An Harry Potter Fanfiction written by- RoyalJester
Disclaimer- I do NOT own Harry PotterA/n- Remus's feelings!! YAY!!! Poor guy...
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Never had a block day ever lasted so long as I stare at the Ancient Runes placed on my desk where my fellow marauder, Peter Pettigrew sat. He twitched in the slightest as he tried to figure out how to spell a simple word to get him to pass this class. Why he signed up for this, I won't ever know. He probably thought I would help him.
I leaned my head on my hand as I stare at the rocks and spell out 'Sirius' it didn't matter anyways, no one could understand this most of the time. We have been 'together' for nearly a year now, and still, he wished to keep it secret. I understood of course. Sirius lives upon his reputation. He craves attention.
I would often find him, sitting in the common rooms as girls piled around him. He would make eye contact with me of course as I left up into my room. He would shortly follow. But still, I am to be a shadow. Ignore the urge I get to wrap my hand around his because we are in public.
It was fine with me he shared a date with someone; he always came back to me. I didn't care if I saw a short kiss between the two because later, his lips would be gently on mine, full of love and care. But what bothered me the most, was that they would walk, hand in hand down the halls. It was impractical seeing I don't mind if they kiss, but the fact that they can walk, holding one another, and no one would say a thing that caused me to anger.
I suddenly shoot up when I hear my name being called; my arm hits the ink jar as it tipples over and spills over all of my notes, I could easily fix them. I instantly stand up, hoping not to have gotten ink on my blazer as I let out a sigh. Laughter filled my ears as I excused myself.
I walked down the hallways. Listening to my footsteps as they echo along the corridor. Me missing one class wouldn't matter, I could simply copy the new notes from someone else in the class, possibly Lily Evans.
I drag my shoes along the ground as I couldn't help but think about Sirius. What we shared was sweet and real. It was love. He completed me, and I completed him. But, was he ready for this? Was I ready for this?
How could I stay with him, be with him, and still watch him fondle others? He asked me for permission, if I would get jealous. I of course said no. Sirius needed this. Otherwise, people would get suspicious. I let out a deep breath of air I was holding in.
This had worked out for a year, so why now did I suddenly feel...upset? Was it because my heart had allowed him in? I truly love him?
Was this it?
Did I have to do the one thing my heart rejected of?
Break it off with Sirius.
I hang my head as I enter the Gryffindor common rooms as I think of a way to bring up the matter. My attention is suddenly pulled away as Sirius enters. A smile on his face as he stares up at me and winks. I stand up; take an immense breath of air as my throat tightens.
"Sirius – I need a break." Right when those words escaped my lips, I wished I could've taken them back.
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A/N- Poor Remus...read and review please!! This will end happily, just to tell you guys.