Koigokoro
by Sweet-Kioku
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Inuyasha.
A/N: Okay, I know you all probably have a large variety of weapons that you wish to hurt me with. However, I beg you to put them away, since I do have an excuse. My computer crashed and I had to rewrite chapter six! But I am making it longer and better, so don't worry. I am typing this at 2:08 in the morning, so excuse any and all typos. I will double check my work. BTW, this has some Sango and Miroku fluffiness in it!! (Finally) And now, without further adieu, the long-awaited Chapter VI!
CHAPTER VI: Suicide
SLASH.
For a moment, there was silence. Everyone stared and sucked in a breath. Inuyasha had gotten up after lying on the ground for a few minutes…
…and growling.
It was happening again.
Miroku made a strange sound from his throat, stumbled, and fell forward as Inuyasha's unusually long claws sliced across his back, ripping open his robes and allowing fresh blood to seep through the cuts.
"MIROKU!!!" Sango shrieked with tears in her eyes. She deliberately ran past Inuyasha, the now full-blooded youkai, so that she could see if Miroku was alright.
Kagome's mouth ran dry as Inuyasha's hand struck out and hit Sango in the stomach, and she flew at least ten feet back until she hit a tree and was knocked unconscious.
A voice laughed several feet away. It was Naraku.
Kagome's throat tightened and the blood rushed in her ears as Inuyasha turned his blood-red gaze upon her. She made a small whimpering sound and started to back away, when suddenly Shippo came out of nowhere and did his fox fire attack.
Inuyasha growled viciously as he easily dodged the attack. He punched the poor little kitsune directly in the face, knocking him unconscious instantly, and earning more laughter from Naraku.
Kagome's eyes filled with tears as Kilala, too, tried to bite and scratch Inuyasha in her battle form. But again, it proved to be in vain. Inuyasha punched Kilala and knocked her out as well. Naraku grinned maliciously, watching the whole thing.
"Now comes the best part…" he said, smirking as Inuyasha advanced on Kagome.
Kagome's head throbbed. Her chest felt like she wasn't getting enough air. This couldn't be happening. Inuyasha had knocked all of her friends out cold within less than three minutes. And Kagome's mind chose this moment to go numb.
"Inu….Inuyasha!" Kagome whimpered, backing away from him. He was growling and grinning insanely. His demon side had complete control over him now.
"We're…..we're mates, remember!?" Kagome cried, stuttering.
Kagome shrieked suddenly when she backed into a tree. There was no escape now. Inuyasha smirked evilly.
"You….you said you wouldn't hurt me if we were mates!!" Kagome shrieked at the ever-advancing youkai.
"I fixed that, miko," Naraku said, laughing maniacally and watching the whole thing as if it were a play made just for him.
Suddenly a clawed hand reached out and, aiming for Kagome's throat, struck out at her. Kagome moved quickly and managed to gain a gash on her left arm. She screamed and more tears fell from her cheeks as fresh blood fell from her arm.
Inuyasha took this moment to notice that they were right next to a hot spring. Smirking he grabbed Kagome by the shoulders and threw her into the water. She screamed, and just as she began swimming up for air, Inuyasha's hands grabbed her shoulders again, this time holding her underwater. He was going to drown her.
Kagome writhed and struggled, but Inuyasha was a youkai and was much stronger than she was. Kagome gripped Inuyasha's wrists and tried to push Inuyasha away.
Somewhere far in the back of Inuyasha's mind, he knew what he was doing. He knew that he was hurting his koibito, his Kagome. He knew that he was killing her.
But there was nothing he could do. Normally, he would have been able to fight off his demon side better. But with Naraku around, it seemed so much harder to control his youkai blood.
Inuyasha could smell her blood and her fear and her tears, and, being in his demon state, he loved these scents. He loved draining this miko's life slowly and watching her suffer.
But there was a part of him that was struggling against his demon side. A part of him that needed to let Kagome breathe and kill Naraku and help revive Miroku and the others.
Bubbles issued from the young girl's mouth as she continued to struggle for her life. Inuyasha wanted to smirk at her and laugh at her suffering. But the part of him that wanted to let her lvie was getting stronger. It was getting more and more difficult to hold her under. He was getting weaker.
Kagome knew that this was it. Being suffocated twice in the same day didn't leave her a very high chance of living. She was going to die at the hands of the one she loved.
But if there were ever a time to die, Kagome supposed (without the ability to clearly think) that this wouldn't be a bad time. Kagome was completely out of oxygen now, and she was inhaling water. And besides, Kagome would rather die at Inuyasha's hands than anyone else's.
Soon Kagome was too weak to struggle anymore and she couldn't think. Her vision was blurred and her thoughts were mangled. Then a strange thought came into her head……
What if Inuyasha never loved me at all? What if this was all one big joke played out by Naraku? Me becoming Inuyasha's mate, and then Inuyasha ends up drowning me. And Naraku's been laughing this whole time. I bet he planned this. And I bet Inuyasha was only joking whenever he said he loved me.
At this thought Kagome's chest hurt worse, if that were possible. Her chest ached with the thought that Inuyasha had never loved her, and it also ached with the lack of air.
Kagome's head felt like it would explode as she saw blackness in the corners of her eyes.
Maybe it's for the best that I'm dying, Kagome thought, after all, if Inuyasha was only kidding about the love thing, then I have no reason to be here anymore………no reason……
Kagome lost herself in the darkness as all thoughts left her.
Inuyasha continued to fight his inner demon. Kagome wasn't moving anymore. He had to stop this. It was getting out of hand.
But before Inuyasha could stop, he felt a sharp thwack to the back of his head. It was painful, and stunned him for a moment. He let go of Kagome. She began to sink back into the water.
"YOU BASTARD!!! KAGOME!!!" shrieked a female voice. Inuyasha recognized it. It was Sango. "I'LL KILL YOU!!! I'LL KILL YOU, INUYASHA!!!" she screamed.
Sango jumped in the water, and came back up with Kagome seconds later. Inuyasha just stood there. Naraku was gone, once again.
Sango lay Kagome down on the ground and a weak Miroku stumbled forward.
"K-….Kaede! We need to take her to Kaede!" Miroku said, his breathing uneven. The gashes in his back were extremely deep.
"THERE'S NO TIME, YOU BAKA!!" Sango shrieked hysterically. "SOMEBODY DO SOEMTHING!!!"
Inuyasha was still stunned. His claws shrank, his vision was no longer red, and he could not remember what had happened over the past twenty minutes.
"Wha……what happened?" Inuyasha asked in shock. Miroku had gashes covering his back, Sango was holding a dripping wet and unconscious Kagome, and Shippo and Kilala were unconscious.
"YOU FUCKING BASTARD!!!!" Sango screamed at the top of her lungs.
"SANGO!!" Miroku barked, grabbing her shoulders and shaking her harshly. "GET A HOLD OF YOURSELF RIGHT NOW!! If you want to save Kagome, you need to stop screaming at Inuyasha AND GET HER TO KAEDE!!!"
Sango looked at Miroku. He had just yelled at her.
"Come on!" Miroku said, turning away from Sango's surprised expression. He weakly stood up and began walking. He did not look at Inuyasha.
Kagome found it very hard to breathe. Once again, she survived. Kaede had been able to save her life.
Miroku had carried Shippo and Kilala. Sango was alright, and Miroku and Kagome were the only ones with serious injuries.
Inuyasha was nowhere to be found.
He had to be quick about this, before anyone came looking after him. He had saved one half of the broken tetsusaiga. Although it couldn't harm a demon, it could easily harm a human or a hanyou. It was a broken but very sharp piece of the tetsusaiga with the hilt still attached.
Breathing rapidly, Inuyasha clutched the hilt of the tetsusaiga so hard that his knuckles were white. He pointed the sharp end of the broken sword directly at his chest. He had to do this. He needed to do this. For Miroku and Sango. For Shippo and Kilala and Kaede. But most importantly, for Kagome.
He couldn't protect Kagome anymore. He couldn't protect Kagome from himself.
But in way, he could. If he killed himself, it would just be better. Kagome would be able to live out the remainder of her life without fearing him. He wouldn't hurt her anymore.
Today was too close. Today, he was seconds away from killing Kagome. Not minutes. Seconds.
If Sango had not hit him in the head with the hirakotsu, Kagome would have died.
Inuyasha was shaking. He was afraid.
"Where is he?" came Kagome's soft voice from the small bed in Kaede's hut.
Everyone fell silent.
"We don't know," said Sango darkly, "and we don't care."
Silent tears slid down Kagome's face and unto the pillow.
"Can we please find him?" Kagome said, her voice shaking.
"No," came Sango's harsh reply. "We're not going to today, or tomorrow. Or any other day. Inuyasha left, so let him go and hope he stays wherever he is. Which is hopefully hell."
"Sango!" Miroku warned, glaring at her. Sango was immediately silenced and Kagome audibly sobbed.
"Don't worry, Kagome. We'll find him," Miroku said, but Kagome could tell by his tone that he was lying. They all hated Inuyasha now. And it was all because of her.
Kagome painfully sat up and put her feet on the ground. The others stared at her like she was insane.
"Kagome, where in the seven hells do you think you're going!?" Sango snapped at her.
"To find……Inuyasha……" Kagome gasped out. Her left arm hurt, a well as her chest and her head was pounding. She felt nauseas. But she had to go find Inuyasha.
"No," Sango hissed, grabbing Kagome's wrist.
"Kagome, be reasonable," said Miroku in a voice of deadly calm. "Inuyasha nearly killed you today. Why would you want to go and find him?"
That did it.
"BECAUE I LOVE HIM, YOU MORONS!!!" she screamed so loud that she woke up the neighboring villagers.
Everyone stared at her in shock. Sango had loosened her grip on Kagome's wrist, giving Kagome the perfect opportunity to escape.
And so she did.
"KAGOME!!" Sango shrieked after her. Sango was about to go after Kagome herself, when she felt a hand on her shoulder."Let her go," Miroku said in a hoarse whisper.
"But……" Sango said. She began to cry. "Kagome almost died, Miroku!! Don't you get it!?" Sango cried frantically.
"Of course I do," Miroku said softly. "But Kagome would rather die than be without the one she loves. She would willingly give her life to be with Inuyasha. Just like I would give my life to be with you, Sango."
Sango stiffened and did not look at Miroku. She slowly turned to face him.
He embraced her and she began to sob in his arms.
The woods were quiet. It was well past midnight. Once again, Kagome was out looking for Inuyasha in the darkness after being injured by him.
"Inuyasha!?" Kagome called out his name several times, but she was greeted with no response.
She continued walking for another half an hour, still finding absolutely nothing. She was tired and felt ill. She called his name hoarsely once again for the millionth time, when suddenly she heard a dog-like whimper several feet away.
"Inuyasha?" she called, going in the direction of the whimper.
Suddenly a wave of dread washed over her. She saw Inuyasha curled up into a ball several feet away. He wasn't moving. He was lying in a pool of his own blood.
Her heartbeat quickened.
"Don't come near……me……Kagome……" Inuyasha said in a hoarse, quivering voice. "Go…go back to Kaede's and……pre……pretend you never saw me…"
"Inuyasha, what happened!?" Kagome cried, racing over to his shivering form.
"I said, don't come near me, d-dammit!" Inuyasha stuttered, choking slightly. But Kagome was close enough now to see a shriveled, broken half of the tetsusaiga in Inuyasha's hand. And it was covered in blood.
"Inu……Inuyasha…" Kagome stuttered. She was shocked. Tears were welling up in her eyes.
"Kagome……please go. You're…not making this any……any easier…on me……" Inuyasha stuttered. His breathing was ragged and uneven. He was dying.
"Did you do this to yourself?" Kagome gasped, now sobbing.
"Dammit, will you get the hell out of here!?" Inuyasha barked, finally looking up at her. He choked for a moment as he saw her. She was alright. He was so glad.
"Inuyasha, why!!??" Kagome shouted at him, hysterically crying as she fell on her knees beside him.
"I almost……almost killed……you……to……today, Kagome…" Inuyasha stuttered. His voice was getting quieter. "Can't……let it happen……again…"
"SANGO!!! MIROKU!!! SOMEBODY HELP!!!!" Kagome screamed at the top of her lungs. Kagome was beyond reason.
"God dammit, Kagome! Shut……shut up! I d-don't want help! I……have to……to……" Inuyasha trailed off. His mind was getting foggy and he couldn't think straight, or talk for that matter.
"HELP!!! PLEASE!! PLEASE!!!" Kagome screeched. She was shaking violently and sobbing. "THIS IS ALL MY FAULT!! SOMEBODY HELP!!"
"No……my fault……" Inuyasha murmured. His eyes were out of focus.
Kagome was absolutely hysterical. Inuyasha was dying and no one was coming. Why wasn't anyone coming to help!?
"Hurry, Miroku!" Sango cried after him. The two were running as fast as they could to find Kagome. She was screaming insanely and it sounded like something was really wrong.
"I'm trying," Miroku huffed. Kagome was definitely in trouble by the way she was screaming.
"What if Inuyasha turned demon again?" Sango asked as she ran.
"I pray to Kami that isn't the case," Miroku panted.
Sango nodded and focused on following Kagome's voice.
"Please……stop……K-Kagome……" Inuyasha whispered. Kagome could hardly hear him.
"Inuyasha, you need help!!!! YOU CAN'T DIE!!" Kagome screamed at him. She was afraid to touch him for fear that he might die right then.
"I……have to……pro……tect……you……" Inuyasha choked out. He stopped breathing for a moment.
Kagome's heart stopped.
"INUYASHA!!???" Kagome screamed, bending over him. His chest wasn't moving. No part of him was moving.
Kagome screamed. She screamed a long scream. She shook Inuyasha. She smacked him in the face. She even kissed him. He didn't move.
"NOOOOO!!!!" Kagome screamed hoarsely. Her throat ached and so did her head and her chest.
Kagome looked at Inuyasha for a long time while sobbing uncontrollably. Inuyasha slowly opened his eyes.
"INUYASHA!!" she screamed.
Inuyasha mouthed the words "I love you" and then closed his eyes again.
A/N: TWO AND A HALF HOURS OF WORK, PEOPLE!! YOU HAD BETTER HAVE LIKED IT!! Lol! R & R, pwease!! Thankies!! And by the way, I know it looks like Inuyasha just died, but don't worry. Things will work out. I promise.