A.n. i'm mad, i finished this chapter this morning and....well the computer is just a stupid thing sometimes. anyways, i'm so sorry for the delay on this chapter. i've been suffering from sleep deprivation and mild depression. plus, i've been trying to write songs for my band. anyways, i'm not complaining, just explaining why i haven't been posting this blasted chapter. if all had gone well, it'd be up already. but....old murphy just had to interject there. anyways, enough of my chattering. read on. (still don't own it)
Chapter 16
The weeks before Christmas break, for Sirius, seemed to just fly by. This was bad, considering Sirius was still wondering if he had made the correct decision to go to his parent's house. It was kind of odd to call it his parent's house. He knew that most children actually lived with their parents so therefore it should be his house too. However, life wasn't always fair and not everyone got dealt a prefect hand.
Sirius sighed as he sat on his bed late one night.It was the day before he had to depart for Grimmauld Place and his mood had been steadily going downwards. It was true, he could have gone to the Potter's house, but...it didn't seem right for some reason. His parents wanted him to come home. And...Sirius hated being a burden, even though no one actually considered him one.
James's parents had sent Sirius the letter that James had requested. Sirius had read it and had put it aside scornfully. It had sounded to well rehearsed (well, for a letter) to actually mean anything. It had basically just said how much the Potter's cared about him and how they were willing to fight for him. While Sirius was grateful to hear this, he wasn't sure whether or not to believe it. Life was just...too jacked up for him at the moment for him to think straight.
"Are you alright?" asked James from behind him, having just entered the dormitory. Sirius had his back facing the door, so James wouldn't be able to see what he was saying, so he simply nodded. "I don't think you are," said James, walking over and sitting by his best friend. Gently, he put his hand on Sirius's shoulder, gently rubbing it in circles, as if trying to get his friend to open up to him.
It must have worked because, Sirius opened his mouth and said,"If something bad happens, do you think it'll be alright if I come and spend the rest of the holidays with you? I mean, will your parents mind?"
"Of course not," replied James. Sirius had never had to ask if he could go to the Potter's house before. It was just then that James realized how terrified his best friend was. "Sirius, you know, you don't have to go."
"Yes I do. You have no idea what they could do to your family. You think it's just an empty threat. It's not. They actually do things like that just to get there way," snapped Sirius, his face filled with fury.
Not at me, thought James as he stared into his friend's cold eyes. This was the kind of state that James didn't like to see Sirius in. It reminded him too much of his other family members. This was also the attitude he didn't like seeing. Sirius, like all the rest of the Black's, were overly stubborn. They wouldn't give into anything because of their blasted pride. It was annoying when you were trying to talk sense into any of them.
"Maybe I don't know what your family will do. But....I just don't want to see you getting hurt. That hurts me too. I...I guess I want to protect you. I know you don't really need it but...."James trailed off, uncertain as to what else to say.
Sirius looked up and gazed at his friend. The person who had always been there for him. "Sorry James," he mouthed. "There aren't any other options. None that I really want to take right now."
James sighed and nodded in a way that said he understood. Glancing at the clock, he saw that it was about 11:30. "We should go to bed. We have to leave tomorrow."
Sirius threw James a look that was filled with sadness, tiredness, and something else. For a minute, James thought it might have been something like... self-loathing? No, thought James. But he glanced at Sirius with a slightly worried expression on his face before heading to his own bed.
James could hear Sirius turning over in his bed as he tried to get comfortable. James fell asleep within moments.
Later though, he was awoken by someone bumping into his shoulder. James opened his eyes to glance at his clock. It was 3:39. He groaned and looked up to see Sirius's blue eyes staring at him.
"What's wrong Sirius?" asked James groggily. He had to strain to see what Sirius said because of the darkness.
"I had another nightmare and I was wondering if I could spend the rest of the night....you know, with you," answered Sirius.
James yawned and then nodded. He scooted over for his friend to slip in under the covers and then he put his arms around Sirius, giving him a big hug. "Why do you have to go through so much, Sirius?" he asked softly when he was sure that his friend was asleep. "Why are you made to suffer?"
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The next morning, James woke up to an unnatural weight on his arms, and he blinked slightly as he saw Sirius. He was still fast asleep so James carefully got out of his bed and walked into the bathroom to take a quick shower. When he came out, Sirius was still sleeping. Jame had a feeling that Sirius hadn't gotten much sleep and when he had gone to sleep, he had had a nightmare. James shook his head. Who was going to comfort him during Christmas break?
Sighing, James shook Sirius's shoulder. Sirius abuptly woke up and looked a bit confused, but one glance around explained everything and a small smile went across his face and he got up, stretching his arms and legs out. Then Sirius walked into the bathroom to take a shower.
While Sirius was showering, James started packing up his things. About 10 mintues later, Sirius came out and he too began to pack. Remus, it seemed, had been up for hours before them and was sitting on his bed, reading. It would appear that he had packed much earlier.
There was no noise in the room, as all three boys were horribly apprehensive. Sirius was unhappy about his family. Remus was upset about the fact that his monthly "condition" was during the break. James was worried about both of his friends because Remus really hadn't said much since the day when they all faced the boggart.
"Well..." James said when he and Sirius were all packed. Remus looked up and then glanced at his watch.
"We should probably go down," he said softly, and got up, taking his trunk with him. James and Sirius followed.
The train ride was also very quiet. All of them were still thinking about their own predicaments. James was willing to bet anything that Sirius would show up at his house within a week. Sirius was thinking something along the same lines. Remus was wondering if his parents really wanted him to come home for the holidays.
When the train slowed to a stop, Sirius stood up and gave James a quick hug good bye. Showing any kind of emotions in front of his parents was a really bad idea. The three boys all gathered their items and walked out of the compartment.
Remus quickly found his parents and walked over to them, waving back at James and Sirius. Mr. and Mrs. Potter found the two boys and ran over to them, wrapping them both in big hugs. Sirius, however, pulled away. He seemed to be looking over Mrs. Potter's shoulder. Mrs. Potter turned around and saw Mr. and Mrs. Black standing there, glaring at their son.
Sirius smiled sadly at James and then walked over to his parents. For the first time in two years, Sirius was actually going to confront his parents, his brother, the house elf, the old house, and his memories. For the first time in two years, Sirius felt as if his life had suddenly become a living hell.
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a.n. how was that? i think that chapter is pretty good, but that's just my opinion, might not be yours. oh well. please review. thanks. you won't have to wait as long for the next chapter. i hope.
Chapter 16
The weeks before Christmas break, for Sirius, seemed to just fly by. This was bad, considering Sirius was still wondering if he had made the correct decision to go to his parent's house. It was kind of odd to call it his parent's house. He knew that most children actually lived with their parents so therefore it should be his house too. However, life wasn't always fair and not everyone got dealt a prefect hand.
Sirius sighed as he sat on his bed late one night.It was the day before he had to depart for Grimmauld Place and his mood had been steadily going downwards. It was true, he could have gone to the Potter's house, but...it didn't seem right for some reason. His parents wanted him to come home. And...Sirius hated being a burden, even though no one actually considered him one.
James's parents had sent Sirius the letter that James had requested. Sirius had read it and had put it aside scornfully. It had sounded to well rehearsed (well, for a letter) to actually mean anything. It had basically just said how much the Potter's cared about him and how they were willing to fight for him. While Sirius was grateful to hear this, he wasn't sure whether or not to believe it. Life was just...too jacked up for him at the moment for him to think straight.
"Are you alright?" asked James from behind him, having just entered the dormitory. Sirius had his back facing the door, so James wouldn't be able to see what he was saying, so he simply nodded. "I don't think you are," said James, walking over and sitting by his best friend. Gently, he put his hand on Sirius's shoulder, gently rubbing it in circles, as if trying to get his friend to open up to him.
It must have worked because, Sirius opened his mouth and said,"If something bad happens, do you think it'll be alright if I come and spend the rest of the holidays with you? I mean, will your parents mind?"
"Of course not," replied James. Sirius had never had to ask if he could go to the Potter's house before. It was just then that James realized how terrified his best friend was. "Sirius, you know, you don't have to go."
"Yes I do. You have no idea what they could do to your family. You think it's just an empty threat. It's not. They actually do things like that just to get there way," snapped Sirius, his face filled with fury.
Not at me, thought James as he stared into his friend's cold eyes. This was the kind of state that James didn't like to see Sirius in. It reminded him too much of his other family members. This was also the attitude he didn't like seeing. Sirius, like all the rest of the Black's, were overly stubborn. They wouldn't give into anything because of their blasted pride. It was annoying when you were trying to talk sense into any of them.
"Maybe I don't know what your family will do. But....I just don't want to see you getting hurt. That hurts me too. I...I guess I want to protect you. I know you don't really need it but...."James trailed off, uncertain as to what else to say.
Sirius looked up and gazed at his friend. The person who had always been there for him. "Sorry James," he mouthed. "There aren't any other options. None that I really want to take right now."
James sighed and nodded in a way that said he understood. Glancing at the clock, he saw that it was about 11:30. "We should go to bed. We have to leave tomorrow."
Sirius threw James a look that was filled with sadness, tiredness, and something else. For a minute, James thought it might have been something like... self-loathing? No, thought James. But he glanced at Sirius with a slightly worried expression on his face before heading to his own bed.
James could hear Sirius turning over in his bed as he tried to get comfortable. James fell asleep within moments.
Later though, he was awoken by someone bumping into his shoulder. James opened his eyes to glance at his clock. It was 3:39. He groaned and looked up to see Sirius's blue eyes staring at him.
"What's wrong Sirius?" asked James groggily. He had to strain to see what Sirius said because of the darkness.
"I had another nightmare and I was wondering if I could spend the rest of the night....you know, with you," answered Sirius.
James yawned and then nodded. He scooted over for his friend to slip in under the covers and then he put his arms around Sirius, giving him a big hug. "Why do you have to go through so much, Sirius?" he asked softly when he was sure that his friend was asleep. "Why are you made to suffer?"
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The next morning, James woke up to an unnatural weight on his arms, and he blinked slightly as he saw Sirius. He was still fast asleep so James carefully got out of his bed and walked into the bathroom to take a quick shower. When he came out, Sirius was still sleeping. Jame had a feeling that Sirius hadn't gotten much sleep and when he had gone to sleep, he had had a nightmare. James shook his head. Who was going to comfort him during Christmas break?
Sighing, James shook Sirius's shoulder. Sirius abuptly woke up and looked a bit confused, but one glance around explained everything and a small smile went across his face and he got up, stretching his arms and legs out. Then Sirius walked into the bathroom to take a shower.
While Sirius was showering, James started packing up his things. About 10 mintues later, Sirius came out and he too began to pack. Remus, it seemed, had been up for hours before them and was sitting on his bed, reading. It would appear that he had packed much earlier.
There was no noise in the room, as all three boys were horribly apprehensive. Sirius was unhappy about his family. Remus was upset about the fact that his monthly "condition" was during the break. James was worried about both of his friends because Remus really hadn't said much since the day when they all faced the boggart.
"Well..." James said when he and Sirius were all packed. Remus looked up and then glanced at his watch.
"We should probably go down," he said softly, and got up, taking his trunk with him. James and Sirius followed.
The train ride was also very quiet. All of them were still thinking about their own predicaments. James was willing to bet anything that Sirius would show up at his house within a week. Sirius was thinking something along the same lines. Remus was wondering if his parents really wanted him to come home for the holidays.
When the train slowed to a stop, Sirius stood up and gave James a quick hug good bye. Showing any kind of emotions in front of his parents was a really bad idea. The three boys all gathered their items and walked out of the compartment.
Remus quickly found his parents and walked over to them, waving back at James and Sirius. Mr. and Mrs. Potter found the two boys and ran over to them, wrapping them both in big hugs. Sirius, however, pulled away. He seemed to be looking over Mrs. Potter's shoulder. Mrs. Potter turned around and saw Mr. and Mrs. Black standing there, glaring at their son.
Sirius smiled sadly at James and then walked over to his parents. For the first time in two years, Sirius was actually going to confront his parents, his brother, the house elf, the old house, and his memories. For the first time in two years, Sirius felt as if his life had suddenly become a living hell.
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a.n. how was that? i think that chapter is pretty good, but that's just my opinion, might not be yours. oh well. please review. thanks. you won't have to wait as long for the next chapter. i hope.