22 November
Dear Diary,
I finally sat down to talk things out with Carlos today. At first he didn't want to, but he came round in the end. He told me what was bothering him so much. It's not the fact my relationship with Andros is this serious, though he does still have a slight crush on me. I almost feel sorry for him, but he says it doesn't bother him, he's glad I'm happy. Anyway what is bothering him is that I didn't turn to him when I was in need. I begged him to look at it from my situation. What would he have done in my place? Turn to someone who didn't know about the situation and explain it to that person even if it's too painful, or turn to someone who knows about it and understands my feelings for that person is in on the pain? He said he'd think about it, but I know I got through to him, he just needs to admit it. I hope I have time to sit down and talk to him and the others again soon for the training for the Olympics is getting more and more intense and taking up more and more time and when I'm not coaching I'm sleeping. Being pregnant is taking a lot more out of me than I thought, but I know it will be worth it, especially with Andros and the others by my side to support me and help me though..
Love,
Ashley