Title: Poison
Author: Miss Myers
Rating: G
Summary: Jack used to see so much passion in Nina's eyes. Now he only sees soullessness.
To me, you're poison. A lethal drug that intoxicates my system and drives me crazy for more, oblivious to the corruption that occurs inside of me. I find myself so hungry for you, even just for a glimpse of your face, or the sound of your voice, but it's tainted by the pain that you cause me, as you envenom me with your twisted mind games.
But here's how it is. I'm not succumbing to your greed for power over me anymore. I'm not going to continue my life with this addiction to you. I'm quitting.
Don't struggle to keep hold of me, because I'm determined, and this time you've pushed me over the edge. I used to want to wrap my arms around you and go against everything that my head told me was right. I'd console myself that although you were wrong, a forbidden fruit, you were the right kind of wrong. But now I see the blinding truth. The forbidden fruit was forbidden for a reason, and you were more poisonous that I ever imagined.
Just one opportunity to make you feel the pain I feel now. I'd love to mock you, as you mocked me, with that unrepenting smile, and your soulless gaze. I can't understand how I never saw it before, all those times I read passion in your eyes, when really, there was nothing there at all.
I took you into my heart, and you clawed away at it from the inside out. But I'm repairing. You'll see.
What really gets me is when I catch a breeze of your scent, and I can't help but recall being with you, and experiencing that rising feeling that I hadn't felt for so long with anyone. It's almost as if I can taste you again. Oh god, how I used to love feeling your breathe on my skin, and your body against mine.
Now the idea of being that close to you makes my blood curdle.
You betrayed me. But now that I've seen the meaning of true betrayal, at least you can't fool me again.
I still think you're beautiful. I always will. And you'll always have that something about you that I latched onto the very second we met.
Love's a strange experience. But so is hate, and now I'm getting the two confused.
Bottom line: I loved you right up until the moment I found out what you'd done. The I entered disbelief. Then confusion. Then anger. Now I've moved to hate.
But you're like a drug Nina, I just want you to know that. No matter how much I hate you, you deserve credit for your power over me.
'Cos that's rare.