The meaning of dreams
By: lil gillian
Another one. Every night for the past month, I've been having dreams of Mulder. Romantic dreams. Nothing that BAD. At first it was just little things like Mulder flirting with me. He always flirts with me. I had dreams of holding hands and kisses. But the one I just had was different. Mulder and me were married and I was pregnant. He was talking to my stomach and did all the things that husbands do. Why am I dreaming of Mulder? Were not even dating.
Today at lunch break I'm going to see my therapist. I've been seeing her for about 2 years now. She knows that I work for the FBI. I've talked about Mulder before but I haven't told her about my dreams.
I walk down the hall to our basement office. I already picked up coffee. I open the door to see Mulder already working on his report on the computer. Typing away. When he realizes I'm here he looks up from the computer.
"Good morning" He says as he sits up from his sit and walks to me.
"Good morning, here's your coffee." I hand him his coffee and he walks to the filing cabinet.
"Thanks honey." He calls back. Thank goodness he wasn't looking at me because I was blushing like an idiot. I take a seat at my desk and sip my coffee.
"Scully, I got a call from someone looking for you. They said that you needed to see them at 12:30."
"Thanks." It must have been Karin my therapist. She should of called my cellphone.
"Is it a date?" He ask.
"Ya, with my friend Karin." I lied. Karin's not really my friend. But I wasn't going to tell Mulder that I go to therapy. He would worry about me.
"That's good. I was just worried that you were cheating on me." He smiles. I do to.
"You know Mulder, one day Skinner or someone is going to come down here and hear you. Then what are we going to do." I say cause really. What happens if Skinner hears Mulder call me "baby" or something.
"Don't worry cupcake. I'll take care of it." He really likes this game don't he. I do too.
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Dr.Karin Perry's Office
12:33 pm
"Hi, I'm Dana Scully. I here to see Dr.Perry." I tell the lady at the front desk. I think she's new. I have never seen her before.
"Do you have a appointment?"
"Yes for 12:30." I say. She types my name in the computer.
"You can go see her now. Do you know where her office is?"
"Yes, thank you very much." I walk down the hall to Karin's office and knock on the door. Two seconds later she opens it.
"Hi Dana, come in." She says. She always sounds cheerful. I don't know how she does it.
"Hi Karin." I walk and sit in the black chair that I always do.
"So how have you been this week?"
"Alright."
"What do you what to talk about today?" She asks me.
"I um, I've been having these dreams lately. For about a month."
"What were they about."
"Mulder and Me together."
"What do you mean Together."
"Well at first the dreams were me and him flirting and kissing but it's been getting more... I don't know how to example it. Last night I dreamed that I was married to him and I was pregnant. I can't even get pregnant."
"Dana, do you know why people have dreams." She asks me.
"Because of brain activity." I say.
"No Dana. Let me give you an example, do you dream of seeing your father or sister."
"Yes, but what does that have to do with anything." I say. Why is Karin bring up my father and sister for?
"You dream that because in reality, you want that, am I right?"
"Yes, but-" She cuts me off.
"The same goes for the reason you dream about Mulder, because in reality you want that. You want to be with him."
I'm silent. What can I say. I never really thought about it that way. When I see myself with a man it's always Mulder. Is it that obvious. Mom always said that something was there but I never believed it.
"Dana, Are you in love with Mulder." Am I in love with Mulder. Yes. Every time I see him or think of him I get butterflies in my stomach.
"Yes, but his my best friend and partner. You don't fall in love with your best friend."
"Your wrong, about 90 percent of good couples are friends first. You known Mulder what, about 6 years-"
"Seven and a half years."
"You need to tell him."
"No, I can't!... What happens if he doesn't feel the same way?"
"What if he does?"
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Scully's house
9:32pm
I been thinking about what Karin said since I left her office. I should tell him. I just want to make sure he feels the same way. There must be someway to tell if he loves me or not. What if he doesn't. Am I going to be his best friend forever and not tell him. I can't live like that.
phone rings
"Hello" I say.
"Hey, it's me. Are you alright. When you came back from lunch you acted funny." Oh Great! He noticed.
"Ya, I'm fine." I say. He most likely doesn't believe.
"Are you sure Scully."
"Mulder can I ask you something?"
"Sure Scully, you can ask me anything."
"What do you think dreams are? Like what do you like they mean?"
"You might not agree but to me dreams are things that you want to come true. Why do you ask?"
"Just curious of what you think?"
"Can I ask you a question?"
"Ask away"
"What are you wearing?" I have to laugh at that. I guess I'll play along.
"Who says I'm wearing anything." I'm going to pay later for saying that. I know.
"Wow, Catholic girls are bad." I hear him laugh. I love his laugh.
"Goodnight Mulder"
"Goodnight Sugarplum"
I hang up the phone and go to bed. Any second now I will be with Mulder. I will be happy in my dream that I wish was reality. Maybe it could be a reality. All I have to do is say 3 words and it can change everything. He might not believe me like once I did not believe him. But I will find out. I will.
I know. They are SO out of character but I thought it would be fun to write. And it was. Please review and tell me what you think. If you like it I'll write more.
Happy New Year 2005