1/3/05

NOTE: read this diary and die

"Ouch!" It was Beast Boy, I could tell. He was across from me making a 'king sandwich', "Ow! I bit my lip again! Fricken fangs…" I snickered, "Rae it's not funny!" he snapped, "My lip's bleeding like crazy!" My heart stopped…

"…Bleeding?" I asked.

"Yea! Hey, hand me a napkin so I can wipe it up. It just hurts like a mother, that's all."

I looked next to my left hand where the napkins were. My mouth was watering. Just the word 'blood' made my whole body turn cold. I looked at my fingers; the tips began to turn black. "My powers…" I whispered under my breath.

"What Rae? Just get me a napkin ok?" Beast Boy's impatient nagging snapped me out of my trance.

"Here," I floated a napkin over to him. He quickly cleaned the bright, shining, glistening, luscious… never mind. He just cleaned his lip.

"Are you guys' hungry?" Robin trotted over to the counter.

"Yea, but not after I eat my 'King Sandwich!'" Beast Boy declared then quickly shoved the whole thing into his mouth and swallowed.

"Well me, Star, and Cyborg want to go out and get something. Wanna come?" Robin was looking at me, like I would care.

"Dude! I'm still hungry! Raven we have to go! I think I might die!" Beast Boy blurted.

"That can be arranged," I replied coldly.

Now Robin, totally oblivious to the conversation said, "So… are you coming?"

"Fine," I said with a sigh. I'll make myself a note: kill Beast Boy, strangle Robin. (Just kidding – I AM funny)

"Sweet!" Beast Boy practically jumped, "Where are we goin?"

Robin just smiled. I could tell this was not going to be good. And believe me, I can sense these things. I get it from my dad's side. I hate him.

Later:

We got home about five minutes ago. It's just 11:38 now. (Thank you digital clock beside my bed) Here's what happened:

Robin took the "T" car, (with all of us crammed into it, I might add), and Cy drove us to a little, random, unheard of club. I think its name was "The Black Light", but that doesn't matter. A few minutes after we arrived, someone in the club announced that tonight was karaoke night. Starfire was overjoyed, (woo), "Oh what a wondrous occasion!" She exclaimed, "Shall we speak sweet words into the metal ball of volume?"

"Naw," replied Cy, "I think just one of us should go up. It'll be a riot!" He began to laugh.

"I like t—" Starfire squealed by Robin cut her off saying, "I don't think that's a good idea Star. The last time you sang, almost all of the windows in the tower broke."

"Oh yes," She said sadly, "my apologies." She blushed. ( ---- my cheeks never get rosy pink. They are always pale as the snow… another note to myself: I hate them too)

"They don't have MY kind of music here – it's all slow" Cy complained.

Beast Boy began to play his air guitar and mumble a few words that probably meant nothing.

"I can't sing, and Beast Boy would get us kicked out." Robin observed. (Wow, he actually knew something)

Then 8 eyes were staring at ME! I opened my mouth to speak but they pushed me up to the stage and said a few things to the DJ which I did not hear because I was yelling and kicking all the way up there. (I probably hit some random people on my way up, but who cares)

"And now, our first karaoke of the night!" The DJ said on the loud speaker. Then he leaned over to me and gave me the mike, "So what do ya wanna sing?" he said softly.

"Uh…" I couldn't think so I just choose the first thing that came to my head, "…Breathe No More" That's a good song, I thought. Can I even sing?

The music started. I was singing mono tone! Like how I speak! I looked over to the team who were beside themselves trying not to laugh. I thought I would cry. Hold your emotions, Raven. I thought to myself. There was a brief interlude in the song. So I took a deep breathe and let my feelings go,

"Lie to me! Convince me that I've been sick forever

And all of this will make sense when I get better"

I looked over back to the team, they're eyes were wide. And Beast Boy, his mouth was wide open and he was drooling! (Did I do something wrong?)

"All the little pieces falling shatter

Shards of me too sharp to put back together"

I looked at the other faces in the audience. (Well, the ones I could see behind the blazing light shinning on me) They were smiling. Is that good?

"… So I believe,

Bleed! I bleed and I brea – "

It was the last chorus of the song and I just stopped. I forgot about the last chorus… and how it changed. "Bleed" it said, "I bleed."

Blood. I remembered Beast Boy's lip. I looked wide eyed over to the titans with my mike still up to my face. The DJ noticed quick enough to turn the song down to make it look like I finished. It worked. No one noticed. Not even my team. I dropped the microphone like a bee had just stung my hand.

"Wow!" it was the DJ on the loudspeaker again, "What a voice! Raven everyone! Raven!"

People were clapping they're hands and whistling and calling out to me. I didn't hear them. All I could hear was the pounding of my own heart. It became louder and louder and louder!

The titans came up to the stage. Beast Boy still had his mouth open with a fresh pile of saliva trailing behind him.

"Amazing…" he mumbled. I saw his lip. It was healed, mostly. Just a line remained. Maybe I could reopen it. Just a taste of that tempting…

"No! " I called out, "No!" I screamed. I made my powers enclose me. I looked like a shadow on the wall.

"Raven!" Robin yelled, "Don't -" he was too late. He is always too late. I had already passed through the floor and out of the building. I want to go home, I thought. And thankfully my powers took me there.

So here I am, diary. The team should be home soon. I need to hide you again. Diary, I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe it's from that one night… oh! They're here! I'll tell you tomorrow.

Good night