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Chapter Eight: Teach Me How to Live on

Inuyasha put away the rest of the remaining firewood in a corner of the hut where some other things were. He smiled and looked around, 'Finally, the damn place is clean.' He thought proudly. He knew Kagome would be happy that he did such a good job on cleaning since he didn't do it often. He wanted to surprise her and so went to go find her.

Suddenly, Inuyasha smelt tears and straight away felt his heart sink. Was Kagome in danger? No, he didn't smell fear or anything like that, only.. sorrow.

Inuyasha's facial expression changed from concerned to heartbroken. He knew very well why she was crying.

The hanyou straightened his posture and slowly walked to the room where she was with Shippo. The small fox demon always slept here, heck he practically lived here. But no one minded, both Kagome and Inuyasha had enjoyed his company. Well, mostly Kagome.

As he kept walking in the direction of the room, he passed by a small window, which he looked out of.

He saw that millions of shimmering diamonds scattered the dark heavens so beautifully that he caught himself almost stopping in mid step to gaze at them. He found this astonishing somewhat, to still be awestruck by the beautiful sky even though he saw it like this every night. Yeah, the sight was that breathtaking.

Inuyasha shook his head, he had someone to cheer up at the moment and that's what he was going to do.

Even though the hut was filled with a faint light, he saw perfectly with his sophisticated eyesight and already saw Kagome sitting by Shippo before he reached the entrance of the room.

He stopped at the doorway of the room and saw what he expected.

Kagome was crying without a sound as she watched Shippo sleep.

Inuyasha ever so silently walked to Kagome. He knelt down behind her and placed his hands on her shoulders. Kagome did not falter; she sensed his presence and therefore welcomed it. Kagome lowered her head, her bangs covering hereys, and brought a hand on Inuyasha's that was on one of her shoulders. Inuyasha felt her body shake with a sob for just a second.

"Why?...Why can't I just move on?" He heard her whisper after a moment's time passed.

Inuyasha squeezed her shoulders gently to let her know he was there for her as she went on.

"Inuyasha, a part of me wants to move on, but the other doesn't. If I do move on, I fear that I will stop thinking about them. I don't want that. I don't want to stop missing them."

"No one said that you have to." Inuyasha spoke to her softly as he came closer to her and rested his chin on her shoulder. Kagome smiled and brought her head up to lok at Shippo like she was doing before.

"But, why?...Why must my heart be this way whenever I think of them? Why can't I be happy when I think of my mother and brother instead of feeling depressed." Kagome said as her shoulders shook with a sob.

"Why can't they just be here with me?" She cried desperately and turned around to hug Inuyasha.

"Kagome." Inuyasha whispered in slight surprise as he now hugged her back. He felt her large stomach against his and felt so much love build up inside of him.

Why Kagome feels this way, she did not now. She just knew that she wanted just this one thing. Was it really too much to ask for?

"Kagome, it's alright to miss them and be sad. You're suppose to." He said soothingly to her.

Inuyasha knew exactly how she was feeling. When his mother died, he felt so much grief and despair that he wanted to die, just to be with his mother because he was left on his own to fend for himslef, when he was nowhere near ready to do yet.

That should never happen. No innocent child deserved such a fate. At that time in his life he discovered that to be alive, but alone, is such a painful sadness that take over your soul and makes you change over time. This was why he is like he is. That's why he trusted no one when he met Kagome once he was set free from his supposedly eternal slumber. Remembering all of this, Inuyasha knew that it wasn't an easy thing, to escape a past you can't bury.

"I know, but I only wish to be happy when I think of them than sad, I know it's not what they would want." She said and couldn't help but smile at the thought. She didn't know why, but she grew joyous at the moment.

She didn't know if it was because of Inuyasha's love for her, the baby that was soon to come into this world, or both. But she was just happy now, and not sad....(Damn these mood swings)

Kagome pulled back from the hug and kissed him softly on the lips. Once she pulled back she smiled, "Thank you Inuyasha, you always know how to make me feel better."

Inuyasha just smiled and kissed her like she did him. His smile unexpectedly turned into a grin, "Yeah, I guess I'm just nice like that." He bragged with a sigh.

"Oh shut up, or do you want to sleep in here instead of with me tonight?" She smirked.

Oh, she was good.

"Okay." Inuyasha said silently and stood up to help her stand up with him. Kagome suddenly laughed as she looked at his face. He thought she was being serious about it!

"Inuyasha! Stop frowning. I'd never make you sleep away from me." She said and hugged him. He felt his hopes rise again until Kagome said, "But I will if you manage to get me angry enough to." Inuyasha thought about this and agreed. He was quite excited. Now, he planned on breaking a world record of not making Kagome mad in less than seven hours. It had always been six hours or less whenever Inuyasha managed to piss her off. But no, that record's gonna be broken baby.

Suddenly he and Kagome looked at Shippo. They feared that they were being too loud and would wake the fox demon, but as they looked at him they saw that he was still sound asleep. Kagome breathed a small sigh of relief.

"He sure is a heavy sleeper." She said and smiled. Inuyasha nodded but then suddenly turned to look at Kagome, "You're the heavy sleeper here. Just a week ago I had to practically drag you out of bed just to wake you." He said to her and laughed.

"Only cause I was very tired." She replied as they walked to their own room. Inuyasha muttered a 'whatever' as they crawled into bed.

Kagome, of course, lay on her back. It was the only position she could sleep in and it bothered her sometimes because she was always used to sleeping on her side. But as weeks passed, she learned to just deal with it and not complain.

Inuyash laid on his side, lucky him, and hugged Kagome as she hugged his arms that were around her warmly. Kagome yawned and laid her head against his chest.

They fell asleep listening to the wind softly blow against the frozen leaves and bushes that were outside, and what they dreamt of that would complete their lives forever, was their child.

The skies were gray the next morning. But this was expected because that's how it always was every winter.

Kagome shivered in her spot next to Inuyasha and snuggled up to him as much as she could. Inuyasha responded by hugging her tighter and breathing warm breath on her head next to her ear. Kagome giggled when she felt it and tried to move away from him but he kept his firm hold on her.

"Come on Inuyasha, let's get up and start a fireplace." She yawned and tried to get out of his grasp. "Inuyasha, come on, not again." She said and just decided to give up and lay back down, too weak to fight him.

The hanyou smiled and loosened his hug on her, "Oh quit your whining, I was only teasing." He said and kissed her cheek. Kagome laughed and slowly sat up, "Yeah I know."

"Kagome? Inuyasha? Are you guys up yet?" Asked a small voice that could only belong to a certain fox they knew.

"Yeah yeah, we're up what is it?" Inuyasha said as he walked out of his room. Shippo looked slightly confused, "Hey, where's Kagome?" Inuyasha stretched his arms up and responded, "She's changing clothes, now come on, we've got stuff to do today."

"Okay, but what are we going to do?" Asked Shippo as he sat by the pile of wood Inuyasha was setting ablaze.

"We're going to hunt for food of course, go to Sango and Miroku's place, and help Kaede out with anything she needs to have done that she can't do herself." Replied Inuyasha as he sat down with Shippo by the fire.

Kaede was aging yes, but she was the same stubborn priestess that never gave up on helping people. Now that Inuyasha thought about it, she certainly took after her older sister.

The hanyou's face saddened a bit at the thought of Kikyo. He would never forget her.

At one time, she was just like him.

Alone, an outsider, and different.

Inuyasha respected her very much. She was the one who healed his inner wounds and made him feel as though he was no different than anyone else. However once Kagome came into his life, she did the same for him, but in a different way, a better way. Over time he learned more about Kagome and very soon discovered that she and Kikyo were just about nothing alike.

Inuyasha didn't want them to be alike though. He loved Kagome just the way she is. She had shown him to trust people, rely on friends, and grow to love the ones around you that are close to your heart. Inuyasha had trouble with this at first, but now, as each day passed by, he had done all these things little by little before and never noticed it.

As the few years passed by looking for the jewel shards with Kagome, he grew to trust her, rely on her, and love her. And because of that alone, he was able to go on living without guilt, to make his dreams come true, and to face his mistakes without judgment, things he was never able to attain before.