It was the night of the new moon. Inuyasha sat out at the river-side, thinking, while everyone else finished up their meals around the fire.
"Inuyasha, are you going to eat the rest of your food?" Shippo asked while eyeing down Inuyasha's un-touched fish.
"No," Inuyasha sighed.
"What's wrong with him?" Sango whispered to Miroku as Shippo gorged himself with fish.
"I don't know…every once in a while he just sits and thinks," Miroku answered.
Kagome got up and walked over to Inuyasha, then sat next to him. Neither of them spoke a word. Inuyasha just stared the other way, watching the gentle waters coast by.
"It sure looks nice out tonight," Kagome said.
The wind blew some, whisking through their hair. Inuyasha did not reply. He was still looking the other way, propping his head up on his hand.
Kagome felt very awkward as she sat there in silence. She hoped she wasn't disturbing Inuyasha. He never usually mellowed out like this, especially when he turned mortal.
Inuyasha got up, then walked out into the waters. The water ran past his knees slowly, along with the rest of the waters, and rippled outwards. When the ripples reached the shore that Kagome was sitting by, she stood up. She stood there for a while, unmoving, waiting for Inuyasha to say something. But, no words were spoken.
Kagome went to walk away when she heard Inuyasha quietly say, "…don't go."
She stopped and looked back, "Inuyasha?"
"Please…just…don't go," Inuyasha took deep, slow breaths.
Kagome turned around to see he was still facing the other way. She then slowly walked into the waters, towards him.
"What's wrong?" she asked.
Kagome was now right next to Inuyasha. He didn't look at her, his head was still turned the other way. She looked down at the waters to see what appeared to be a raindrop. She looked up, expecting to see dark clouds, but there was only a clear night sky and no sign of rain.
Is he…is he crying? Kagome thought.
She then heard sniffling.
"Inuyasha…" Kagome put her hand on his shoulder.
Suddenly, Inuyasha grabbed Kagome and hugged her. This surprised Kagome. She then wrapped her arms around him and returned the hug.
"…its okay," Kagome said, trying to comfort Inuyasha as he cried on her shoulder.
She hadn't the slightest idea why he had hugged her, or what was wrong, but she figured that she could try to help him out.
"Just tell me what's wrong," Kagome looked up at Inuyasha.
Inuyasha let go of her and wiped his tears, "…when e finally get the sacred jewel…and I turn into a full blooded demon…you must promise to remember me."
Kagome looked into his eyes, "Why do you want to be a demon…when you will lose everything?"
Inuyasha did not answer. He stood there, staring into Kagome's concerned eyes.
"Please, Inuyasha, don't use the jewel for that. Why not use it to turn mortal?" Kagome was very confused about why Inuyasha would choose to lose everything just so that he could be a full-blooded demon.
Still, Inuyasha stood there, speechless.
"You aren't yourself when you're transformed. You and I both know that you black out and can barely control your actions…you slaughtered a group of people for no reason when you transformed while fighting Goshinki."
"Nonsense," Inuyasha had now stopped crying, "You and I both know that if I hadn't transformed when fighting Naraku's filthy 3rd incarnation, we wouldn't be here right now."
"But…you didn't recognize Miroku, Sango, Shippo…or even me…"
"Kagome…"Inuyasha looked over to see that Kagome was crying now.
He put her arms around her and hugged her, this surprised Kagome once more
"I will remember you-"
Kagome pushed away, "What will being a demon accomplish for you? What is so great about it!? Tell me! I want to know!"
Inuyasha was speechless; he just stood there in the water, staring at her. Kagome then took off, back towards their campsite.
Why do I desire to be a demon? Is it the demon blood that flows in me that desires this wish and not me? Inuyasha looked at his reflection in the water.
He then decided to head back to try and get some rest. When he reached camp, he saw that everyone had already gone to sleep. Inuyasha walked to the tree that Kagome was now asleep against. He sat down, next to Kagome, and looked at her. He was glad that tomorrow he would be back to his normal half-demon state, but he also liked being a mortal because it made him seem to feel closer to Kagome somehow. He then looked at the stars on the horizon, until he slowly drifted off to sleep.
Author's Note: This is my first FanFic up on here. Please review. The next chapter should be up as well. :D :D It gets better, trust me. My friend, Barbara, read it and she doesn't even watch Inuyasha yet she still loved it. I hope all of you like it as well.