An Harry Potter Fanfiction written by- RoyalJester
Disclaimer- I do NOT own Harry PotterA/N- Once again, Sirius's thoughts and POV. This is going to be before, during, and after when Remus says he needs a break, you'll understand as you read. And also, thank you guys sooo much for your wonderful reviews. I loved them!
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I inhale deeply as I try to remain conscious during divination. Honestly, this class could drive anyone barmy as thick smoke fills the air and you sit on chairs that cause you to sink in. My eyes felt of lead swiftly as the aromas filled my head and I found myself fall into a warm, deep rest.
My mind clouds of memories with Remus as my heart pounds against my chest, how perfect he was, how faultless we were together. I was the untamed, fierce, and juvenile with a childlike soul as Remus was practical, considerate, and cared for others before himself. He had tamed me. No one else could've done that. He taught me many lessons in life that had helped me grow as a person. And I helped him. Still we teach one another.
A sharp thrust causes me to shoot up as images of Remus vanish; laughter fills my ears causing my head to ring. I blink deeply as my body tries to get me to sleep once again, but with another jab in the ribs, I was awake.
"What?!" I barked at James who jumped back in the slightest.
"We just heard that Mooney left during Ancient Runes." James muttered under his breath as I smile in the slightest.
Good, the only thing that could make this day better was resting next to him, holding him in my arms.
I rise as I slowly walk over to the trap door as a figure screams after me, "I foresaw this!"
I wave my hands in the air signaling she was precise, and that she was a mastermind. My body felt numb, as I basically had to drag myself to the Gryffindor common rooms where I knew no one else would be, but Remus and I. All I wanted to do was tackle him onto my bed and just remain there for the entire day, with him pressed up against me as I breathe in his scent with each breath.
I enter the common rooms slowly as I smile at Remus who was now standing, staring at the entrance of the room as if expecting me to come after him. I wink with a smile as I walk closer to him as I watch him breathe in severely and whisper out.
"Sirius - I need a break."
I nod as I walk closer to him.
"Like wise. All this schoolwork has left me beat. I say that we spend the rest of the hours taking a nap." I say as I kiss him softly.
I don't feel a kiss in return as I take a step back and stare into his chocolate eyes. His eyes aren't dazzling like they usually are; they held sadness, as his face was stern. Possibly angered. 'I need a break' ran through my mind once again as I feel pain shoot through my body. He was breaking up with me...but...I love him...
"You need a break." I whisper in monotone as I glance at the ground. I feel my energy boosting up in rage.
"Sirius. Its just..." I silence him with a raise of my hand.
"Don't give me that bullshit Lupin. You want a break, then by all means. I won't hold you back." I answer with anger in my voice as I leave quickly out of the common rooms. I feel his stare linger over my body, as I don't care. He had broken me; he had torn out my heart.
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I sat next to the lake under a willow tree as I casually throw pebbles into the lake. No one else was in sight seeing classes were still in progress. Good. It gave me time to think. I lean back against the trunk of the tree as I let out a deep breath of air.
I knew Remus loves me, he knows I love him. Then what is the point in not seeing one another? I fling my head back against the trunk of the tree in anger. How else was I to act? I was angered at him, but mainly, I was angered at me.
Why did I play Remus like he wasn't a human being? I would go on dates, snuggle up close to others, kiss them. But I thought he understood. It had to be this way. What would others think if they found out, the king of troublemaking, was the way I was? That I love another male.
It was natural to me. But others wouldn't accept it.
I never would've thought that I would find the one that completed my soul, but I had. I had it all, but I ruined it. Just because I cared what others think.
I close my eyes as I breathe in deeply. Trying by any means not to be angered at myself.
If what I did disturbs him, then he should have said something! Every time I get ready to leave on a date, and he assists me, I ask him. He just answers with, "Its something you must do." Or even a, "Make sure to have fun."
I am instantly full of anger as I wish to just wound him in return. I would do anything to make him distressed at what he did to me. The heart he had broken.
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A/N- Wow...Sirius is angry!! Yikes!! C'mon Sirius, Remus just did what he hadta do! You must understand!! Wait...what are you doing with her? Remus, where are you going? Isn't this suppose to be a happy romance fic?!!! AHHH!!!
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