AN: So far so good I hope it works…
Holly just stared at Lister. Lister just stared at Holly. Lister was panicking; he had just revealed his homosexuality to a senile computer. He could tell that Holly either didn't understand what he'd said, or he didn't care.
"Oh…" Said the Holly.
"Oh?" Lister repeated. "What the smeg does 'oh' mean? I'm Gay Holly! Don't you understand?"
Lister shook out everything he shook out the next words.
"There's someone on this ship…I think I'm attracted to…." Lister admitted.
There was a pause… A Very long pause.
"It's Rimmer…" Lister said at last."
"I know." Said Holly. "I've known a long time. Even before you did."
"How?" Asked Lister.
"One of my jobs is to create holograms." Explained Holly. "Do you know how it's done?"
"Yes. You use the personality from the mind of the dead crew member that was stored on disk." Replied Lister.
"Yes. And ally members who join the Red Dwarf get there person recorded as soon as they sign up right?" Asked Holly.
"Right" Lister answered
"Well it show's everything in the subjects mind. Including the far parts of the minds that for one reason or another is hidden. It told me you had a gay side." Holly explained"
"But how did you know about Rimmer?" I didn't know him before then!" Lister pondered.
"When you where arrested for taking animals on board. I made another copy of you're mind after the crew had died form the radiation leek." Holly explained. "That's when I discovered about Rimmer. Even though you Egypt told you that you hated him."
"My 'Egypt'?" Asked Lister.
"You where in Egypt about you're feelings Dave." Said Holly
"You mean 'denial'? Asked Lister.
"Exactly!" Said Holly. "So any way I read your mind disk and noticed what you really thought about Rimmer. So it was easy to know who to bring back."
Lister paused so many things had been revealed to him.
"So. That's it!" exclaimed Lister "That's why you chose Rimmer to keep me sane!"
"That's right Dave!" replied Holly. "Good one weren't it!?"
"Wait." Said Lister. "Does Rimmer feel the same way?"
"I don't know. I haven't found Rimmer's drive yet." I'll let you know" said Holly maybe look at some FF.N stories wile you wait?"
"No thank you"
Rimmer sat on his bunk thinking what to do next. Even if he confessed to Lister he'd never feel the same way. Not after the way he was and besides he was Arnold Judas Rimmer. Nothing went right for him. It sure isn't gonna start now!
Lister waited anxiously for Holly to deliver the news. But he never did.
"Holly man! What's happening?" He asked. Holly hadn't looked up from his stories.
"Well some dudes been turned into a girl." Said Holly "And if you want my opinion – I don't think this fiction ever happened in the show!"
"No Hol! Rimmer!" Lister shouted "Oh forget it! There's only one thing to do!"
List ran out of the drive room.
Rimmer lied on his bed he was thinking what would happen if he said what was on his mind. What would he do? Maybe he'd laugh? Maybe he'd be disgusted and avoid Rimmer for ages? Maybe forever? One thing was for sure he wouldn't say he felt the same because that would mean something had gone right for Rimmer and that just doesn't happen. "Damn this!" Rimmer reminded the wall that he was now Hard-Light and then lied back down.
Soon he was up again and he was heading out. And he walked threw the corridor of the new dwarf and heading up the stairs to the observation dome.
That's when he saw him…
Close your eyes; I want your hand,
Do you feel my heart beating?
Lister had gone up to the dome to find Rimmer. And now he had found him. The 2 people who all this time thought they hated each other stood there face to face.
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same?
"Dave"
"Arnold"
"I've got something to say!!" They shouted at once and then also at the same time they both stepped back. "You first! No you!" again at the same time. Lister took a deep breath. "Listen Rimmer It's umm…"
Am I only dreaming?
Is this burning an eternal flame?
"No it's ok" Replied Rimmer as he walked down the steps.
"No it's no ok!" Said Lister. "Umm how do you feel about relation ships between an human and a hologram?" he asked wondering just how stupid that line sounded.
"It's…probably ok…" answered Rimmer "But Ace isn't here!"
"No Rimmer I'm not…
Lister was cut off.
"No one knows what it's like to have another you doing much better than you – and having such an easier life!" Rimmer Moaned.
"I do!!!" Lister Shouted. "When you where gone I met this other Lister he was a much better person. I suppose that the fact he died in his world changed him or something and I bet he had problem confessing his feelings…"
I believe it's meant to be,
I watch you when you are sleeping
"Oh I get it!" said Rimmer "This is about Krissy isn't?"
"No Arnold!" Lister screamed "It's not about her, about Ace... It's about me!"
You belong with me
Do you feel the same?
Am I only dreaming?
Or is this burning an eternal flame
"Arnold Rimmer…" said Lister "I love you"
Say my name sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely
And then come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling, Ohhh...
Rimmer just stood there. All this time he was thinking of Lister's reaction when he confessed and now Lister himself had admitted that he loved him
"Listy… I feel the same way!" He stated "I love you Lister"
The 2 held on to each other they both felt the same way about each other and all this time all they'd done is lie to each other and themselves
"Dave…" Rimmer was the first to break the silence. "We have a lot of…Lost time to cover don't we?"
"Yeah" replied Lister "But…"
"Yes?" asked Rimmer
Close your eyes, I want your hand (your hand),
Do you feel my heart beating (do you understand?)
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same?
Am I only dreaming (dreaming?)
Is this burning an eternal flame (aah?)
"I think" Lister continued "I know where to start"
The two moved closer towards each other – A dream was coming true.
Say my name, sun shines through the rain
A whole life so lonely
Then come and ease the pain
I don't want to lose this feeling, Ohhh...
Close your eyes, I want your hand, (oh Ohh oh)
Do you feel my heart beating (do you understand?)
Do you understand?
Do you feel the same?
Am I only dreaming (dreaming?)
Is this burning an eternal flame? (Ahh)
They where now open about their feelings the two kissed seen only by the stars…
It's cold out side
There's no kind of atmosphere
I'm all alone – more on less
Let me fly far away from here
Fun, fun, fun
In the sun, sun, sun
I wan to lie
Shipwrecked and comatose
Drinking fresh mango juice
Gold fish shoals nibbling at my toes
Fun, fun, fun
In the sun, sun, sun
Fun, fun, fun
In the sun, sun, sun.
MJN: Well fellow Dwarfers. I'm done. I really hope that these final chapters where worth the wait I'm also really sorry I took so long to finish this one. And while I don't (Yet) have any Red Dwarf fictions planned I'm not finished writing fictions yet! Oh and that song "Eternal Flame" if you knew it. I wonder whose version of the song you had in you're mind at the time you where reading. I had Michael Jackson's! Even though he didn't write it. You got to admit he deserves some praise for singing such a great song especially as he was only a kid at the time.
"Hidden Emotions"
Story © MJN SEIFER
"Red Dwarf" © Grant Naylor Productions (GNP)