//---Hey everyone! I'm back with another installment of TTAW. Hope that you all are excited. Hahah jk. And I must thank you all for the awesome reviews. I was shocked! I think its important for me to take some time here and thank some people.
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Anyway, on with the story. The song in Hermione's part is "Hands Down" By Dashboard Confessional. The song in Draco's part is "Give Unto Me" By Evanescence. I hope that you enjoy this chapter. Don't forget to review!!
His lips met mine with such passion and force that I could've passed out. I didn't know what to say or do, and all I knew in those few seconds was to kiss him back. His lips released mine, as though mine were prisoners of his. I didn't know what to say to him, and I felt as though I had been paralyzed by his touch. He let go, staring into my eyes.
"Well. I've wanted to do that for awhile and I finally did it," He said. I couldn't say anything back. I couldn't even believe that this was happening. It all felt so surreal to me. I just stared back at his face, hoping, praying, that he could read my mind. I just couldn't get any words to come out of my mouth.
"I guess that means you don't feel the same. Forget I even did anything," He said disappointed. He turned his back away and started to walk away. I couldn't let him get away. I grabbed his hand and turned him around.
"No," Was the only world I could mumble before his lips met mine again. I kissed him with every fiber of my being, with every ounce of love and passion that could come from my soul. I let go, staring into his eyes.
"Wow," He said. His hand touched mine and our fingers linked together as though they had meant to be that way forever.
Breathe in for luck, breathe in so deep
This air is blessed, you share with me
This night is wild, so calm and dull
These hearts they race from self-control
Your legs are smooth as they graze mine
We're doing fine, we're doing nothing at all...
"I don't know what to say," I said softly.
"You don't have to," He said, looking into my eyes. His eyes were such a beautiful ice blue that I couldn't look away, no matter how hard I tried. He kissed me again, a soft almost child-like kiss. The moment was so perfect that I had to remember to put it in my penisive when I returned home. I never, ever wanted to forget this. I wrapped my arms around his neck and rested my head on his shoulder.
"You don't know how long I've waited for this," He said. The words melted my heart. I always thought that he didn't care about anyone, and all this time I had been so oblivious to him wanting me.
"I've wanted you since the beginning of the year, ever since we got in trouble with McGonagall," I said, laughing a little.
"Really?" He said.
"Yes," I replied.
"I think I've always wanted you, even though I never could admit it to myself until awhile ago," He said.
"Mmm?" Was all that I could mutter. I couldn't believe that this was happening. He touched my chin with his hand and pulled me in for a kiss. We stumbled, never letting go, to the blanket. I fell against the sand, his hand behind my head.
My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours, to fill or burst
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer...
I needed to touch his skin, to take in his soul, to be a part of him. Close wasn't close enough for me. I wanted to touch him, see him, and breathe in every inch of his perfect ivory skin.
Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember
I'll always remember the sound of the stereo,
The dim of the soft lights, the scent of your hair
That you twirled in your fingers
And the time on the clock when we realized it's so late
And this walk that we shared together...
He was beautiful in every sense of the word. His features were flawless; even every hair on his head seemed perfectly placed. His lips were a ravishing shade of pink, as beautiful as the most gorgeous sunset. I couldn't see or think of a flaw that rested on his entire body.
The streets were wet and the gate was locked
So I jumped it, and let you in
And you stood at your door with your hands on my waist
And you kissed me like you meant it
And I knew that you meant it
That you meant it, that you meant it
And I knew that you meant it, that you meant it...
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She was beautiful. It seemed to me that I couldn't get her clothes off fast enough, couldn't touch her skin enough. It was as though as she was a thirst I could never quench, a desire that was never fulfilled. I kissed every inch of her skin, taking in her scent and taste, an almost sixth sense that was just reserved for her. I ripped the clothes off of her, and it was like an animal instinct took over me, and all I knew was to love her and to take her right then and there. She was the only girl that I had never used for sex, but had actually loved. I loved her, and that was a feeling that I don't think I have ever felt before in my life.
I've been watching you from a distance
But distance sees through your disguise
All I want from you is your hurting
I want to heal you
I want to save you from the dark
As I touched her, kissed her, entered her body, I thought about everything that happened between us. About how I found her an inch from death on the shore. I couldn't even imagine what life would be like without her. I could see trouble behind her eyes, no matter how hard she tried to conceal it. She was happy for the moment, I could see that, but I could see an underlying current of pain beneath the veil of happiness that she hid under.
Give unto me your troubles
I'll endure your suffering
Place onto me your burdens
I'll drink your deadly poison
Why should I care if they hurt you
Somehow it matters more to me
Than if I were hurting myself
Save you, I'll save you...
After I experienced one of the most powerful orgasms of my life, I collapsed next to her, staring at the stars that had just appeared. I wondered what she was thinking and I wished that I could enter her mind. She was one of the most complex people I had ever met. She was mysterious, beautiful, and ever changing. Her moods changed with the wind, her mind was an evolving sea of emotions. I wanted to make her happy, but I didn't know how.
Fear not the flame of my loves candle
Let it be the sun in your world of darkness
Give unto me all that frightens you
Ill have your nightmares for you
If you sleep soundly
Give unto me your troubles
I'll endure your suffering
Place onto me your burdens
I'll drink your deadly poison...
I laid there, not knowing whether to tell her about how I was a Death Eater, I had already been through the ceremony, been through the tests of pain and mental strength, I had the Dark Mark. I also hid other scars, from when I cut. The knife I had was stained and dull from the countless times that I had cut myself to erase the pain and suffering I felt inside. I drank too, but I could stop that if I wanted. Cutting was like an addiction to me. That's why I never took off my shirt, except for Pansy, because she already knew, and because her father was a Death Eater himself. Hermione had asked me a couple of times on the island why I hadn't taken off my shirt or worn a short sleeve shirt. I yearned to tell her, to expose my pathetic life to her, but I guess that would have to wait.
Every time she asked me, a wall of armor built up and I mumbled stupid replies to the effect that the sun didn't affect me; knowing full well that I was about to pass out. I wanted to tell -
"What's the matter?" She asked me, ripping me out of my thoughts.
"Nothing... How could anything be wrong when I'm with you?" I lied.
"There is pain in your eyes and in your face. I see it. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, but I want to know, Draco, I do. I care about you," She said.
"We all have problems. Mine are no different than anyone else's. Don't worry about me," I said, suddenly feeling stupid and awkward laying there with her.
"I see the scars, I see you never take off your shirt to hide them, I think I saw the Dark Mark, however I could be wrong, and I don't really care if you have gone bad or whatever, because my parents are Dark Wizards themselves, however I'm not - and I guess that I'm just rambling here. It would be nice if you said something," She said, out of breath.
"I cut myself when I get depressed...It's just something that I do - It's like when people get nervous they smoke... I cut. I have the Dark Mark because I was forced to. I was then put under the Imperious Curse to see how I could fight it. I was able to, but not before Voldemort had me rape several women. One of them was Bellatrix Lestrange. I do not know who the others. My father only told me of Bellatrix. I could never see her again, because the pain I caused her was unbearable. I did not know what to do or say or anything... I was lost, and still am. Yet somehow, being with you makes me feel as though I've been found. I'm such a queer for saying this to you, but it's true," I felt as though I was drained... drained from all the pain and the suffering.
"Wow. I knew you cut... but you're a Death Eater... I don't even know what to say... Do you remember raping those women?" She asked, her words choked and filled with tears.
"No... When you are under Imperious, you feel as though you are in a dream... everything happens as you want it to happen in your mind... I just saw that I was with beautiful women and that everything was perfect. I never thought that I was raping them... Never..." I said, my voice getting quiet and I stared at my feet, not able to even look at her.
"I was almost raped, Draco," She said looking at me. What?? She was raped??
"What??? By Who? When?" I had so many questions, I just wanted to find everything out from her that happened.
"You know him," Was all she said. What the hell? I knew this fucker that hurt her? It all hit me like a ton of bricks. I remembered back to when I was 14, when Blaise raped Pansy Parkinson for fun after she was shit faced drunk after the Yule Ball. She didn't remember it at all, and I wanted to keep it that way. I don't think that you want to know something like that if you don't remember it.
"It was him... Blaise... I know it was," I whispered. I could barely even say the words, because my mind was busy with thoughts of how I was going to torture him.
"It was," She said quietly.
"Where? When?" My mind was hungry for knowledge, wanting desperately to know what happened.
"It was before we came here. Like a day or two before we came here. Do you remember when I ran out of the bathroom that day? Holding my jaw?" She asked. I did remember that.
"Yeah," I replied.
"The bruise and scar - " She looked up and pointed to a scar on her jaw - "Is from him. He punched me after I told him no. I froze him with Immobulus. I don't know what happened to him after. I haven't seen him since," She said, breathing deeply.
"I knew it was him... He has done it before," I said with anger and frustration, not knowing what to do about the whole thing.
"He has? To who?" She asked, sniffling.
"I only know of Pansy Parkinson. But she doesn't even know that it happened - she was drunk at the time and passed out. I would think he's done it to others, but they're just afraid to come out because he can get... violent. I've seen his father abuse his mother for years and not being able to do a thing about it since my father was doing the same to my mother. All the years of secrecy and lies get to you after awhile. You become dull to pain... just like when I became a Death Eater. I was basically numb to the whole experience," I said dully.
"He cracked my jaw in half. I knew how to do a bone repair spell, and that's what saved me from having to go to the nurse and explain the whole thing... I didn't want to since he didn't actually rape me. I didn't want the trouble - I didn't want to be harassed for telling the truth," She replied. She sighed and laid against my chest. I felt so warm with her there, so detached from the problems of my life even though they were closer to me than I thought.
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I woke in the early morning hours with his strong arms wrapped around me. I didn't want to get up, but the fire was almost out and I didn't want to have to start it over again. I put some small twigs and watched them ignite. I put a big piece on and saw that it was well lit. I looked back at Draco and watched him sleep. The blanket looked so peaceful and warm. I crawled back in and fell back asleep once more. I dreamed a wonderful dream, that I was flying through a sky filled with golden, pink, and purple hues. Draco was holding my hand and we flew off into the sunset.
However, I woke up to a very different scene. I woke up on a hardwood floor, my joints achy and sore. It was crowded, there were many different people laying down next to me. I rolled over slowly, and saw Draco next to me, his eyes fluttering. I smiled and stared at him. I sat up, and I was in the Main Hall, seeing that everyone was just waking. Dumbledore was sitting in his usual chair, watching us laying on the floor. His face was stone like yet calm. He waited until all of us were awake and staring at him. Draco held my hand, and we looked at him.
"As you can see, you are back here earlier than expected. You have had only two weeks in your personal destination. I have some news... I don't even know how to tell you. War has erupted within our world. Voldemort has risen in power once again and tried to get Harry from his place in the monde verden. I'm sure that you all don't know what I'm talking about but you will after I explain. You never left Hogwarts. You were kept safe in an empty classroom for the duration that you have been away. Monde Verden is simply a state of mind. We place a spell on you and you believe that you are living, however you are just in a comatose state. You may notice that some of you have lost weight, have bruises, scratches, etc. Whatever happens to you in the monde verden happens to you in reality. If you die there, you die in reality. However, we have made sure that would never happen. For example, Miss Granger burnt her hand severely. She must have noticed that the healing process went fairly fast, because Madame Pomfrey was taking care of her all the while. However, that is enough about monde verden. Our world is in a state of war. Voldemort has returned. We have built an army that plans to attack his forces soon. We have protected our school as best as we can. However, with Harry a part of us, that is basically impossible. As long as he is alive Voldemort will want him dead. We need Harry out of here to protect the other students. Since all of you are over 17, you are required by our laws to join the forces. My girls, you do not have to. You can be medical aids if need be in Saint Mungo's. However, my male students do. Although it saddens me to see you go into war at such a young age, it has to be done. We need as many men as possible. Hopefully you will want to support our cause," He paused.
I was in a complete state of shock. War? Death? Destruction? Words like those swirled around in my head and I couldn't think. I might lose Draco. I suddenly started to cry, staring at the pattern of the wood, watching the lines blur together.
I thought of when the year had started, how nothing mattered to me except for my hair and makeup and boys. Everything had changed. Draco was going to war. I was going to war. Everyone was. Everyone I know and love could be killed in the process. I was going to fight, because I saw how long Voldemort has tortured us, and he needed to be stopped. I was going to fight.
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