(Remembering memory)
"How can he do that to me, god! He said we would always be friends everybody is lying to me! I don't understand this anymore... "I whisper as I look around and notice that my legs took me to the same park that Max took me when he was drunk. I almost bend over in pain, thinking I was going to vomit. "He wont even believe me...it wasn't a suicide, I refuse to believe it...it wasn't a suicide, my best friend wouldn't leave me like that, he wouldn't leave me!" I keep whisper to myself.
Something caught my attention, I slowly look up, I see someone looking overat me at the far end of the park. There lingering in the darkness, thinking I couldn't see them, I wish I couldn't, I admit to my self. I slowly take a seat at the bench, trying to get out of prying eyes. I shiver as I can still feel that same person looking at me, I turn around and the shadow is gone. I canfeelmy eyes go wide as I here a noise, only a couple of metres away from me.
I slowly get up and move across from where I was seated, I pick up my luggage, which is amazingly light for I only have a few things not enough to survive. "I cant believe I'm actually doing this" I whisper to myself, once again. I have my small bag in my right hand and my bus ticket in my other. Im shaking, I don't know how I've came up with this ridicules plan... but then again I don't understand a lot of things right now.
I quickly turn around only to see a man... the same person who was lingering in the shadows, watching me. He looks at me as if I'm some thing he is going to eat, as if im nothing. My voice fails on me, which wouldn't be the first time, I cringe as he comes closer.
"Wha-" before I can say anymore he is gone, I shake a little bit more in disbelief. I take one long breath and continue my walk. I walk along the empty streets once again.
(End of memory)
I get up from my crouch position, trying to block out the memories that linger to long inside my mind. I don't want to remember that night, not until I get my revenge, I think to myself. I walk, just walking I'm not sure were I'm going I'm following my instincts.
I feel something... I look down at my stomach and I relies its hunger, I haven't eaten for days. "Well maybe its because you were dead!" Iberate myself. I look around and I see that nothing is open, my heart drops."Your heart isn't even beating" I remind myself. I suddenly hear someone. I quickly turn around and relies it's the same girl from the cemetery, who I thought would have given up by now.
"Cant you just leave me alone!" I demand
"I cant, I'm sorry," she says sincerely
I look at her with doubtful hope "why"
"Your evil and I have to kill you before you kill others!" she says as if she has said it a thousand times before.
"Evil?" I question, "sure I've been called a bitch but not evil!" I sigh heavily "look can we do this some other time I really have to do something"
She looks at me as if I've totally lost it.
"And what, let you kill innocent people, just so you can feed?" she ask in an overly demanding tone.
"Feed? What do you mean feed?" I ask almost in tears that I don't understand anything anymore. I force myself not to think that perhaps I really didn't know anything to begin with, that it was a figment of my imagination.
"Stop playing dumb, I'm sick of talking!" with that she swing kicks me right in my stomach I bend down in pain, with fresh tears dripping down my cheeks. Im now crouched down, I slowly look up to see the blonde in a fighting position. I then cough up blood, I'm crouched next to a puddle of blood. Im looking at my own blood, blood which I didn't even know I still had, some how it gives me satisfactory of knowing that at least I still have that.
I look at her once again and smile, not an evil smile but a thankyou smile.
"What" she questioned, not knowing whether to stand her ground or kick me again.
"I still have blood," I say as if it's the most obvious things.
She looks around, thinking it must be a trap, "what sort of vampire are you?" she ask, probably rhetorical but I answer anyway.
"A damn good one!" a give a sly grin and slowly get up off the cold floor and in a fighting position also.
"You want to fight, fine but its going to be your down fall" I say almost unbelieving my own words. I can tell she's holding back a stiff laugh.
She swings herfist into a punch and aims for my stomach again I quickly duck and kick lowto the groundand in the process I hither feet. She falls on the ground with a thud, satisfied with my kick I hold my position waiting for her to get up. Im hungry, really hungry, I think to myself, I then here my stomach growl.
"ah! Do you have any food!" I ask desperately while she slowly gets up of the ground.
"Come get me" she says with pure sarcasm. I look at her for a second and shake my head.
"Sorry but you would taste disgusting" I say as sarcastic as her.
"Can you quit your friken talking already! God! You're supposed to be a damn vampire, you know you attack me and I attack you!" she says, as now she is pissed off.
I look at her, "Why?" Iasksadly
"There is know, 'why'" she scolds
"I'm not crazy you know, just because im dead and just because I don't have a heart beat does not mean I'm some psycho whichtrys to killeveryone! God! Sure I wanted to get out of Roswell, but it didn't mean I wanted to die! It didn't mean I didn't want to ever see Max! I don't understand how some one can do this, be this cruel, now I have to live with these damn memories which just wont go away and there going to be in my head for eternity! And there is nothing I can do about it!" I cry as i feel tears slideing down my ghost-like cheeks.
She look at me with pure sympathy, she relaxes and stands normal and then she reaches out her hand for me to take "I'm Buffy" she says sadly.
I look at her and take her hand and give her a small, sad smile as i angrily wipe my tears away, yet knowing they will inevitably fall again.
"Liz" I answer, almost not even recognising my own name, I shiver at the thought and as quickly as it came it was then gone. I then look at 'Buffy' again and then I sprint away as far as possible. I run as fast as I can, once again knowing that I don't know were I'm going wehreevermy legs take me.
I keep running not bothering to look back until I lose her, until she gives up and until my legs cant go anymore. Until I;m so tired that I will just collapse and forget about my hunger. I'm finally so puffed out that I'm gasping for air, I then look up and cant believe that I didn't even notice were I was at.
I smile but then the smile fades as I remember what he did and what he said. I quickly block the thought out of my head as I feel a burning sensation on my arm, I look up at the sky and I see that the sun is slowly coming up. Without a second thought I jump up to his room and break the lock and climb into his window. Hopeing that no one heard me
I see him curled up in bed, there was evidence that he was crying last night, there are tearstains on his cheeks were they lay untouched. For a brief second my heart went out to him...then I remembered my heart isn't even beating, I thhink bitterly.
Suddenly I see his eyes are slowly opening as im still hiding in the shadows. I see him slowly get out of his bed, walking slowly towards his desk to an open book. He wrote something quickly down and then got up from his seat towards his wardrobe where he quickly put a black shirt on and some jeans.
He turns around and then our eyes meet "Liz" he whispers