Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon, I wish I did but I don't, nor do I own any of the characters from the show, but I am bound to add others that come from my warpped imagination so they DO belong to me, as does this story line.
Not What I Seem
Chapter six
Serena sat curled up on the white lounge chair in her room. There was piano music coming from her stereo and a warm bubble bath was filling up as she sat deep in thought.
'I shouldn't have made him leave so quickly'
#FLASHBACK#
"Sere…what's wrong?"
She blinked to regain her focus as he pulled her from the horrendous memory of her childhood trauma.
He had a worried look on his face, and she instantly knew he cared for her.
More then any man ever had.
Enough to possibly, one day, love her.
Too much.
She pushed her chair out from under him and flashed him her brilliant smile that she knew from experience no man ever said no to.
Darien knew when she smiled at him that something had changed. She had stoped using that smile after he had joined her in the shower earlier that morning.
"Darien, I'm not feeling too well, I think I'm tired, you wouldn't mind if we cut our evening short now would you?"
She didn't look at him; instead she stared at the floor, as if ashamed of what she was saying. He shrugged knowing that arguing with her was pointless he wouldn't get anywhere with her at the moment he may as well give her her space.
"Sure Sere, as long as you're sure you're going to be ok, I don't mind leaving you to get some sleep."
With that he pushed himself away from the table and went to pick up his plate,
"Just leave that Darien; the maid will clean up, just go."
He walked towards her and leaned in to kiss her goodbye, instead she turned her head and he kissed her cheek lightly.
She tried to ignore the hurt in his eye as she turned away from him.
"Goodbye Darien."
He gave a slight bow. "Goodbye Serena."
With that he turned his back on her and walked out of the room with out turning back.
'No man is to be trusted Serenity, don't ever fall in love, you are blinded to all common sense you once had inside your pretty little head. You don't need any man to lean on when you have faith in yourself. The only person you can ever trust is yourself…"
Serena eased herself slowly into the steaming bubble bath with these words going through her head. The final words her mother said to her as she died.
#FLASHBACK#
Serena silently pushed open the cupboard door and peeked out. Her father was gone; she didn't know how long she had been hiding or how long he had been gone for. Looking up she spotted her mother lying face down on the floor she had obviously fallen off the table some time ago but had no energy to move from the position on which she had landed.
Looking around for her father once more, the young Serenity sped out of the cupboard and ran to her mother. She sat down next to her and gently struggled to turn her. She heard her mother groan at being moved but with effort Serena had her mother lying on her back with her head resting on her lap.
Her clear blue eyes stared up at her young daughter, who had tears in her eyes. Her face showed stress as she gently lifted her bruised arm to place a fallen section of golden blonde hair behind her daughter's ear.
Serena sniffled as she took hold of her mother's now bloodied hand.
"Mummy…"
The tears were now streaming down her porcelain face as she watched her mother cough and try hard to hide her difficulty to breathe.
"Shhh…please Serenity, don't cry my beautiful daughter."
Hearing her mother's voice brought Serena back to her senses and she dried her tears and using her nightdress she tried to clean some of the blood stains off her mother's once beautiful soft skin. Ilene flinched as the soft material touched her skin and she coughed again making Serena pull back and look on with fear evident in her eyes.
"Darling, do not worry about me, this is what fate had planned for me, for now I shall be able to watch down on you and always guide you through life. Do not cry for me, but learn from what you have witnessed no man is to be trusted Serenity, don't ever fall in love, you are blinded to all common sense you once had inside your pretty little head. You don't need any man to lean on when you have faith in yourself. The only person you can ever trust is yourself."
She broke into a huge coughing fit and Serena noticed a tinge of blood on her hand where she coughed. She relaxed and closed her eyes.
Ilene died right there with her head on her daughter's lap and her hand being held by the one person in the world who loved her most.
Serena sat in the bath her eyes closed and tears streaming down her face. She had cried an ocean of tears over the death of her mother, and never would she forgive her father for what he had done. Still she could not even think about the fact that he had gotten away with it.
In a way she thanked him, for he had shown her what men were like, between the two of them, her father and mother had taught her that she needed no one but herself and that men were just to be used then thrown away, just as her father had done and probably still did to all his whores he used while her mother was still alive.
They had an unspoken agreement, he realised that she knew he was responsible for her mothers' death, but Serena was realistic and knew that her father was way too powerful to allow himself to be held responsible by the authorities.
Eventually the water turned cold, the bubbles dissolved and the sunlight that filtered through the lacy curtained windows disappeared and was replaced by the silvery light of the moon. Serena blinked and shivered, she had long lost track of how long she had been sitting in the bath lost in her sea of memories but the cold brought her back to reality. Grabbing a fluffy white towel she stepped out of the bath and dried herself with the soft material. Wrapping a long white robe around her body she walked over to her bed and sat down as she dried her hair. She desperately needed someone to talk to but she had made Darien leave and wouldn't allow herself to trust him enough to tell him her story and Mina wasn't due back home till morning.
Picking up her phone she dialled Raye's number hoping the girl would be home.
Raye lay lazily on her couch flicking through channels on their small television, a bowl of warm popcorn on her lap and her mother sitting on the floor beside the couch, both waiting for the late night movie to start. The phone ringing startled the two out of their silence and Raye reached to pick it up, as her mother settled back down to enjoy the movie.
"Hello?"
There was silence on the other end of the line and Raye looked puzzled and tried again.
"Hello? Raye speaking."
This time there was a muffled sniffle on the other end before Serena spoke up
"Raye its Serena."
She sniffled again trying not to cry.
Raye sat up and walked out of the room with the phone in her hand headed towards her bedroom.
She was worried now, this didn't sound like the normal Serena they all knew.
"Sere, what's wrong? Are you ok?"
There was a short silence on Serena's end of the line before she replied.
"Raye are you busy tonight?"
"No, not really, I was only planning on lying on the couch watching movies all night. Why? What's wrong Sere?"
Raye was now sitting on the edge of her bed already thinking of what to take to Serena's with her, obviously the girl did not need to be alone tonight so she would go keep her company.
"Sere….."
Serena interrupted Raye's next question.
"I'm ok Raye, I…I…I guess I…I just don't want to be alone tonight…"
Still worried Raye walked around her room collecting bits and pieces to take with her.
"Its kool Sere, I'll be there in about half an hour, we'll have a girls night, I'm guessing Mina is still with Andrew, so we can talk when I get there if you like."
Serena smiled with a little relief, she knew she could always rely on her friends when she needed them.
"Thankyou Raye. See you soon."
With that the two hung up and Serena sniffled again.
Raye sat down again on her bed trying to figure out what could have gotten Serena so upset, no matter what the girl said it wasn't just that she didn't want to be alone tonight, she needed some serious cheering up and raye knew exactly what to do. She picked up the phone again and dialled a new number.
It rang only once before it was answered.
"Hello?"
"Hey Lita? Its Raye."
The tall brunette was standing in her kitchen watching her oven closely waiting for her latest batch of cookies to finish cooking. With the phone held between he shoulder and her ear she mixed the next batch of muffins.
"Hey Raye, what's up?"
Raye could hear her mixing and new that Lita would be willing to help Sere.
"Ummm I just got a call from Serena, there's something wrong and she sounds like she needs some serious cheering up, I thought we should all go over there and keep her company for the night…if your not too busy that is."
Lita stopped mixing for a second, then picked up the mixer again and continued, not wanting to ruin her newest batch.
"Of course girl, pick me up and we'll take these muffins and cookies over to her, I'll call Amy and get her to meet us here if you want."
Raye smiled, leave it to Lita to have the perfect cure for whatever was up with Serena.
Raye hung up after talking to Lita for a bit longer and packed up some of her candles and incense, she figured that anything she could use to help Sere was worth it.
Lita hung up from raye and dialled Amy's number hoping the girl wasn't too busy to do some serious cheering up.
A breathless Amy answered the phone; she was running on her treadmill and watching a medical conference on her television.
"Hello, Amy speaking."
"Hey Ames it's Lita, are you busy?"
Amy turned the speed down a notch and kept running.
"Well that depends what you want me to stop my workout for Lita."
The two laughed.
"We're all going over to Serena's place, Raye spoke to her and there's something wrong so we're going to keep her company."
Amy turned the machine off altogether and walked towards her bedroom still breathing heavily.
"Sure thing Lita, I'll meet you at your place in about twenty minutes, I need to have a shower and then I'll leave. Is everything ok with her?"
Lita shook her head wishing she knew the answer.
"I'm not sure Ames, but Raye seemed to think she needed come cheering up. See you in twenty Ames."
Shortly after the three all piled into Raye's car and headed towards Serena's place. Lita held two huge plates, one full of many different kinds of muffins and the other with cookies galore. Raye had candles of every colour of the rainbow and incense as well as several bottles of alcohol to help Serena's mood. Amy had a box of DVD's, her entire collection on chick flicks with every hot male actor a girl could want. Everything was piled into the back seat with Amy as they drove into Serena's driveway, they looked upon the house, it never ceased to amaze them, it was bigger then all their houses put together and it loomed above them as the drove to the door.
There were no lights that could be seen from the front turned on and upon looking at her watch Raye noticed it was only 9:30. Fishing through her purse Raye found the key she always carried in case and pushed it into the lock opening the door and closing it silently behind the rest of the girls. Quietly they walked up the grand staircase, past the kitchen and up the hallway towards Serenity's suit of rooms. There was a quiet noise coming from one of the rooms and the girls walked towards it. Serena's bed was huge, it was a king sized and seemed to take up most of the room. Lying right in the middle, curled into a ball was Serena who was crying quietly, her sobs causing her body to shake and she continued to cry with her back faced to the door. The girls watched her, their hearts breaking to see their best friend in this state.
After a few moments, Raye could no longer handle just standing there watching, she rushed over to the bed and wrapped her arms around the girls tiny frame. Not seeming surprised at all, Serena curled up in Raye's' arms and rested her head on her chest, she seemed calmer knowing she was no longer alone, although the sobs still racked her body.
Lita and Amy watched for a few more moments, then placing the packages they were holding on the plush floor they followed Raye's actions and rushed towards the bed. The both crowded around the crying girl and held each other as Serena calmed down and slipped into am exhausted sleep. When the blonde was finally asleep Raye looked up worriedly at the other girls. Their normally bubbly, cheerful, sunny Serena, did not even resemble her regular self, her eyes had bags under them and she occasionally sobbed in her sleep, whimpering every now and then. Raye nodded at Amy as the girl got up and picked up the phone lying on the table next to the bed. She punched in a number and waited for the phone to be answered.
After a few rings it was answered
"Hello…?"
Hey guys I'm back finally. Exams are over! School is over! Now the only thing occupying my time is the endless search for a job to fill my days. So sorry to all my loyal readers who have been awaiting the next chapter here it is, and due to some major unexpected inspiration I am about 3 pages into the next chapter as well. Sorry to all who expected something major to happen, this is just sort of a filler chapter, the next one will be alot more exciting I promise, I'll get it up asap. Please Read and review I love hearing that Im not just writing this for myself. I don't mind if you flame, constructive critasism is always welcome.
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Heaven Sent Angel