16 November
Dear Diary,
Nobody ever told me how hard it is to pick out baby names. Of course most people only have to come up with one name for a boy and one for a girl. We actually have to pick two each! Okay, I admit me and Andros already agreed on two boy names and one girl name, but what if these two are both girls? We just can't seem to come up with a second girl name that we both agree to, sometimes we're even so desperate we call a name we don't even like ourselves. I know Cassie and the other girls are all more than willing to help us out, but I want us to come up with names ourselves. It makes it even more special. I'm sure any mother knows what I mean. To look at your child, a part of you, imagine that child carrying the name someone else came up with. I would feel like a part of that child is not yours anymore. For when you pick the name for your child yourself, that name is a part of you, like it will be part of your child. When someone else comes up with the name, that name will be part of that person, so when you give your child that name, you'd lose that part of your child. That part won't be yours. Okay, I know that sounds silly, but that what it feels like to me and I just can't put it into words any other way. Nothing much happened this day, by the way. Just the normal routine. Carlos still isn't talking to me, but hey, I'll survive. I'm sure he'll come round sooner or later, though I hope sooner.
Love,
Ashley