Title: Of Death, Betrays and Love
A/N: I know most of you hate Peter, with good reason, but I'm not going to exclude him because of something he does in the future. He'll have a hella good reason to turn to the dark side later on, but for now he's apart of the group.
A/N 2: I owe you like 3 chapters so far and that got me thinking. Up-dating everyday is just too much work. I've got another J/L story that I need to work on and each chapter is about 7,000 words. So I decided up-dating every other day would work better. Not including weekends and holidays though. I'll have a ton of chapters out in the on-coming days since break just started, so you guys don't have to worry about this till about January 4th.
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There is something that I see
In the way you look at me
There's a smile, there's a truth in your eyes
But an unexpected way
On this unexpected day
Could it mean this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along
It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along
Dana Glover: "It is you"
A/N: There is a little thing about the song at the end.
Chapter: It is you
"You what!?" Yelled James.
Sirius Black stared at the ceiling, with a blank look on his face. "I promised Belle I would go to the dance with her in 5th year." He looked at James "I can't back out on a promise. What would that look like to Arya?"
Remus nodded "He has a point James. He's got to go through with it."
James sighed "But, what about Arya? When are you going to talk to her? You made a promise to her."
Sirius blinked "I never really promised her anything."
"But you did" Said James teeth gritting. Sirius had no sense whatsoever. "The moment you made an attempt to charm her, you promised her something. Be it a spoken or un-spoken promise." He paused "What you promised her, I have no idea, simply because I don't know how a women's mind works."
Sirius turned over and growled into his pillow. Everyone was making this harder then it was. He would go talk to Arya, abet that was hard as she was very stubborn, and he would explain everything thoroughly. He lazily got up out of bed and yawned. "I think I'll be going now, mates."
"And where are you off to?" Asked Remus
"He's going to talk to Arya," Said James, looking at Sirius for reassurance.
Sirius rolled his eye "Yes, I am going to talk to Arya. She deserves an explanation at least." He froze and turned to James "Speaking of people who deserve an explanation, have you talked to Lily?"
"About what?" Asked James avoiding the subject
Peter threw a pillow at his head and it smacked James throwing him back. He glared at Peter "We could have used you as a chaser last year, Pete."
Sirius nodded "You've got some skill with throwing."
Peter snorted "It's from playing Football with the muggle kids when I was younger. I used to borrow the ball and throw it into a tire."
"Why didn't you play?" Asked James incredulously
"I can't fly," He said leaning back, letting his blonde hair fall into his blue eye. "You know that."
Sirius laughed "Remember back in first year? Pete couldn't even get off the ground."
Peter glared at him "Don't you have somewhere to be, paddy?"
Sirius scowled "Touché" He looked at James "When are you going to talk to Lily?"
"She's got a boyfriend, Sirius" Said James shrugging "What can I do?"
"Win her back?" Suggested Remus, staring intently at the snitch in front of him. He let it go and snatched is before it even flew two inches. He turned back to see James and Sirius gaping at him.
"Do it again," Said James "Let it fly further though."
Remus raised an eyebrow but did as James asked. He let it go and snatched it back quickly. James smile turned into a maniacal grin. "Moony my boy, how about you try out for Quidditch?"
Remus looked appalled "And come in wearing coats of mud and smelling like garbage? I think I'll pass."
"You've got skill!" Said Sirius loudly "And we need a seeker. Jenkins graduated last year."
Remus waved them off "Get out you prat. Go talk to your girl."
Sirius wiggled his eyebrows up and down before departing.
Sirius walked to the Heads Common Room with a skip in his step. Arya would defiantly understand everything once it was all explained, and then they would leave for Hogsmeade the next day. He reached the portrait of a white cat, the entrance. The cat looked down at him blinking.
"Blue rubber duck's," He said
"Sorry," The white cat purred "Try again"
"They changed it?" He asked making conversation
"Obviously"
Sirius scowled "But, I need to get in"
"And I need to hunt," The cat showed it's claws "We never get what we want, Black."
"Don't call me that." He said through gritted teeth.
The cat yawned and curled up "Are you through wasting my time? Or are you still going to try and get in?"
Sirius sat in thought for a second. 'There has to be one thing James and Lily have in common.' His eyes widened "Garfield"
The cat looked sullen "Ruin my fun" The door swung open and he casually walked in. Lily and Arya looked up at him. He walked over cautiously.
"Potter isn't here, Sirius." Said Lily
"I didn't come to talk to James," He said looking at Arya "I came to talk to Arya."
Lily was about to tell him off when Arya raised her hand. "You've got two minutes, Black, start talking."
Sirius looked surprised "Well, um, you see, in 5th year I promised to take Belle to a dance." He took a deep breath "I've been banned from all the dances that have happened since then and well, now I'm not banned and she hasn't forgotten about it." 'One point for Sirius'
Tears filled Arya's eyes and she started to speak, not even thinking before it. "You really hurt me Sirius, I hope you know that. I can't even begin to explain. I've fancied you for so long and when you told me you fancied me, I thought I had a chance. The dance in the Common Room was incredible. The roses, the kisses, the owls, all of it!" She was hysterical "Now she comes along and it's like I'm pushed aside. I don't want to feel privileged that you like me, I don't want to be another girl you snogged, I don't want to deny my feelings anymore and I don't want to fall victim to a broken heart. I want to love you with all I have, and I want the same back." Tears were falling down her face and she made no move to stop them. Also, sometime in her speech, Lily sneaked away.
Sirius looked at her stunned. Never in his life could he think one person could feel so much. He had no idea how much this was bothering her. There she was, the only girl he'd ever truly cared for, hurt by him. He felt sick.
She made a sniffling sound, breaking him from his thoughts. He walked over quickly and wrapped his arms around her quivering shoulders. "Arya," He said softly "Will you be my girlfriend?"
She looked up at him, eyes brimmed with new tears. "I can't, Sirius." His heart fell "Not with her around." She turned away from his hurt eyes "I don't want to be hurt."
"But," He said desperately "I don't have feelings for her."
"I know," She said "But, not even I can keep you from temptation."
The black Hogwarts carriages sat freshly cleaned in front of the school. Early risers were all ready setting off for a day at the village. The sky had a slight over-cast, with chances of snow in the afternoon. The chilly wind blew, and some students wrapped their cloaks closer to their bodies. Some snow, was left on the ground from last nights storm, but most of it was turned into slush or moved away by the teachers for the up-coming dance. A group of loud students exited the building and all nine of them clambered into a small carriage.
"These carriages are only supposed to fit 6," Said Remus bitterly. Sirius and James were on his left and peter was on his right, making it quite a tight fit for a seat built for three. Across the way Priscilla, Sabrina and Arya were sitting next to Lily who was on Danny's lap.
"Why didn't we just split up?" Asked James, as yet another person climbed aboard. Belle walked over to Sirius and sat on his lap. She, finally, was wearing some appropriate clothes. Arya didn't even glance at them.
"So," Said Prissy, "Are we going shopping for a dress?"
"Merlin no," Said Remus "You can do that while we marvel at our luck for only having to wear tuxedos."
"Sirius you're coming with me, right?" Asked Belle; "We have to match."
Sirius looked at James, who ignored him. He sighed and nodded "Fine," He looked at Arya "You're coming right?"
Arya nodded but remained silent. The rest of the ride there consisted of small chit-chat and random talking to cover-up the awkward silence.
When they reached Hogsmeade the group split up. Remus and Peter walked with James to an "unknown" store, Priscilla, Sabrina, Lily and Danny walked to a dress shop and Arya being dragged by Sirius, who was being dragged by Belle, went to a small shop.
Arya detached herself from Sirius, to walk along the rows of colorful dresses. By the time she had a nice one picked, Belle walked out of the dressing room. The back of her red dress dipped dangerously low, the front was a v-neck, and it fell outwards to her middle thigh.
"How do I look?" She asked Sirius
"You look like a whore, try something that at least took a foot of cloth to make." Arya snapped, bitterly.
"No one asked you," Said Belle pulling up the dress even more. "What do you think, Sirius?"
Sirius smirked "I think Arya should try it on."
Arya walked into the dressing room, ignoring his comment. She looked at the three dresses she had. One was black, one silver and the other dark blue. She tried on the blue one and cringed. The color looked beautiful, but her damn hips looked huge. She slid out of it and sighed. This was going to be a nightmare. She tried on the black one and shrugged. It was ok, nothing special though, at least it hid her hips. She smirked and twirled around before taking it off.
'Last but not least' She thought holding up the crushed velvet silver one. She tried it on and smiled, it went fabulous with her complexion, but it lacked something.
"Come on Santella," She heard a snappy voice say. Arya held her tongue and twirled around. The dress was tight on the top, which was a v-neck, but loosened as it fell to just above her knees. The straps were decorated in glitter, which also was on some parts of the dress. She examined herself once more in the mirror before taking the dress off. She got dressed in her regular clothes and stepped out.
"All that and we don't even get to see it?" Asked Sirius
She brushed passed him and paid for the silver dress before exiting the shop, not looking back once.
Lily stepped into the Heads Room, bags under both arms. James smirked from behind her "Did you buy the whole store?"
Lily tried to turn around and glare at him "Christmas is my favorite holiday, James, and I'd love to look good for the dance."
She waddled to the corridor that held her bedroom. "I'm sure you will," He said picking up a few envelopes from prefects. "We got some more letters? Want to read them?" He waited a few seconds until he heard a distant "That's what our job is Potter."
"Touché Evans," He mumbled.
Lily walked out from the corridor and over to him. "What do you think they're about?"
"The dance most likely," He said glancing at them. He signed a few before giving them to his owl. "Nothing major, there were a few new plans, but nothing much."
James grabbed a forgotten letter and stuffed it in his pocket. He walked past Lily.
"Where are you going?"
He shrugged "Up to my room, I've got a few things to finish."
Her shoulders fell slightly "Oh"
"Why?" He asked "Have any meetings planned? Any new prefects I have to meet?"
She shook her head "No, it's just, well" She looked at him and bit her lip. There it was again, the feelings she wanted to hide, the feelings she wanted to deny. 'They never go away.' The line played over and over again in her head. He stood their looking at her and what was she to do? Run up to him proclaiming her love. 'I don't even know if I love him,' she argued 'Where have these thoughts come from? One minute I hate Potter and the next I'm trying to find a reason for him to stay.'
James watched her curiously. It looked like she was having a battle between her brain and heart. He made no move to stop her or distract her, not even he could help now. He slowly edged away leaving Lily standing in the middle of the room with her eyes closed in full concentration.
'Why?' She asked herself over and over 'I've never felt like this before, I'm overwhelmed by an unbelievably amount of hatred for him, yet, I couldn't be more in love. It's like I want to throw him out into traffic, and then risk my life to save him.' Her eyes opened and widened in realization. There was no way that she, Lily Evans, just admitting to loving James Potter. It was ridiculous, it was insane, it was crazy, it was...right.
A/N: BELOW THE REVIEWS.
Reviews: Wow! Thank you all so much for the nice reviews! They really do make you all warm inside. ) I also love answering them so ask any questions you'd like. Ah! And I'd be more then happy to review your story if you have one, just tell me. ) (As long as it's HP or LOTR. I really don't read any other stories so I wouldn't know what there about.)
Black Emerald: lol. Sorry for such a late up-date. xD I'm not to fond of Belle, but I think I have a plan for her. Anyway, J/L action soon. )
Lorraine: Thank you! A parody? Lol. Maybe. I tried to make Sirius and James grow up a bit mostly because they're getting older. Haha and that Danny thing. I'm not sure whose gona do the dumping. –wink- haha I write similar reviews.
Crazy4Danric: Thanks! haha we'll have to see who gets Arya in the end. Although, I'm pretty sure it's clear now who she chose.
Magicians of the Yami: Ack! I know. I owe chapters, and here I thought I was finally catching up. Lol. I hope you like this chapter. )
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A/N: I hope you all aren't mad at me for Arya's decision. ) Sorry for the late up-date. Finals this week, wish meh luck.
I tried to make the little scene with Lily as easy to understand as possible. I'm sure everyone has had a person in their life that they "think" they hate; that one person that always knows how to push you off the edge, the one who drives you insane, the one you laugh with, the one you cry for and the one you hate to love. I put a lot of me into Lily, trying to make it seem as realistic as possible. Can you guys tell me if it seems realistic?
One morning you wake up feeling different about someone, not knowing exactly when it happened. You can never get enough of them, even if you see them everyday, and after much denial you see the person in a different light.
I hope you all understand it now. Lily didn't just start liking James. A part of her liked him all along.
The whole song:
There is something that I see
In the way you look at me
There's a smile, there's a truth in your eyes
But an unexpected way
On this unexpected day
Could it mean this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along
It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along
There were times I ran to hide
Afraid to show the other side
Alone in the night without you
But now I know just who you are
And I know you hold my heart
Finally this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along
It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along
Over and over
I'm filled with emotion
Your love, it rushes through my veins
And I am filled
With the sweetest devotion
As I, I look into your perfect face
It's no more mystery
It is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved
It is you I have loved
It is you I have loved all along
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A/N: It's one of my favorite songs, because it means a lot to me. I probably sound like a romantic sap, lol, I hate it when that happens, but oh well. I guess it means a lot because I just kind of realized I really like a friend of mine, hell I'm pretty sure I love him. We've known each other for about 4 years and I was sure I hated him but then something happened, not even I know when I started to like him, I just did and lol well it's crazy. He drives me absolutely insane but I can never get enough of him. Lol.
Anyway, that's what I'm going to base Lily and James' relationship off of right now. So tell me if I'm doing a bad or good job. Thanks. )
-Moony