Ch. 45

Allie slowly opened her eyes, taking in a deep breath. She looked around the hospital room, quiet and calm which was beige with floral printed wallpaper.

"Allison, sweetie, you're awake." Her mom said.  Allie turning towards the sound of her mothers voice. Ms. Carter was sitting on an over stuffed seat, at Allie's bedside.

"Hey mom," Allie said groggily.

"How do you feel?"

Allie let a out a sigh, and took time to answer, "Like I've been asleep for days."  She finally managed with a light chuckle. "What time is it?"

"It's 1:25am"

"What? How long have I been here?"

"Almost 12 hours honey, you've been asleep for pretty long." Her mom said.

"Sweetie, I was so worried about you, I came as soon as Shayne called me."  Ms. Carter began to cry.

Allie still couldn't quite grasp what was going on or why she was in the hospital, all of this due to the anesthetics used.

"Mom, it's O.K. Please don't cry" Dazed Allison spoke tying to be of some comfort to her mother, then placing a hand on her mother's face.

Ms. Carter closed her eyes and placed her hand over Allie's, which was still on her face. "Allison, do you have any recollection of what happened?"

Allie lay quiet, thinking, trying to remember when it all slowly came back to her, *Running into Bobby at the restaurant**Getting into Bobby's car, him yelling at her, admitting that he was responsible for her being assaulted my James, the pain in her belly. Everything. * 

Allie's eyes began to water up as it all sunk in. "Oh god, I remember" she whispered.

"There's something you need to know, Allie." Her mother said in a very serious tone of voice. Allie really started to panic about her baby. "Bobby is dead."

Allison was shocked. It was as if she had to stop breathing to really take in the news. *Dead?! Bob's dead? * "He's dead?" she asked, this time aloud.

"Yes, I guess it was after that bastard attacked you that he sped off and about 20 minutes later he ran a red light, and was killed from the impact of the crossing truck."

Allie didn't say a word. She turned her head the other way and closed her eyes, a tear sliding down her cheek. She didn't know what to think; she felt anger, sorrow, fury, all her feelings mixed with sadness and relief all at the same time. She had no words to say.

Before she could ask her mother about her baby, Shayne walked in. As he saw that she was awake, Allie noticed a look between him and her mother like if he were asking her if she told her something, Allie's mom nodding her head 'no'.

"Well, I'll leave you two alone." Ms. Carter stood up, "Call me if you need anything." She said leaning over giving Allie a kiss on her forehead. "Bye Shayne"  "Bye Ms. Carter" he said before she walked out.

Shayne sat next to Allie in bed. "Hey Sleeping Beauty, how are you feeling?" He asked lightly kissing her on the lips. Allie painfully sat up w/ Shayne's help.

"Shayne, the baby?" was the first thing she asked.

Shayne shifted uncomfortably, looking away for a quick second. Allie placed a hand on his knee and he looked her in the eyes, she noticed them scared, hurt, and sad. "Shayne, please, did I lose my baby?" She asked barely able to say the last three words due to the ball in her throat from wanting to start crying.

"Allison," Shayne tried to start but had to stop, he took a deep breath and exhaled. "Allie, you went into premature labor and the doctor's had to perform and emergency sea-section." Allison's eyes filled with tears. Yet, she sat quiet waiting for him to finish.

This was probably one of the hardest things Shayne ever had to say. He didn't know how to tell Allison that they're baby didn't have much of a chance at survival.

A tear escaped from his eye and slid down his cheek, he took hold of Allie's hand and squeezed it tight. "He…he… weighs 3 lbs and he's in …an incubator in the ICU… he's barely staying alive." He let out a light sob and closed his eyes.

Tears began cascading, non-stop, down Allison's cheeks. *My baby boy is alive* Allie thought to herself, along with the sudden pain in her chest from knowing he was very ill.

At a loss of words, Allie kept looking at Shayne and knew that they both felt the exact same pain. Allison somehow managed to hug Shayne ignoring the pain from her procedure, both crying into each other's shoulders, releasing they're emotions.

Allison let go and looked into Shayne's red, tear-filled, eyes. "I've never been so scared in my life Allison. The thought of losing you terrified me. As well, does the fact that we might still lose our son…" Shayne stopped for a moment, "really hurts, and scares the hell out of me." He finished, trying to wipe away the continuous tears.

Allie placed a hand the side of Shayne's face. "Let's pray that our son is strong enough to get through this, Shayne. I have faith, and hope, that our baby will make it." She gently whispered through her sobbing.

"Oh Allison." Shayne let out, gently wrapping his arms around her, holding her never wanting to let go.

"I have faith that Jacob Thomas will make it." Shayne said.

Allie caught the name Jacob Thomas, for it sounded familiar to her. When she realized who's name that was, she smiled. "Shayne, you named him after your grandfather." She said warmly.

He slowly loosened his hold, "Yeah, I hope that's ok with you, the nurse asked me if I had a name and the first thing that came to mind was my grandfather, but we can still change it if you want, I just didn't want our baby there with no name." He said.

"No Shayne, I like it. Jacob Thomas is a good strong name. We'll keep it." She said sincerely. 

Shayne smiled, the first smile in a long while.

Allie leaned back on her pillows placing a hand on her lower abdomen, squinting from the pain.

"Baby, are you ok?" Shayne asked a hint of panic and fear in his voice. Everything and anything making him worry all of a sudden.

"Yeah, it just hurts a bit that's all." Allie answered.

"Want me to get a doctor?" Shayne said beginning to stand up. "No Shayne, its ok." Allie said placing a hand on his arm to keep him there, "I'll be fine; I guess the painkillers are starting to fade away."

"Are you sure? Maybe I should call a nurse just in case." Shayne continued, just trying to do whatever he could to keep Allison from any pain. Deep inside only being scared that any little thing might make him lose her.

"Shayne, all I want right now is to see our son." Allie said w/ a pleading look in her eye.

"Allie, he's very small and fragile…" He began before Allie cut him off. "Shayne, you said it yourself, he might… not… make it." These last words extremely hard and painful for her to say, making eyes beginning to water up again.

Shayne sighed and nodded, "Okay Allie, let's go."