The Trouble with Love Chapter 3: Your Letter, a ranma fanfic

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I do not own these characters nor do I claim too, this is a simple fan based homage. Their creators and the companies they work for and with own the characters and all that pertains to them. (I.E. Rumiko Takahashi, Viz, & Etc.). I do not intend on making any profit from making this story but only a writer writing about one of her favourite character, namely Nabiki.

I DO NOT OWN THE SONGS OR THE SONGS' LYRICS, THEY ARE OWNED BY VARIOUS MUSIC COMPANIES, PRODUCTIONS AND RECORDS.

I ONLY WANTED TO USE THEIR SONGS AS TO INSPIRE ME TO WRITE AND THERE WAS NO PROFIT GAINED FROM THIS FIC SO PLEASE DON'T SUE…

I DON'T HAVE ANY MONEY FOR I AM BROKE!

I also do not own the song "Your Letter" it is performed by music RnB Bandknown as112 and has no connection to me what so ever. So again please don't sue.

Bold means Song Lyrics

Italics means thoughts

Bold Italics means Diary Entry

I saw a letter lying on the floor

I couldn't help but look inside

thought it was something that you must have left

left there for me to find

Ranma began to read Nabiki's diary, against his better judgement. He wanted to find out what made the Tendo girl tick and why does it seem like she hated him so much. He wouldn't have read it if he didn't hear Nabiki asked Kasumi to go out. Knowing Nabiki she will be out for a while. Besides he didn't want to leave her room. Her room seemed to be his sanctuary, no one dared to enter Nabiki's room, only Kasumi had that kind of privileged. His father, Mr Tendo and Akane would never barge in her room, knowing that Nabiki will find out anything that will be out of place and suffer grave consequences. Looking around he decided he can fix everything later but for now, curiosity got the best of him. Holding on to her diary, he felt great power of uncovering what's just inside the formidable ice queen..

All your words were on that page

All my dreams came true that day

I found your letter, your letter

The diary was old and quite thick, he decided to make himself comfortable and sat on Nabiki's bed. Curiosity got the best of him as he began to read Nabiki's private thoughts. The first couple of pages shocked Ranma. It was about Nabiki's mother Kimiko. How her father was never the same after it and how three sister's has been affected by it. There were also smudges on the writing which indicated that she was probably crying while she was writing in the diary. He felt sadness overwhelm him as Nabiki described how each of the Tendo Household had been affected by her mother's passing…

Soun has lost his passion for the art, thinking that he had put the art first before his family.

Akane on the other hand was overwhelmed by anger and rage of being unable to do anything and helplessness of loosing their mother through death. She became violent, seeing as she thought that by fighting it would have saved their mother from cancer.

While Kasumi sacrificed her future by devoting her life to the family, assuming their mother's role.

And finally there was Nabiki's sacrifice: which was more than he had expected. She gave up her integrity and reputation in order to keep her family clothed, fed and sheltered. How she became one of Furikan's notorious ice queen and how it hurts her of what she had to do. How much it also scared and terrified her when she realised that she enjoyed and thrived on what she does. That the more she did what she does, the more she felt thrilled because of the power she had over people. Controlling them, manipulating them, enabling them to do her bidding. It scares her. She didn't like how she sometimes enjoyed and relished other people's misfortune. She want's like that. She's not suppose to turn out like that!

Until he came…

Ranma was sufficiently shocked.

It said you loved me but you didn't know the words to say

It said you never knew that you could ever feel this way

It said you wanted wished some day that I would feel the same

in your letter, your letter

It said that she was lonely and she never felt happier when the news that a young boy would come and how she hoped he would be the one that would save her. How when she had first met him, she could see how lonely he was because his eyes reflected the same agonising sorrow that she was feeling. How much she wanted to reach out to him and befriend him but instead decided to shift him to Akane, thinking that of what she had become, she didn't need someone else that she would probably drag down with her or worst, look down at her and reject her. She also wrote down how angry and betrayed she felt to find out that he was a she!

Yanking herself back to reality, Life was just too cruel to her. Getting her hopes up.

Ilooked at the red headed female Ranma then and saw the dejection in her eyes.

I then thought No.

I won't drag someone else with me. It was easier to reject than adjust...

And that's exactly what she did…

How Nabiki felt that she slowly cared for him but instead showed cruelty to him when she had noticed her younger sister began to fall for him as well…

It is sometime best to be cruel to be kind…

How she denied herself and continued to push him away, in the hopes that her younger sister will find happiness with him… And how much it hurt when his fiancées came and how she saw that he too fell for Akane…

Ohh, I guess it just never occurred to me

That you would feel the way I did

You kept the sweetest secret from my heart

You kept those feelings hid

Ranma couldn't believe what he was reading! Nabiki didn't hate him at all, but liked him! It surprised him that one of the most feared woman in Nerima was actually sad, lonely and scared to be alone. He couldn't explain how much joy he felt when he read Nabiki's revelations. The knowledge that she too was as lonely as him, though surrounded with people. That she like the others, had a weakness that made her seem more human.

No you never showed a sign

Or gave a clue to what I'd find

inside your letter, your letter

So much was revealed to him in reading the diary than the times that he spent with her. Though he admits he really didn't really try and make friends with her because of the way she treated him, but after reading her diary, he understood why she had to do it.

It said u loved me but you didn't know the words to say

It said u never knew that u could ever feel this way

It said u wanted wished some day that I would feel the same

in your letter, your letter

But he was confused. Nabiki was also interested in him. This will bring him more complications than he already had. Unlike many of his admirers, Nabiki was not a martial artist or a fighter. He was also confuse as to why he doesn't find Nabiki's attraction to him a bit disturbing. Ok he admits it is a little disturbing. He wasn't really put off by her revelations about her feelings about him. He can remember a couple of moments where, she did rescue him and got him out of trouble and also gave him advice. It also felt nice when he remembered when the engagement was shifted to her. That is until she began renting him off to his other fiancées.

I was so happy that I almost cried

to think that you would think of me that way

its like you took my sweetest dream and made that dream come true

I would be with you always

He decided he needed to read more to better understand the feelings that has awaken inside of him. He did like Akane, but love her? He didn't know. He wanted to show her how much he cared for her but words always failed him. She never trusted him long enough to listen to him. This revelation wreak havoc on his feelings he was now utterly confused but he still couldn't let himself to stop reading her diary. Like there was an uncanny magic coaxing him to read more….

I saw a name I didn't recognize

I felt the tears come to my eyes

seemed that the love that you've been longing for

was another love not mine

no you never showed a sign

but it was right there in the lines

inside your letter, your letter

He frowned. There was two more men depicted in the diary. That bastard Kinnusuke and the idiot Kuno Tatewaki. It said how she thought that Kuno was the one for her until he met her sister Akane. How Kuno dismissed her and left her feeling worthless and for the lack of a better word... ugly.

Then Kinnusuke came that challenged and intrigued her… But like Kuno, he left her… But she still sort of holds a torch for him. Pinning for him. And that if there was an off chance that he comes back again… She will go running for him..

Ohh, it said u loved him but you didn't know the words to say

It said u never knew that you could ever feel this way

It said u wanted wished someday that he would feel the same

in your letter, your letter

He felt himself stiffen in anger all of a sudden. He knew these guys weren't right for Nabiki, but if not them then who?

Himself?

No.

Nabiki was simply just too good for them, she can do a lot more better But he cant help but feel himself bristle, perhaps he was just looking out for Nabiki like he always has. A thought then came pushing its way back to his memory.

He remembered the first time he had met her. How beautiful and kawaii she looked in the kimono, but suddenly frowned when she noticed his curse. How much it hurt to sit in the dojo. As he witnessed himself being passed from one sister to another because the Tendo sisters didn't want him… and now.. Reading why she did stirred up strange feelings into him. He didn't like this one bit…

Ranma, finally having enough. He decided to stop reading. There was just too much that he discovered from Nabiki and now he doesn't know how to handle it. It was too much information too soon, the impact and flood of emotions expressed in those writings invoked feelings from him. He then looked at the mess in Nabiki's room. Shaking his head as though he had just woken up from a dream, he got up from where he was sitting. He might as well start cleaning up…

Couple of minutes later, He was about done cleaning Nabiki's room when Nabiki herself entered the room. Both figures froze on the spot. Afraid to move as if their very life was at stake. Nabiki thought it was silly of them to just stand there and gawked at each other.

Nabiki was about to ask what Ranma was doing in her room when she saw her diary lying open on her bed while Ranma stood still, still in shock of how he was caught off guard….

Finally regaining his senses and looking at where Nabiki's line of vision fell, he knew that he will be in for it. He didn't want to face Nabiki, afraid of her wrath or something else he wasn't prepared to do at the moment. So he did the only thing he could do… He quickly jumped out of her window, leaving Nabiki shock still. She looked at her diary and where Ranma had previously stood…

The curtains from her window billowing from the draft outside…

I saw a letter lying on the floor...

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