Prologue

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"Sam you're pregnant." "I.....I can't be. We were careful. How am I'm going to tell Alex? I can't be." Abby looked at her straight in the eye and said it again, "Sam you're pregnant." Sam looked down at her belly and when she didn't answer Abby said, "Do you want me to page Luka for you?" Sam shook her head no. "I'll tell him. Please don't tell anybody." "I won't." She stood there for a minute and then realizing that Sam needed to be alone she left. Sam felt like she had failed again. She was 15 when it first happened and now she was 25, almost 26, in the same situation as before. She gathered her things and ran out of the hospital. As she ran by Abby she nodded, as to say that she would tell Susan where she went. But as she rushed by Luka and he called out to her she felt her heart break. She couldn't tell him and risk the disappointment and hurting like before. She rode the L home to her and Alex's apartment. He was going to come home in 30 minutes, just enough time to pack their bags and have the car ready in time. She ran around grabbing things and pushing them into bags. 30 minutes later the door was pushed open by Alex and he walked in. "Mom?" "In your room." Alex walked in and saw the suitcases on the bed. "Where are we going?" Sam turned around and said "We're leaving." "Why?" he asked." She looked at the floor and whispered "......I'm pregnant." "What?" Alex asked. "I'm pregnant." She said a bit louder. "Did you tell Luka? Why are we leaving?" "Just help me finish packing." "Mom!" "Alex" "You didn't tell him?" What could she say? No I didn't tell him because I'm afraid he would leave me and you like you're father did. "He told me he didn't want to see me any more." "No he didn't. You're lying. He wouldn't do that. I can't believe you're making me leave." Sam slammed the suitcase shut and said "Alex go get in the car." "No!" "Alex!" "Is it my fault you're a slut and you can't keep your legs together. Why should I have to move?" Sam eyes filled with tears "I'm so sorry. I screwed up again." She ran out of the room and locked herself into the bathroom. Alex followed her to the bathroom. He heard he crying and knocked on the door. "Mom?" he asked. "What?" "I didn't mean it. I'm sorry." The bathroom door clicked open and a teary-eyed Sam appeared. "No you're right. I'm only trying to do what's best for you and, now, this baby." "I know." Sam hugged her son. "Please just go pack." He nodded his head and went to his room. As Sam watched him pack the phone rang. Hoping it wasn't Luka she answered the phone. "Hello?" "Sam what happened? Why did you leave?" "Luka?" "Yeah." There was an awkward silence until Luka said "Sam what's wrong?" "Nothing. I have to go. Alex wants me." "Can you put him on the phone?" "No." "Okay. Am I still coming over tomorrow?" "No you can't." "Sam please tell me what's wrong?" "Nothing I have to go." "Okay. I lov.." But before he could finish he heard Alex say he was packed and Sam said Bye and slammed the phone down. They were going to run.

Sam helped Alex put his suitcase in the car. They got in and after making sure he was buckled he took off.

Luka pulled up his car next to the apartment building and parked. He jumped out and ran up the building to Sam's apartment. Taped on the door was a note.

Luka,

Please don't be mad. Alex and I had to do away for a while. We probably won't come back. Please don't try to find us. I love you.

Love,

Sam

He stood there and vowed to find them.