eyes as she went to her bed and laid down on it. If only I could fall asleep and wake up when Caralama is eighteen. But I still have so much to do. The other Signs sense my distress and it has raised ever sense Yoko came here. I know he is falling for me and I have to stay away from him. Why did I have to ask him to help me clean up and rearrange the infirmary? He has helped me to smile a bit and so far only the little ones and my cousin are the only ones to have been able to do that. Another tear fell from her eyes as she went over to her bookshelf and took a book from the top shelf. she opened it up and started to read an entry she had made in it the day she gave away her love.

Dear Diary

I have done the unthinkable; I went to Deaths' today to save the child that April would have two years from now. But I had to give away something in return until the child reaches the age were it can only die from it's heart crystal breaking. Until the child is eighteen I can't fall in love with any kind of man outside of our family. I also have found out another thing when I was at Deaths'. April's child is supposed to be mine. Even if it weren't going to be mine I still would have done the same thing any way. I going there and not knowing that child is mine should prove it. I just don't know who the father is. I pray that the books can tell me who it is even though I still won't be able to fall in love with that person. I can also tell the others about what I have done but I don't want them to worry.

I only pray that I cannot fall in love with anyone outside of the family until then.

Nakada stopped reading and then turned the pages to the day that Caralama was born and read it.

Dear Diary

The child has been born today and it is a girl. She looks almost exactly like me. I hope no one will notice. She has long hair and it is the same colour as April's. April decided to name her Caralama. I love that name actually I had suggested it to her while she was still pregnant so we both named her. She has pointy ears so that might give me a clue on who her father is but that is the only thing that gives me a clue.

Caralama looked so beautiful when April held her in her arms. She looked so happy that I am happy that I didn't tell her anything about what I have found out. So far I have been keeping my self in check about falling in love but I have to be extra careful now that Caralama is born.

Nakada smiled a bit and let one tear fall from her eyes. She then turned the pages to the day that Caralama was taken away from them by Hiei and Yoko.

Dear Diary

Caralama was stolen from us while she had gone to visit Zell her uncle. The thieves have also stolen many dangerous charms and artifacts as well. Some of them are not even from this world so they won't know what to do with them. I am just glad that Caralama has her pendant on so they can't kill her.

But I am still worried about her. She could go through one of her anger bursts and hurt her self. She can't kill anyone so if she does have one of her out bursts she will severely hurt anyone who is near her. I just hope the ones she hurts are the ones who thought of taking her in the first place. Caralama also has her mind blocked out to us so we can't track her. I just hope that Caralama can survive her nightmares until we find her.

Nakada let a few more tears fall when she read that entry. She didn't want anyone to get hurt now and she was sorry for thinking that. She turned the pages to when they had finally found Caralama.

Dear Diary

We found Caralama today in a forest about a hundred miles away from her uncle's house. She was so worried about two of the demons that had kidnapped her. She said their names are Yoko and Hiei. I have also been in her mind as well and I don't know how to tell April that she has fallen in love with this Hiei demon. I will also have to tell her that he doesn't have a heart as well. I don't know how to tell her this and not have her freak out at the same time, which will be impossible. But she loves him and he loves her despite this I only hope she will calm when I tell her that. But if she doesn't she might decide to place justice on them and once a Sign declares justice for a reason there is only way way to stop it and that is for her to change her mind.

Nakada turned the page to when Yoko had taken Caralama back to the hide out.

Dear Diary

Caralama has been taken away again and this time right from under our noses. I don't have enough time to right this but April got mad at me because she said I could have stopped the demon that has Caralama. He looked like the one who I saw in Caralama's mind, Yoko I think his name was. He looked like a silver fox demon. I'll tell you the truth Dairy I could have stopped him but I did not. I even saw him through the window when he had first appeared. But I also saw the way Caralama looked at him and hugged him. He hugged her back and was so gentle with her as he helped her sit up. She looked so happy as well I tried so hard to suppress my smile. Caralama hasn't looked so well these past two weeks but now with him there she looked somewhat better. She had told him something and I turned my head in time before Yoko saw me looking. He said some thing to Caralama and she looked like she was going to cry, She said something as well they had a short conversation and at the end Yoko took out a magic charm. I was so surprised, that was how he had gotten in here with out tripping any of the alarms. That charm was made in another world so how did he know how to use it? April then saw me looking and then she saw Caralama and Yoko together with the charm in her hands. She ran to the door to stop them but by the time she was out they had already left. She hates me because she knows I knew what was happening and the worst part is she has declared the Sign justice along with her brother and sister. Oh I have to go, I only hope they will change their minds before they do something they will regret.

Nakada couldn't read anymore she was crying on her bed with her diary in her arms. She knew there was something about Yoko that she just couldn't put her finger on then she found out what it was. She was getting to close to him and she had to stop being with him now before something happened that she could not control. She immediately went down to the infirmary and cast a spell on all the things in the room so that the beds were made the office was in order and the files were in the proper place. Then she cast another spell and all the new things that were supposed to be in the infirmary were put in there and in proper order. Nakada hated using magic to do things when she was perfectly capable of doing it on her own but this was an emergency. When she was done she looked around and a tear fell from her eyes. She ran with all the speed she had and went the door that led to outside. To any kind of eye they would just see air as she was at the door in a nanosecond. She looked around and cast another spell and a letter appeared with all the information that was needed on it of what she was doing and that she wouldn't be back for along time.

Nakada opened the door and when the small room was filled with water she turned herself into a mermaid and began to swim to Deaths'.

With Yoko

Yoko was asleep in his bed having a nightmare. He dreamt that he and Caralama were still prisoners of the Dark Signs and he was going through the torture with Seifer again.

Dream Seifer still had his hand in Yoko's chest and a strap was wrapped around his chest just above Seifer's hand to give him a better access to his chest. Seifer was still slowly making his hand solid and smiling at the pain he was putting Yoko through. But he wasn't satisfied yet becasue he wouldn't make a single sound of pain. All he did was grimace with the pain and then Seifer made his hand translucent. The pain in Yoko's chest eased and he gave a gasp and leaned his head looked at Seifer again with anger in his eyes trying to figure out what Seifer had meant by 'he knew exactly what to do now.' Then he noticed something he hadn't before. Seifer's hand was in his chest yes but his hand was holding his heart. Yoko was worried now, Seifer was holding the very thing that was keeping him alive. If he died he wouldn't be able to protect Caralama at all.

"Don't worry," Seifer said as he squeezed his heart enough to hurt him but not enough to kill him and Yoko gave a small gasp of pain, closed his eyes tightly and clenched his teeth, "I wont kill you I want you to see Caralama die first."

Yoko looked up at Seifer, "You wouldn't dare," he looked at Seifer in the eye with anger, "After what I've heard about you, that would be to low even for you," Yoko wanted to strangle Seifer with his vines but he knew that his vines would never hurt him and Seifer might squeeze his heart again.

"Yes it is quite low but you underestimate what the Dark Signs will do to get a good laugh and this kind of entertain meant will be most enjoyable, hahahaha. Now I will give you many scenes of her dieing the question is which one is real?" Seifer gave a little laugh at Yoko's useless growls that showed his fangs and his glares of hatred at him. Seifer gave an evil laugh and then Yoko felt something enter his heart and he blanked out.

End Dream

Yoko woke up drenched in cold sweat, eyes wide and breathing rather quickly and hard. He was in a sitting position in his bed and he looked around his surroundings and realized he was in his room. He took a deep breath and went to the bathroom. He turned on the water and filled the sink up with cold water. When it was filled he turned off the water and began to splash water onto his face. When he was down he took a towel and began to dry his face. After had unplugged the sink he looked into the mirror.

He saw himself in the mirror and saw that he was so white. Yoko didn't usually have that much colour anyway but he usually had a tint of colour on his cheeks and even that wasn't there. He closed his eyes and lowered his head and with both of his hands gripping the sink as he leaned on it. That's the third time that happened. Why won't it stop bothering me? Caralama's alive, we're all here safe and protected so why do I keep on having that dream? Yoko looked at himself in the mirror and saw that some colour was appearing back on his face. Then he saw Seifer's face and he instantly got angry, Dame you Seifer! Why do you still torment me? I was never one of your allies so how can I be a traitor when I was never really with you? Yoko gripped the sink and then let go. He went to his window and looked out side of it at the vast blue sea. There was a window seat on the ledge to sit on and he gently sat on it, brought his legs up to his chest, wrapped his arms around them, leaned against the edge of the window sill and looked outside. A few fish swam by the window and he saw some coral refs a little further down from the had always wondered what was at the bottom of the sea he even thought of some things trying to give the sea a good name because he thought it was ugly and dark. But when he looked at it now he found that he was completely wrong. Squall had said that all the fish and plants in the sea were from different worlds. Yoko looked at some more fish swim by and longed to be out there with them, swimming with out a care in the world. To be put there and have gills on his neck so he could live underwater in this beautiful place. Yoko thought of Nakada when she had turned into a mermaid and had gills on her neck. She is luckier than she thinks. He thought to himself, She could easily live in the ocean and not have a care in the world. But she has responsibilities I guess and she isn't all too lucky. Having to have to give up her love so that Caralama could live until she didn't need anymore help. Caralama will be eighteen in three years I hope Nakada can survive until then with out having to fall in love.

Yoko gave a little sigh and held his hand on his chest right over his heart and started to press his han d to it. His heart still hurt like Seifer still had a hold on it and it would still hurt for a while after he had woken up. He looked over to his bed, he knew what dream would come up next it was always the same.

After the dream of Seifer torturing him he would dream that everyone would be against for being a thief. Even Nakada and Caralama would go against him and after everyone was done with their say of how disgusted they were of him Zell would take hold of his robe and throw him into a corner. Yoko wouldn't say anything against what he was being accused of because he knew they were true. Then it would get quiet and he would look up and there would be twenty-three daggers pointing towards him. Eighteen of the daggers were for each Sign. The last five were for Nakada's younger brothers and sisters and Caralama. The daggers would just float in the air and Kurama would just sit there with his back against the wall, his knees to his chest, his hands on the floor trying to press him even further to the wall and his eyes filled with terror.

Then his chest would start to hurt and he would press both hands to it and he would cry out in pain and his eyes would be tightly shut. Then his heart would burst out of his chest for all to see. When Yoko saw it he was more terrified then before. His heart was entirely black and the beating sound it made was so horrible to listen to. The Signs covered their ears but the daggers were still floating in the air. Then Yoko would here whispers coming form the ugly heart telling him lies. After the longest of seconds the Signs waved their hands and the daggers would go straight for the pulsating heart and destroy it. That was when he would usually wake up. Yoko was still pressing his hand to his chest while he was remembering the dream and looked at his bed. He stopped rubbing his chest and went out for a walk in the halls, he didn't want to face that dream right now.

He was so caught up in his thoughts he bumped into Squall as he turned around the corner of the hallway. Yoko looked at Squall with a worried look on his face, "Are you okay? I didn't mean to bump into you."

Squall gave a friendly smile to Yoko and said, "It's okay no harm done," then his face instantly had a worried look, "By the way you wouldn't happen to know where Nakada is would you?"

He looked at Squall with a worried look on his face, "No why?"

"I just checked her room and she wasn't there. I also talked to the other Signs and any other creature we can understand and they said that they haven't seen her either," Squall saw the scared look on Yoko's face, "Yoko are you okay?"

"Did you happen to see Caralama?" he asked his voice shaky.

"Yes, she and Hiei are out searching as well. Is there something wrong Yoko?" Squall saw a small amount of relief in his eyes but that disappeared and he began to run to the infirmary, "Yoko what's wrong? Do you know where Nakada is?" Squall ran after him.

When Yoko opened the door to the infirmary he just stood there without saying a word. Squall walked up to him and looked into the Infirmary. It was all done and clean nothing seemed to be out of place. Squall looked at Yoko and saw that he was nowhere near happy with what he was seeing he looked more terrified if anything.

"Yoko what are you looking for? The Infirmary is all clean and nothing is out of place. Is there something wrong?"

Yoko looked at Squall and nodded, "Nakada and I were no where near finished of this place. She did it all by herself," Squall looked like he had been slapped, "I think Squall, Nakada went to Deaths'."

"But why would she do that?" Squall was worried now, what did Yoko know that he didn't?

"I'm not sure I can tell you. Is there a way in this world that can go to Deaths'?" he asked hurriedly. Squall nodded and pointed down the hallway. But before Yoko could make a move Squall took his hand and used his speed to get to the door that led the way out.

When Squall and Yoko were at the door that led to outside they fond it was locked from the outside. Yoko was more worried then ever now. Oh no she must have gone to Deaths'! Yoko began to look around the room as Squall started to unlock the door with his pendant.

He hadn't looked far until he had found the letter that Nakada had written and was placed inside a sky blue envelope. He was scared to read it because he thought he might know what it said. Finally he opened the envelope and started to read what was in it.

I hope you all understand what I am doing. I have to go to Deaths' because if I don't someone is going to die. You can read my Diary if you have any questions you might have. On the last entry there are two letters, one for Yoko and one for all of you. Please don't follow me I will be gone for three years so please don't worry. Before anyone reads my Diary I want Yoko to read it first it is book marked in two places on where you should start reading it.

I have put a special spell on the Dairy to make sure Yoko will be the first one to read it and finish it. That's all I have to say good-bye.

Nakada

Yoko couldn't believe what he was reading. He turned and looked at Squall who was almost done unlocking the door. He looked back at the letter and started to walk towards Squall.

Squall was done unlocking the door when Yoko was beside him. He gave the letter to Squall without saying a word. He went to the bench and sat down on it with his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands.

Squall looked at him worried that what was in the letter wasn't good at all. Then he began to read the letter Nakada had written. When he was done he had to sit down to. He looked at Yoko and saw that the demon fox had his ears flattened against his head and he was mumbling something. "Yoko how did you know that Nakada was going to Deaths'?" he didn't answer he just kept mumbling something to himself.

Squall sighed and turned the volume of his hearing up so he could hear what Yoko was saying, "It's all my fault. She never would have left if I weren't here. Why? Why did I have to be here?"

Squall gently took Yoko by the shoulders and made him look at him straight in the eye and said gently, "Yoko how is this your fault? How can it be your fault?" Squall looked into Yoko's eyes and there was a far away look in them. Squall tried to go into his mind but it was filled with so much pain and confusion.

Squall put a finger on Yoko's temple and said, "Sleep," he instantly fell asleep and leaned towards Squall just as the rest of the Signs, Caralama and Hiei had come in. Caralama saw Yoko and walked up to him and Squall.

"Is he alright Squall?" Caralama asked in a worried voice.

"I don't know Caralama. Would you know what he meant about it being his fault that Nakada going to Deaths'?"

The whole room was silent not believing what Squall was saying. Caralama looked like she was about to collapse onto the floor. Hiei was instantly at her side to catch her, "It isn't his fault that Nakada is going to Deaths'," Caralama said in a deathly calm voice, "It's because of me she is going to Death," everyone was quiet as they looked at Caralama not believing what she was saying.

Before anyone could ask anymore questions Caralama was out of the room running as fast as she could. Hiei watched her go and knew that she wanted to be alone right now. He walked over to Squall who was still holding Yoko and picked Yoko up, "I'll take him to his room," and with that he was nothing but a blur as he ran to Yoko's room.

"Squall why would Nakada go to Deaths'?" Rinoa asked him.

"I don't know Rinoa. But those two probably do," Squall gave the letter to her and went to his bedroom to think.