Ch 4

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"Alright so where were you before you came here?"

"I was studying occulmency. Are you ever going to ask my name?"

"What's your name?"

"John." At this Hermione gave him a sideways glance before looking down at the books in front of her. They had taken over a back table in the library. It was nearly ten o'clock and no progress had been made yet.

"John. How long have you been studying Occulmency then?"

"About 3 weeks." Remus replied with a sheepish smile. Hermione nodded.

''I studied it breifly in my fifth year and have started taking an actual course on it this year so we're probably in the same area."

"Wait, you mean you started it alone in your fifth year? Why?"

"To..help a friend I guess. He had to study it and I wanted to help him." Remus looked at her fully trying to decided if she had told him the truth."So anyway, since I havent had my lesson this week, is there anything you wanted to cover or should we just move on to the next subject?" At this Remus looked thoughful.

"Next subject I supose. I was suposed to write two rolls of parchment on a potion that is uncommon, but I could find useful in my life."

"So am I. Do you know which one you're going to do it on?" Hermione asked, skimming over a book.

"Not a bloody clue" He said with a sigh. "Are we done? We've been at this for hours Hermione." His tone was short and he wouldn't meet her eyes.

"Yes I guess we are. Are you coming back tomorrow John?" She asked quietly

"I have to don't I?" He spit out bitterly, his mood change so sudden.

'If you want I can get you another tutor. I don't have to do it if you want." She said, looking sideways at him.

"Fine, goodnight Hermione" Remus stood, threw his things in a bag and walked out.

Hermione slowly gathered her things, wondering why he had left all of the sudden. She decided that Lupin might know. After she finished grabbing her things, she bid Madame Pince goodnight and headed off in search of Professor Lupin's quarters.

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"All of the sudden I got angry at Hermione for no reason! I yelled at her and told her I didn't want her to tutor me anymore."

"Don't you like her?" Lupin asked cautiously. At this his younger self gave him an incredulous look. "Right..You got angry because I was angry at the time. Remember, we are connected because frankly, you're you and I'm me. We're each other. Any strong burst of emotion, is going to be felt by the both of us."

''Is that why I know what you think about her when you see her?" Remus asked accusingly

"What are you talking about? She's my student."

"Yes, that's right. She is. You have no right to feel this way about her Remus!" At this the older Lupin looked defeated and a wave of guilt washed over Remus.

"I know.." It was all he said, it was quiet and without emotion. "I know I shouldn't love her but I do. There are things you don't understand, things that have happened."

"Then tell me"

"I can't. We can't change the future. It's time for you to go to bed. It's late and you're still worn out."

"Don't tell me what I.."

"I can feel it Remus."

"Right. Goodnight then. But we're not done" Remus got up and walked out leaving his older self sitting in a chair.

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Right. A short one but I lost my motivation for a bit. It's back for now so I'll try and write better next time. Just wanted to get this out.