A sickening silence filled the room as Shayne and the nurse returned.

Allison sat there, holding baby Jacob, not saying a word not even turning to look at them.

Nurse Hatchet rushed towards baby Jacob to check his pulse.

Allison held her lifeless son in her arms.

"No, no, no, no," Shayne said aloud as he fell to his knees right next to his fiancée.

"I couldn't let him feel alone." Allison whispered.

"Don't say that! Its not too late…nurse! Help him now!!" Shayne yelled.

"I'm sorry Mr. Wst., there's nothing I can do… it's a miracle he lasted this long." The nurse replied sadly.

Strangely, Allison couldn't cry, she held her baby, for the first and last time, an eerie silence still taking over the room. Shayne, with tears in his eyes kissed his sons forehead and caressed his head.

"It was too soon, Shayne. He was too little."

"She's right, he didn't develop enough to make it own his own. It was inevitable." The nurse added.

Shayne rested on Allison's lap, gently stroking his baby's face and body both parents crying in silence.

It was a sad yet lovely funeral. Friends and family attended, there to fully support Shayne and Allison.

Hours later after everyone left Shayne's place that same eerie silence filled his place as he and Allison sat on the couch.

Both were quiet. Minutes passed and still not a word from either one.

"Allison," Shayne whispered, very weak and barely able to speak, "so much has happened in this past year," he stopped. "I just can't believe the shit we've been through."

Allie sat there for a while, not looking at him, and not saying a word. " Shayne, I can't be with you anymore." She whispered, still looking down.

Shayne flinched, "What?" he stared at her.

"I need to be by myself for a while." She said.

"For how long? A couple of days? Weeks?"

"I don't know… all I know is that we can't be together anymore Shayne, if not forever then for a very long time." A tear slid down her cheek.

Shayne couldn't believe what he was hearing, yet for some reason understood.

"Losing my baby," she was cut off.

"You're not the only one who lost him, he was my baby too" Shayne interrupted, his eyes welling up.

Allie closed her eyes and took a deep breath then turned to look at him.

"Shayne, with effort, I can live with and get over every bad thing that happened before Jake was born." She choked on her last words.

Shayne intently listened.

"But not anymore, not this" Allie began to cry.

Shayne didn't know what to say, she was right. But losing her again wasn't something he wanted either.

"Listen Shayne," Allie began, "I need you to know that there's no other man on this earth that I love or will ever love as much I love you."

"If you still feel that way then why can't we be together and try to get through this like we've done everything else in the past?" he asked, trying to save his relationship.

"This is different, getting pregnant… losing my baby" A low sob escaped. Before Shayne could get a word in, in protest, Allie continued, "I know you lost him too, but you'll never know what its like to feel, to know, that you have a living miracle inside of you and then suddenly losing him the way I did." She paused, "the way we did."

Shayne said nothing.

Allie sighed, "I know we're both hurting. But right now, being together is not going to help us."

Shayne sat in silence for a while, taking it all in. He understood.

"This is it. Its over." The hardest, yet, meaningful words Allison said. Shayne just closed his eyes and dropped his head.

"So, what's gonna happen?" he asked

Allie looked at him, "I don't know, I have to get away from here, from this, from you, from all the memories." She pulled herself together.

"Will I see you?"

Silence.

Allie nodded 'no'. "I'm gonna go to my dad's."

Shayne didn't know what to say, Allie had never mentioned her father before. He knew almost nothing of him. "What?"

"I'm going to live him, my flight to Spain leaves tomorrow morning."

Shayne shot a double glance at her. Heartbreak.

"So this is it? It's all over, just like that?"

"Please don't make this harder. Trust me it's the best thing, for the both of us."

Shayne didn't protest, he knew that even though it was going to be hard to let her go, ending things now was the best and right thing to do.

Allison slowly slid off her engagement ring and handed it to Shayne, not without letting out a low sob.

Shayne took the ring, "I love you Allison Carter" he whispered.

"I love you more Shayne Wst" and with that she slowly stood up and walked out the door.

Shayne sat there in silence, twirling the ring around his fingers. He stood up and walked to his bedroom. He opened his drawer to put the ring away when he found that cute little green outfit Allison had bought while pregnant. With an overwhelming gush of sadness and pain, Shayne took the little suit and held it tightly as he broke down in tears. He walked over and laid on his bed, still holding that little suit, smelling in the scent of Allison from the pillow as he cried himself to sleep. Shayne woke up the next morning to the sound of his alarm clock setting off. He pressed the snooze button and sat up on his bed, trying to block out the brightness of the morning sun from his eyes. Instead of an overwhelming feeling of sadness taking over him as he remembered his break up with Allison the night before, he strangely had a feeling of tranquility as he got used to the sun. He knew that losing his son was something he wouldn't get over; it was something he would have to learn to deal with. As well as learning to deal with not having Allison anymore, but he was ok with that, it would take time, and he understood. It will be sad and a bit more painful some days than others, but as he sat there taking in the brightness of the shining sun, he knew it was going to be all right, today was a new day, and he was thankful.

Epilogue.

Three years had passed since the day Allison and Shayne broke up, since the day of baby Jacob's funeral. During that time Shayne and Allison hadn't spoken, not once. Coincidentally, Shayne had to travel to Spain to shoot some scenes for this movie he was starring in. He knew that's where Allison was, and even thought about maybe trying to contact her just to see how she was doing, but he was busy and since they hadn't talked in four years figured he probably shouldn't. Plus, Spain is big and he didn't know exactly where in Spain she and her dad were living.

"Cut!" the director yelled, "that was great! Lets wrap it up and continue this tomorrow!" he told the crew.

The cast and crew sighed from relief, they were all tired and ready to stop for the day, as they all began to clean up and say 'bye' to each other.

"Yo man, that was cool, but it was about time" Ben told Shayne as they headed back to his trailer.

"Ha-ha, I know what you mean. I'm just so hungry right now" Shayne replied.

"Same here" Ben answered.

They stepped into Shayne's trailer. "Hey do you have the rest of the day off or not?" Ben asked, as he sat on one of the couches.

"Yeah, why?" Shayne asked.

"How about we go grab something to eat and take a tour of the city?" Ben asked, "See if we find some cute honeys out there…"

Shayne chuckled; it sounded like a good idea but for some reason Allison popped into his mind, "sure."

After a couple of hours of sight seeing both guys headed back to their hotel.

"Wow, I'm tired" Ben said, as they walked under the moonlit sky. "Yeah, so am I," Shayne replied.

"Hey, you go ahead, I'm gonna go for a walk," Shayne told Ben as they reached their hotel.

"You sure? You want me to go with you?"

"Nah, its cool, I'm just gonna go smoke a cigarette in that park across the street."

"Alright, see ya later."

Shayne headed off towards the park, he couldn't help but wonder about Allison. How she was doing… if she was still in Spain… had she found someone new… Shayne dated a couple of people since Allie, and even thought he loved one of them but he turned out to be wrong, they were mostly flings. He sat on one of the benches stuck a cigarette in his mouth and was about to light it when he noticed someone standing in front of him, "I thought you quit?" this girl asked, his eyes widened as he looked up to see it was Allison.

He took the cigarette out of his mouth and stood up, nervous. "Uh, I did, for a while." He said, suddenly beginning to feel butterflies in his stomach, the feeling being mutual.

Allie took in a deep breath, "So, how have you been?"

Shayne smiled nervously, he couldn't figure out why he felt so, so, nervous. "I've been good, you know, working and stuff." "How about you?"

"Same, well, sort of, I've been going to school for a while now. I'm about to begin my senior year of college." Allie said with a modest hint of pride in her voice.

"That's really good Allison, I'm very proud of you." Shayne honestly answered.

An awkward silence came between the two for what seemed a really long time.

"Allison, I know you've been to the states a couple of times in the past three years, why didn't you ever try to contact me?" Shayne asked, not really meaning to.

Allie looked up at him with a surprised look on her face, how did he know? she wondered. "What are you talking about?" she tried to play off.

His look softened, "Allie, you weren't the only one to go to the cemetery on Jake's birthday every year."

Allie looked down, it was true, once a year she would fly back to California, only for a day to leave flowers on Jacob's grave and spend a couple of hours with her mom and Chloe. "I thought about it, but in the end I just couldn't."

Shayne sighed and nodded, another moment of silence.

"What are you thinking about?" Shayne asked her as he noticed a hint of happiness and sadness, at the same time, in here face.

God, why am I so happy to see him? No, I can't do this. Its been over for too long she thought to herself, but, those beautiful eyes, that voice, that face, how I've missed them Suddenly a feeling of sadness over-shadowing her happiness.

"Nothing" She said, not wanting to reveal what she was really thinking, "what are you thinking right now?"

Shayne paused, That I'm still in love with you, that I've been miserable these past three years, that I'm so extremely glad that I have you in front of me, that I just want to hug you and kiss you and never let go he thought to himself.

"Shayne?" Allie asked as he stared at her.

"You want the truth?"

Allie smiled nervously, "Yes" she answered, shivering a little from the cold.

"I've really missed you, Allison. God, how I've missed you."

"Shayne," Allie began.

"No, let me finish. I don't know if this will change anything, but you have to know Allie, that I love you, I still do. Trust me, I've tried to forget about you; I've tried to move on. Whether it was by dating other girls or keeping myself busy with work, non have worked. I know and understand why you decided to end things after Jake died, but we can't let that sadness take over and keep us apart forever."

Allie thought long and hard, he was right. But how would this work? She lived in Spain, he didn't. What if she got pregnant again and the same thing happened, the thought of that alone was enough for Allie to say no.

"Shayne how would this work? I have my life here now, one more year left of school. Plus, what if…" She paused, "what if something like that happens again?" she said looking deep into his eyes, "there's no way I would be able to stand going through that again."

"Allie," he said placing his hands on each side of her face, "you're definitely finishing school, even if that means me having to move over here for a year. I'll do it baby, I don't care, I'll do it."

"I know you're scared of something like that happening again, but you can't live the rest of your life being scared baby. We're still young and we can have lots of babies in the future. There's no way of knowing when it'll happen, but when it does it will be wonderful and we'll be very careful."

Allie knew he was right.

"Baby, we can't spend our lives being scared of what might happen." He ended.

A tear escaped her eye, "You're right Shayne. But I can't let you leave your life in L.A. and live over here, its just…." Shayne cut her off.

"Baby, you are my life, I don't care about where on earth I have to live as long as I'm with you. Like I said if being with you means having to live here in Spain, then I'll do it. I'll do it in a heartbeat. I love you" he kissed her on the lips.

Allie was happy, more than happy, she was ecstatic. "I've missed you so much," Allie said after their kiss.

They both stood under the black starlit sky, hugging each other as tightly as they could for the first time in three years.

"I love you Allison Carter,"

"I love you more, Shayne Wst"

The End

Thank you to all my loyal readers, I know I took long and I"m sorry for that. Its been over a year since I began writing this fanfic, and it was fun! Hope you all enjoyed and thanks for sticking with it all this time.