Chapter 3

This is Phoebe's POV on the last five years.

BTW, this story is dedicated to RachelSnape17, Cole-Phoebe-lover, and Evil Angel. You three are my idols!

If you have read a really good Cole/Phoebe fiction recently, plz review and tell me. Cole/Phoebe fiction rocks!

If you would like me to write anyone else's POV on the last 5 years, plz review and tell me. If you would like me to just get on with the story, plz review and tell me! In short, plz review!

So you can understand my story and me a little better, I have decided to tell you how I feel about everyone in the Charmed-universe. So here it is ladies and gentlemen!

Cole: Best person ever! Sweet, kind, funny, intelligent and generally amazing. Phoebe didn't deserve him.

Phoebe: Evil bitch. Stupid airhead. Doesn't realise a good thing when she sees it. I used to like her, in fact she used to be my 2nd fav character, but I am completely devoted to Cole, and I couldn't BELIEVE the way she treated him. She only ends up happy in this story cos it's necessary to make Cole happy.

Piper: Okay.

Leo: Not bad

Paige: Good! She was always fair to Cole, and realised when he was evil and couldn't be trusted, and when he was telling the truth. Smartest sister!

Miles: Rebound guy. Not really even worth mentioning

Jason: Evil home wrecker. A plant by Brad Kern to make us forget our beloved Cole. It will never happen!!!!

Brad Kern: EVIL! MUST BE KILLED!

Scriptwriters of S5: When I take over the world and become Dictator of the Planet, they will be rounded up and shot.

Phoebe lay on her bed and thought back over the last ten years. So much had happened. She had found out she was a witch, she had finally met her mother, her sister had died, she found out she had another sister, she'd gotten married; she'd been pregnant, gotten divorced and become an aunt. And yet, although all these things had happened, the most surprising thing of all was her love for Cole, the way it continued to hold on throughout everything. She hadn't seen him for five years, yet still she couldn't forget him. What was it about him?

She remembered the day he tried to open the Nexus. She really did believe that she had gotten over him that day. She said that she would never look back, and she believed it with all her heart. And it was true. She hated who he was, who he had become. She could never hate Cole. In her mind, they had become completely separate. Cole, and this evil thing, this disease that seemed to take over him at times. Yet, if Leo was to be believed then he had conquered it forever. But Phoebe knew differently. He could never defeat it. It was only sleeping, not dead. Cole belonged to the darkness. He tried so hard to escape it, but he never could, even when he was made human. It always came to claim him eventually.

So why could she not stop loving him? Why did she have this pain in her heart? The day he left was the first time she felt it. He had been Cole then, the man she fell in love with, the man she stood up with in front of the world and pledged before God to love forever. And she'd meant every word of those vows. But no, not before God. Even their wedding had been a sham, she thought bitterly.

As he walked away, she felt a pain in her heart. It had grown over time, but she had gotten used to it. It wasn't just metaphorical pain, it was physical. Like some one had stuck a knife in her chest and left it there. And every time she heard Cole's name mentioned, the knife was twisted sharply anti-clockwise.

He had been so different that day. The madness was gone, the evil inside him retreated. For a little while at least. And now Paige was to be his white lighter. She wondered what he was like now, who he had become. Did he still love her? Of course he did. Cole changed so much while she knew him. From demon, to human, to Source of all evil, to invincible. From evil to good to evil to mad. But his love for her was the one constant, the one thing that never changed.

But she would never let him get that close to her again. She had seen the evil inside of hem, and it terrified her.

But she still loved him so much she could barely even stand it.