Disclaimer: I own nothing, although the Phantom owns my heart and soul.
Fate has a cruel way of doing things, as he forced the veil on my head, a veil I would have taken voluntarily under different circumstances, I realized this.
Fate was unkind to this poor creature who lived beneath the opera house. Fathe had given him a curse, left him to the darkness, left him to die with no chance in this kind of world, especially in this kind of world. People here were too cruel.
I never understood how a crowd of seemingly decent and respectable people could gather around as an innocent creature was beaten or mocked, and then go on without concience or regret for not helping the weak thing. Fate had a hand in everything, so I suppose fate should be blamed.
It wasn't fair that fate had brought Raoul back to me at the same time she had given me my beautiful angel. Yes, my beautiful angel, some would not agree had they been the ones to tear the mask from his face, they would have run. They would have never wanted anything of this angel of the night, my angel of music. I cannot say the same. Shock often causes one to react or behave differently in a situation then they would under different circumstances. His face was not what shocked me, it was that I did not find horro in it. He said he was a monster. I saw no monster there, only a tortured man. I saw a man who had been punished and tormented in life for no reason but fate.
Then Raoul came. Fate was unfair yet again to everyone involved.
Raoul is my only link to my father, I do love him. But, the same can be said for Erik, he is my angel, at least, that is how he taught me, under the guise of an angel.
I shouldn't have run from Erik, I shouldn't have spoken to Raoul. I shouldn't have taken Raoul to the rooftop that night of Il Muto. I should not have kissed him, and yet, how is that fair to me?
I suppose that it is my fault for believing, believing he was truly an angel. And yet, better to know he is real than truly doesn't exist. If he hadn't been real I would never have survived. The days when he sang to me, with me, I was truly alive. It was all fates fault.
I love Erik.
But, Raould, he'd thought I was in danger, and now...he is here. He is here being tortured because of fate. It was all fates fault.
I love Raoul.
"I gave you my mind blindly..." I cried.
"You try my patience...make your choice!"
I should never have been so weak minded. I should never have allowed him to take me here.
"Pitiful creature of darkness"
I should never have loved.
"...what kind of life have you known"
Should never have.
"...God give me courage to show you"
I should never have looked into his eyes.
"You are not alone."
I should never have kissed him.
And yet, he let me go.
Tonight I gave half my soul to the man who had given me the gift of song, the gift of life, and above all the gift of love, but I took half of my soul with me for the man who was to be, had to be, my future.
I loved them both.
But I should never have kissed him.
It was all fates fault.