Chapter 8!!!!!!
Hello, v sorry I disappeared on you all. But I'm back, and I still believe!!!!!!! Do you?
GO PHOEBE AND COLE!
p.s. If you don't r&r I will assume none of you believe. Ye faithless wretches, you have abandoned him!!!!!! He needs us!
Spinning and darkness …nothing but darkness. Enveloping, surrounding. I breathed it in, choked on it, vomited darkness. I saw nothing but death. But wait, a light shines. A small smile, a mop of dark hair. Blue eyes …his fathers eyes. The smile widens and I recognise it. The same smile I see every day in the mirror. Suddenly I feel no darkness, no pain. Only light and life. I almost laugh at the absurdity of it … who could believe in darkness? It wasn't real, couldn't be real. Who could believe in the darkness whilst surrounded by this light? There could only ever be joy. At least …at least while he is here. His father made me feel this way …my child's father. The child I killed.
Faces swim in front, laughing, mocking, stabbing. People I have loved, people I saved. People I hurt and people I killed. Faces swirling …its never ending. Redemption does not exist. Not for me. Not ever. Not after what I did. Suddenly, she is there …her and the boy. He is always there, holding her hand. I broke her heart, but I killed him. I killed our son.
At exactly the same moment, miles away, Phoebe Halliwell and Cole Turner awoke the same instant, with tears running down their cheeks.
'Bad dreams?' asked Paige, who was standing at the edge of the bed, surrounded by white lights.
'No. I'm fine'. Cole stood up and walked into the kitchen.
'Because you really should talk about it … dreams can mean something. And I AM your whitelighter.' She followed him, not giving up. As usual.
'Look, Paige-' Cole stopped short. Over the three years that Paige had been his whitelighter, a trust and admiration had grown up between them. He now depended on her in a way he had never depended on another person. Apart from Her of course. But Cole preferred not to think about that. 'Its nothing. Honestly. Don't worry'
He smiled at her, and she glowed inside. That smile … it so rarely happened and it was so beautiful. She had to earn every smile from him. Paige now loved Cole as the brother he had once truly been.
Over the years, Paige's mission weighed heavily upon her, and she had never forgotten it. But now was not the right time for them. She sensed it with an instinct she never knew she possessed. She would wait. For an eternity if it was necessary. But watching Cole and Phoebe fall apart was killing her.
Phoebe lay, curled up on her bed, hugging a ginormous bear. Cole had bought it for her when he discovered she was pregnant. She smiled through her tears at the memory. A song drifted through the open window. She closed her eyes and let the word waft over her.
There is something that I see
In the way you look at me
There's a smile, there's a truth
In your eyes
What an unexpected way
On this unexpected day
Could it be this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along
There's no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along
There were times I ran to hide
Afraid to show the other side
Alone in the night without you
But now I know just who you are
And I know you hold my heart
Finally this is where I belong
And it is you I have loved all along
There's no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
It is you I have loved all along
Over and over I'm filled with emotion
Your love, it rushes through my veins
And I am filled with the sweetest devotion
As I look into your perfect face
There's no more a mystery, it is finally clear to me
You're the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved
It is you I have loved
It is you I have loved all along
Her heart felt dead inside her.