The Dragon Ball Diaries
By Letgo
Summary: A collection of drabbles oneshots that about the Dragon Ball Z characters as they think about the big things that happen in their lives.
Story: Failure
Rated: G
Failure
Failure. It's about the only thing I'm good at. Isn't that an oxymoron? I'm good at failing. I am Son Goten. My dad is the invincible Son Goku. My brother is Son Gohan, the genius. I am a disappointment to my mother. I'm not smart like Gohan, and out of all the male saiya-jins I'm the weakest.
I think my one good achievement was when I turned super saiya-jin at a young age. I hold the title of youngest super saiya-jin, but I have never been able to reach the second level like the others. Oh, sure, Trunks and I reached the third level when we fused. But, I haven't been able to progress past the first since then.
When I was little, I loved to fight. It was fun and it captured my mind like no other thing could. But, when Buu arrived, it was like I had never fought or even trained before in my life. It was hard but I grew up so much that day. And, I realized as I lay in my bed the night after it was all over that I wasn't meant to do battle against evil. I didn't want to waste my life fighting and protecting the world. It just wasn't what I wanted. I still liked to spar and fight against my friends, and I was fine with it as long as it was for fun or to get stronger. As long as it wasn't life or death.
I grew up protected. I mean, my big brother Gohan or mom and her frying pan kept me safe. I mean, the only violence I had ever really saw before was when Vegeta dragged Gohan away so he could fight against the strongest person left. I was enraptured with fighting then. It seemed impossible that Gohan didn't want to fight to me. I couldn't understand why he didn't like to train, didn't like to fight. I understand now, when I'm older. He liked the peace and was afraid that if he trained, it would draw evil here.
I have a theory about Gohan and myself and why we are so different. From the time Gohan was little, he was fighting to save the planet and himself. He was in a constant state of train and fight to the death. So, by the time he went to high school, he was an adult psychologically. By the time he met Videl, he was more than ready to settle down and start a family. To him, it was time and he was ready. He was an adult in every aspect.
Me, well, like I said before, I grew up protected. I got to be a kid and my whole world was brutally shattered the day Buu came. I had never seen such cruelty, such malcontent and it scared me in a way that nothing else has ever done. Not even Bebi or the Shadow Dragons scared me as much as Buu did.
I have to go now, Gohan's asking if I want to go fishing with him and Pan tomorrow. I think I'll say yes because its time I let go of the past.
A/N: Hmm, I really liked the way this turned out. I'm not really familiar with Goten and how he thinks so this was hard to write in several aspects. But, I started it almost immediately after Pride and found that it seemed to come naturally. I wondered what went on in Goten's mind. He always seems to get pushed aside, second best next to his brother and father.
And, I wondered, what would he have to say. Would he be full of resentment or would he be willing to change? Would he just want to tell his story and get it off his chest, or something else? Plus, I incorparated part of my own personal philosophy at the end. It's:
Sometime you just have to
LetGo
of the past.
And pull a 180.
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