12 October
Dear Dairy,
Why me? Kim and I went to the doctor today. I know I said I wouldn't take her up on her offer, but I just couldn't take Karone, I didn't know why, but I just had a feeling I couldn't take her. Now I know why. My god I still can't believe it. How am I ever going to cope now? I was so scared that there might be something wrong with my baby I didn't even think about other possibilities. I didn't have any indication something might have been wrong, but I know for sure that when Marie was having Shannon and Sarah having Anna their bellies weren't as big after four months as mine is now. I should have noticed before, but for some reason I didn't. I do now though and I know why too. For some reason, who ever is out there thought it was funny to give me a twin, A TWIN. I'M PREGNANT WITH A TWIN! I was scared of having one baby, but two? I'm glad Kim was with me, because I seem to have spaced out after hearing I'm going to have a twin. Kim listened to everything that was said and will go over it with me tomorrow. I can't even remember going home, but I haven't been coaching today, that's for sure. All I know from that blur in my memory is that both babies are healthy. That's all I care about right now. I decided I don't want to know what sex they are. I also decided I'm going to Angel Grove before these two are born, so I'll have to go almost immediately after the Olympics. What am I getting myself into? Please help me.
Love,
Ashley