Title: Of Death, Betrayals and Love

A/N: I'm sorry for such a late up-date! I owe you guys three chapters today, another one will hopefully be up tonight and maybe I can get two up tomorrow.

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A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that i saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And i don't think i can look at this the same
But all these miles that seperate
Disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And i dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me.

3 doors down: "Here without you"

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Chapter:

Arya walked into the Heads Common Room and looked around. Lily seemed to be in her room, and James seemed to be snoring on top of his Transfiguration essay. Normally Arya would have smacked him, but something bugged her. She quietly walked over and placed the tip of her hand on the back of his head, lightly.

Her eyes closed shut painfully as she doubled over, gasping.

Arya's Visions

"James, my son" Said a man looking quite like James. They were standing on top of a little hill. It was in their 3rd year. "Times have grown. It's not safe anymore." He looked at James "My job is dangerous, James, as you already know." He paused "If I die-s"

"You're not going to die, dad." Said James

"If I die," Said his father "Promise me you'll take care of your mother." He looked at James and placed his hand on his shoulder "And promise me you'll never forget everything I've taught you."

James eyes watered over "I promise dad."

Arya tried to release her hand but it wasn't working. Now she was hearing his thoughts.

'Transfiguration essay due tomorrow. Too tired to do it. Last night was hard, so hard. Shouldn't have agreed to do it. I'll never have time anymore.'

'I'm graduating this year. Need grades higher.'

'Quidditch Match coming up. Ravenclaw. They've got a good team this year. I should start booking the pitch. We need a new Chaser. I wonder who'll try out. I can't believe I'm captain. I've led them to victory last year; I'll do it again this year.'

'Full moon coming up. I hope I won't have to leave. Maybe I shouldn't have agreed to do this. I'm so very tired.'

'Lily. I miss Lily. Shouldn't have talked to her. Things will never be the same. I hope too much.'

'Can't believe Sirius likes Arya. She'll never cave. Too stubborn, like Evans. I wonder if she's thinking about giving me a second chance. No, I shouldn't think about that.'

' I've got a job to do now. Heroes give up their dreams. I'll never be a kid again. Need to memorize 20 spells by tomorrow. Need to write to McKinnon and Moody. Must see Dumbledore about new mission.'

'I missed the Prefects meeting last night. Lily is going to kill me. Must find a reason.'

'Potions essay due tomorrow. I've got to write to mum and tell her what's happened so far.'

"Arya?" Said Lily curiously

Arya jumped back, finally being released from James' thoughts. She looked at James who was still sleeping, shook her head sadly and went to wrap a blanket around his shoulders.

"Arya," Asked Lily once again "What are you doing?"

Arya looked at Lily "This poor boy has so much on his shoulders Lil's." She looked at James "He shouldn't have to worry about freezing."

James opened his eyes slowly and looked at Lily.

"Let him freeze," Lily said coldly "He missed a meeting last night." Arya grimaced as James looked at Lily sadly.

"I was tired last night, Lily," He said softly, half-awake.

"So you just forget your responsibilities!" She yelled "I thought you wanted a second chance James!"

"You never told me you'd give me one." He said angrily "Look I'm sorry alright. I'll be there next time."

"Sorry doesn't do anything James," She said still yelling "You'll never be responsible and you'll never know what if feels like to do everything, because you have everything done for you!" She walked over to him "Promises mean nothing to me James! What were you doing last night, snogging perhaps? Raiding the kitchens with Sirius? Or would you have done ANYTHING to get out of the meeting?"

"You bitch!" Yelled Arya angrily, stunning both Lily and James.

"Are you on his side now, Arya?" She said angrily "Siding with him over your best friend?"

"The world doesn't revolve around you are your meetings Lily" She yelled "He had something more important to do. Move on!"

Lily glared at the both of them before storming out of the Heads room. James turned to Arya "You didn't have to do that, Arya. I don't want her mad at you."

"She was being a bitch, James" Said Arya "I can't believe how stubborn she is. It was a meeting for Merlin's sake! Not something important!" She sighed and rubbed her temples "Listen James, I saw your thoughts. I know you were doing something important, two nights ago, and that's why you're tired."

James nodded "Thank you for being honest, Arya."

She nodded and moved to leave "Oh and James," She smirked "Tell Sirius I'm still waiting."

James smiled and nodded, "I will."

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Lily walked towards the Ravenclaw Common Room in tears. 'How could she turn on me?' she thought 'Siding with Potter.' She turned the corner and hit someone, dead on. They both fell to the floor.

"Lily?" Said a voice; "Are you alright? I'm so sorry, I wasn't paying any attention."

Lily opened her eyes and saw Danny kneeling over her. She smiled "Danny"

He grinned "You remember me! We can rule out memory loss." He helped Lily up "Where were you going in such a hurry?"

Tears formed into her eyes "I was coming to talk to you. I don't know why, but..." She trailed off.

He grabbed her hand and led her through countless corridors and through many rooms. He wouldn't speak, and she didn't feel the need to. A few minutes later he led her through a black door and onto a balcony looking over the lake. She smiled as they went to sit down.

"So tell me," He began "What's bothering you?"

She sighed and told him the story about what just happened, and her feelings for James. He wrapped an arm around her shoulder and she closed her eyes. "I'm just confused"

"I hate love," He said simply looking at her "Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest, and it opens up your heart, and it means that someone can get inside you, and mess you up."

She smiled at his reasoning, and he continued "You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore." He paused "Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain." He leaned back "I hate love."

"Do you hate all love?" She asked lacing her fingers into his, then looking into his eyes.

He shook his head and whispered "Not if it's worthwhile love."

"Good," She said softly before leaning in and kissing him.

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Arya looked pissed. Maybe it was because she didn't finish her Potions essay, or maybe it was the stares she was getting, or maybe it was because Sirius Black had his arm draped over her shoulder.

"Sirius," She hissed "What do you want? All these girls are glaring at me."

'Ok,' He thought 'Answer like Moony would answer.' He looked at her and whispered "Just ignore them."

She actually smiled "And here I thought you were going to say there just jealous."

'Think like Moony,' He told himself over and over again 'Like Moony'

"Have you talked to Lily lately?" He asked curiously

Arya nodded "We had a fight. She was screaming at James when she was the one who was wrong."

Sirius nodded and steered her into the Great Hall. "How does that make you feel?"

"Be my friend, Sirius," She said "Not my counselor"

Sirius blushed and thought 'Too much like Moony. Add a little Padfoot.' "Maybe James going to the meeting was a test," He said "Maybe she was thinking that if he came, he was serious about her, and since he didn't come maybe she thinks the whole thing is a joke."

Arya nodded and smiled "Thanks Sirius" She walked to her end of the table and met up with Priscilla and Sabrina. She explained everything that happened between her and Lily.

"Speaking of Lily, is that her?" Asked Bri as Arya sat down. She turned around and her eyes widened. There was Lily, but she was hand and hand with Danny.

Arya's eyes widened before she hit her head on the table "It's all my fault." She looked at James who was staring at his food, blankly.

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A/N: Eh, yeah it's a pretty bland chapter. But another one will come.

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